My day has come. Wednesday.

I was feeling a little bit happier than any other day. My mom has bought me that amazing dress and, frankly, I don't even know when am I going to use it. She was happy for me about all the thing with Joshua. She told me that someday, I would stop having crushes and finally make them real lovers. I hope she is not lying tho, it hurts to not be noticed.
This Friday she was going to leave me. And trying not to think about that is really hard. I already gave up on Julian, but not seeing my mom everyday is going to be harder than I thought.
Anyways, when I got into the school, I saw Joshua talking with Alex. I didn't know whether to say hi or wait until he does it first. Luckily, I choose the second choice. He saw me and smiled at me.
-Hey Anne! How are you doing?
-I'm fine, and you Josh?
-Fine, thank you.
The bell rang. Entry hour.
-So, see you at lunch?
I try not to faint.
-Totally.
He. Told. Me. To. See. Him. At. Lunch.
Okay okay, it's normal. I mean, I'm his friend now, of course he would like to have lunch with a friend. I'd love to have lunch with Xavier, for example, and that doesn't mean a thing at all! I need to chill.
And besides, wasn't it too soon to even start talking to someone new? I had just broken up. What would Julian think if he finds out about it. He would totally blew it on my face. "I knew you were this type of bitch".
Yes, because he treated me like that. At the end, he treated me like a slut when I never, ever in my life did that. I would never cheat. I find it stupid and ridiculous. And he knows that. But why he kept saying those things when we broke up?
Because he was the one who was cheating on me and he wanted to be so sure that I was doing the same to him, so he wouldn't feel that guilty. And probably I shouldn't care about what he says, but the least thing I wanted to was to hear him talking to his friends about me and saying "I knew she was like that. She can't be alone for a week. She needs a cock to be happy".
Oh man, why did I ever fell in love with someone like that? Why did I ever allow him to treat me like that? At the end, he never loved me. He was just some idiot with mommy and daddy issues. I was the major idiot who tried to change him for better, and yet that was what I received.
And for first time in two months, I feel a little happy again. And not because of Joshua. Because I know that sooner or later, I'll find someone that can make me fall in love again. It could totally be Joshua or anybody else.
I always thought that falling in love is a complete tragedy, and that you will always end up feeling like trash. My opinion was based on my experiences with my parents. And is not really far from truth, I mean, I ended up feeling worthless about my relationship with Julian.
But falling in love is more than a breakup. Is a wonderful step to love someone, to really care about him or her. To develop feelings and get mature. People fall in love because is what we need at some point, because having fun with someone special is just something that you can't buy at some store. Because being in love makes you feel flattered, blushed. I've heard that when a girl looks more beautiful now than months ago, it's because she has fallen in love. Maybe with a person, maybe with herself, who knows.
And after all of this, I realized something: I shouldn't care what Julian might think. He thought the worst about me while being my boyfriend. Now that he is not even a number in my life, he can think whatever he wants. His thoughts won't kill me.
I couldn't care less. If I ever cared about someone's opinions, will always be my parent's one. They feed me. Julian never did. So fuck him.

-For tomorrow, I need everyone to write an essay. This essay must be personal. The topic can be whatever you want, I just want this to be personal and to be creative. It can be about music, food, clothes, games, anything that you feel connected to or feel right to write about. Something that at some point, is important in your life. This essay must be a practice for the University. I know that you end up next year, but now is the time to prepare yourselves in order to expand your thoughts, opinions and vocabulary overall. See you guys.
Mrs. Sánchez finally ended her so damn boring class.
I mean, I love English literature but oh my God, she makes me hate Gaskell.
And she is my favorite writer. So maybe my point is understood.
-Maia is not here. Do you know why?
Roxie is finally at school. She seems really tired and has some eye bags.
-I don't know, I haven't texted her yesterday. Are you okay?
-Yes, I finally am. But I'm in real pain now, would you go to the bathroom with me?
She was totally sick. She was as pale as a ghost.
-Why didn't you get some rest?
Roxie did the abortion yesterday. That's why she is feeling dazed.
-I've been absent for days and I won't let this little trouble ruin my GPA. I need to go to an university, you know.
-Is just that one more day wouldn't hurt. Honey, do you want me to get you some chocolate?
She washed her face, trying to not feel exhausted.
-I'd love that.
I went out to the cafeteria, and bought her a chocolate bar when I saw Joshua getting out his classroom with Paul, one of his mates.
I can't believe how he can be so sweet. His smile just lights up my eyes.
When I got in the bathroom, Roxie was sitting in the toilet.
-You really don't want to go home?
-And miss the opportunity to see you interacting with Joshua?
I looked at her. She rolled her eyes.
-Maybe. I just don't want Scott to worry about me.
-He always will. You were going to be the mother of his kid!
-Fuck off! Don't say that again!
I laughed, and she bite her chocolate.
- I guess we now have Science, right?
-We have Math now. Let's get you to the principal and see if you can go home.
-I was going to be a mother. Life really changes when you know you are pregnant.
She was about to cry.
-No regrets. You need to think in your future. Kids will come latter.
And I hugged her.
-Scott was kind of mad at me when I get in the room. But when everything was done, he hugged me so tight. Like he would never leave me. I love him so much Anne, like you couldn't imagine. And I know I'd have loved that kid. But it just wasn't the time, you know?
-I know, and stop feeling guilty about it. You did what you think was right and I support you, because I'd do the same. Is all right, you are going to take care now.
I wasn't really good with words, but hugging her made her feel better, I could see it in her face.

-It's been a long day, huh?
-Totally. Mrs. Sánchez is the worst literature teacher ever. You know what she gave us? A homework when we have to write an essay. I'm so not in the mood of doing it.
-Well, I can understand you. Mr. Tratcher gave us some job to do about math and physics.
-Luckily, I've got Delia doing my math and physics homework. I hate math.
-Wow, Anne. I never thought you were that kind of cheater!
Joshua laughed and then drank his coke.
-I'm not! But is not like my daily life will be only determined by math and physics.
-Do you know what to study? Or are you still thinking about it?
-I'm between Journalism or English Literature. I don't know, something that has to go on with editing books and stuff.
He looked at me and smiled.
-I always saw you reading a book, and actually it surprised me when Alex told me you wanted to be my friend.
I blushed. Maybe my face at that moment was more red than a DAMN tomato.
-And is that bad?- I asked.
-What? No, of course not! Is just that I never thought you'd be a little interested in what my person is.
What on earth do I respond to that?
-So, Josh, what would you like to study?
-I don't know, the only thing that I know I like and I'm good at is cooking.
And he was right! His pies were delicious!
-Well, I only tried your vainilla pie, and also chocolate pie, and I must say, you know how to cook.
-Thank you, young lady- he laughed.
One thing for sure: we could talk about everything and I'd never going to get bored with him by my side.