The goodbye. Friday

It was a sunny day, and I was going to stay at Lara's house this weekend. My aunt wanted me to be close since my mom is going away, and she doesn't want me to feel alone. Though I told her I'd be fine, my mom ended up making me accept the offer.
Of course, I didn't go to school. I was all day with my mom, or at least the last hours. We woke up at 7 a.m. Her flight was at 3:30 p.m, so we had plenty of time to talk about anything.
She told me several times to take care of myself, to not do stupid things, to focus on my studies, to not talk to Julian, to not hurry things with Josh, to not fight with my father, and so on and so forth.
We were at home, waiting for my aunt to come. Lara was at school, she is supposed to bring me all the stuff by afternoon.
I checked my cellphone, and a lot of messages from my friends were on my inbox, wishing my mom a nice trip. Literally, my friends like my mom more than they like me. I mean, for being honest, they barely like me.
They only appreciate me. That's it. My mom is their friend. Me? No one.
I was reading all the messages to my mom, from Xavier, Laila, Maureen, and even Lissa. Huh, that bitch.
How she dares to text me? After everything she did in the past month to my baby Laila?
-Never mind about the greetings from Melissa.
-What happened? Troubles with Laila again? - asked mom, really into the gossip.
-She told Laila she wasn't lesbian at all, and that she felt a lot of pressure while being with her. You know what her problem is? She will NEVER speak up out loud to her parents. She will NEVER face them. She just can't. She is a coward.
Mom looked at me in a serious "now listen to me you young lady" way.
-You don't know Anne. You don't know how is her life in her house, you don't know with what kind of parents she is dealing with. Not every mom nor dad is as great as you mom here-and she pointed at her face- or Laila's mom. Okay? Don't judge her.
-Then, if she knows she can't yet fight her parents, then why she decides to play the great "I'm a bitch and I'm doing it because I know is forbidden, and then I'll break her heart because that's how bad bitch I am". She is a shit.
-Whatever you say, Anne.
I'm sorry, it is what it is. You can't play with a person like that, and it's not the first time she does that with Laila. For real, what does she even sees in Lissa?
I just left that girl on seen. I mean, my mom doesn't need of her greetings.
We both were in silence, and then my mom asked me if I like girls. I just laugh at her.
-Mom, I don't. If I ever do, you are going the first one to know about it.
- I just don't want you to keep things from me. And certainly I don't want my daughter to be a heartbreaker, because at the end...
-We all pay what we deserve to- I finished with a smile.
At some point, we all do things in a wrong way. Maybe you can spend your whole life thinking that you never hurt anyone, but when you less expect it, there is karma. Is just how it works.

We were at the airport. My aunt was crying, she was all dramatic. I wanted to cry of course, but I had to stay strong for my mother, to show her that I was happy in this new step. It has always been like that. Whenever she fought with my dad, and I wanted to cry, I just wouldn't do it. I felt like my mom needed me to be strong. Which is funny, because she is always saying that I'm as cold as a stone.
My father went there too. He was crying a little bit, saying it was all his fault that my mom had to leave like that.
Thanks for recognizing, tho.
I hug my mom, and told her several times that I loved her, and to take care and to call me every time. She seems happy, but both of us know that we are going to miss each other a lot.
When she was gone, my aunt looked at my dad, and without saying a word, took me of the arm and pull me to herself. It was time to go home and she couldn't stand being there for more minutes with him. I wanted to laugh.
-See you at home dad- I said, and he waived.
When we got in the car, my aunt was a little bit annoyed.
-How on earth he comes here? He has the nerve!
-Auntie, he is my dad. The mother of her daughter is going away. Maybe he is doing it for me.
-Whatever. I don't want to talk about him. Let's go and get Lara.
We were talking about some things, and when we got to the school, there was Joshua. He was talking with Christopher, all motivated. I wanted to get off the car, but then Lara just jumped in.
-Hi Annie!! I texted auntie, and wished her the better of the trips! Hi mommy, how are you?
-I'm fine my dear, let's go home. I cooked plenty of food for lunch.
-Thank you Larie- I respond back.
-So, what are the plans of your mates today? - asked my aunt.
-Well, today we are going to be selling some hamburgers, you know, for the prom.
-But prom is next year! What the hell? - I asked.
-But we want it to be very special.
-When did you guys decide it?
-Today darling- respond Lara.
-Don't you want to go and, you know, chill out?
-Yes, I mean, why not?
-So there we are! You are going to go girls, and I bet it will be fun.
-Oh, and Mom...
-What's up, Lara...
-Today is Oscar's party... You know, his 17th...
-He is older than us?- I was surprised.
I know, I sound like a shy, one of those "weirdos" that does not talk to anyone in school. And I don't.
But I used to be really cool at my old school. Is just that here, if it is not with my friends then I'm kinda off about everything.
-We can talk about the party later. But for now on, the hamburger thing is okay- said auntie.

-Pizza was great mom!
-You should totally open up a bar or something aunt. You even know how to make some cool drinks.
-Well, I don't want to do it now. I'm just happy like this. Besides we don't need money.
We ended up our food when a maid came to pick out dishes.
-It's okay, I can do it- I said.
-No Anne Cecile, leave Mariella. It's her job.
Lara looked at me like "pff, don't mind her".
We got in her bedroom.
-Since when is that lady here?
-Since last week. My mom said she needed help. What she needed was to sleep, that's why she hired her. But it won't be for long, I guess.
-And how is she?
-Nice. Hey, have you talked to Joshua today?
I checked my phone. No messages, nothing.
-No, but he was at school, so probably he didn't have time yet.
-Anyways, he is totally going to this "selling hamburgers for prom", so you gotta make up!
I was shocked.
-Why would he do that?
Lara looked at me like "seriously?"
I forgot he has a brother.
-Anyways Lara, I have to do homework, so, would you please give me your notebooks?
-You are staying the whole weekend here. Relax, watch TV or something sis.
Lara took off her way to her mom's room, and I sat down in her couch. I was missing my mom already, it was so weird not to ask her "hey mom, could you pick me up?".
Thinking about it, I realized something really unnecessary: Today is Julian's birthday.
My whole mood turn to gray and suddenly I wanted nothing but to sleep. So I closed my eyes.

-Anne! Anne, wake up! Look!
-What?
I was lost at the moment, but then I remember my name.
-Look who has texted- Lara gave me my phone.
My eyes were wide open right now.

"I really miss you. I wanted to talk with you, but something was stopping me. Today I guess I can give myself some stuff, this one is one of them. I really love you. Please, forgive me".

-Has he felt off while born? -ask Lara.
-I deleted his number, I did everything... Today is two months since we...
And I started to cry, to cry a lot. Lara pulls me close to her and hugged me.
-It's all right. Never mind, he doesn't deserve it. Please, let it go, let him go. Don't answer him.
-I wasn't going to- I said.
I left it on seen.
-I don't think I'm able for anything right now.
-Anne, you'd be fine. You just can't stop your whole life and your activities for some jerk. He is the worst kind of person ever, don't you mind him, please. It would be fun, we'll be there, cooking, or chilling, the party is tonight and I'm sure mom is going to take us. You can't let this win you, and at some point, this has to happen. Boys are like that.
-But two months, Lara. Two months. Wasn't he with Mikaela or something? Why now? I'm not ready for Joshua at all.
Lara laughed a little.
-Honey, that girl is not even the quarter of what you are. And Joshua, he is fine, he is your friend. Just calm down. And don't answer the phone. Is your time now to say goodbye.