Mom is helping. Tuesday afternoon.

Okay, I need to calm down. It's only that. A devolution of likes. People do that, is not big deal.
-You gotta write him! Say hi!
Roxie was even more excited than ever.
-I'm not! He just stalked me back! It doesn't mean anything.
-It totally does! He likes you back! For some reason he did it, come on! Write him!
-You know what? I'll be Miss Needy 2018 if I do that.
Roxie looked at me, angrily.
-Fine, I'll send him this little heart. With a hi.
Now her face have a smile again.
We sat on her bed, waiting for an answer.
I grabbed Roxie's hand when my phone rang.

Hey! How ya doing Anne?

-OH MY, HE CALLED ME ANNE!
I just couldn't handle my excitement. Roxanne looked at me.
-Isn't that your name? I mean, don't wait for him to call you babe right now.
-He never called me by my name!
-Maybe because you never talked to him?
Roxie was killing my happiness.
-Okay okay, calm down. Here is where you are going to talk to him, chat, find nice topics to discuss about and don't rush it. He obviously finds you pretty. Let him find how intelligent and interesting you are too, girl.
I hugged her. Even tho she has worst problems, she was there for me. It meant a lot.
-Haven't you...
-No. I'll go this to the clinic. With Scott only. He'll be fine and we will end up with this problem.
-Anything you need, you know I'm here. If you want me to go with you...
-No, I don't. I just want Scott there. Is our business but thanks you. A lot. For everything.

Said I'd never leave her, 'cause her hand fit like my T-shirt
Tongue tied over three words, cursed
Running thoughts that make my feet hurt
Body is intertwined with her lips
Now she is feeling so low since she went solo
Hole in the middle of my heart like a polo
And it's no joke to me
So, can we do it all over again?
My head was rolling. I was listening to that song, which is talking a lot about a come back when I finally get Joshua to talk to me. I'm a disaster and the worst teen girl ever.
This has been my favorite song since it first came out, on that childish 2012. And how I missed having 10 years old only. No worries, no dramas. Only me and my little world.
My best friend was pregnant, her boyfriend was at the hospital. My mother is going away this Friday and that means I only have 3 days left with her. My father is moving back home so I won't stay alone, but honestly, I don't want him to take care of me. I can do it alone, I don't even know what are we going to talk about either. I had a lot of homework to do and all I did is chat around and be needy.
I hope Joshua is not thinking that about me.
Tell me with your mind, body and spirit
I can make your tears fall down like the showers that are British
Whether we are together or apart
We can both remove the masks and admit we regret it from the start.
I really enjoy listening to this song. It makes me think a lot. About everything and everyone.
I arrived at home and my mom was making some coffee. She asked me about Scott, and then she told me that we have to go to the shopping mall.
-Honey, have you think about what we talked last week?
-About going with you?
She nodded.
I wanted to get out of here, that's true. But my friends, my life, I don't think I'm ready to leave it all behind me.
-I need to finish high school, mom. And when I'm done I'm going to decide.
-You know universities there are incredibly great. The academics courses and system, I think you're gonna love it.
-I'm open about it. Just not now.
My phone rang. Joshua was actually talking to me. Or writing, whatever.
He told me he was going to cook for dinner. I forgot he was great at making food. For real. He used to make some dessert and sell them at school, I really don't know why he stopped tho.
I was answering that I was going to the mall. My mom, curious as always, asked me and I told her everything.
She was happy about me, and she told me to be calm and be interesting, he'd love that. And she also told me to not respond to him like, in 5 secs. I should wait more, to show him that I'm always busy. She said that that makes them feel privileged of being part of a girl's busy life. I laughed, as if Joshua would ever feel that.
I bet he is thinking a lot on his ex. Just like I am too, what can I say?
When we arrived to the mall, mom told me to shop new clothes and shoes, so we could give some old clothes to charity or something. Also, we were going to buy some new stuff because she wouldn't be around anymore for some time.
And to be honest, I can't imagine myself shopping with my dad.
We went on Nordstrom, and for our convenience, there were a lot of things on bargain.
-Darling, you go over there and look out for some dresses. Summer is approaching.
I wanted to take some selfies at the mirrors, but I was dressed up so badly.
I was looking at the dresses when I saw one.
It was white, with sparks on it. To be more specific: It was white, long and loose. It was only tight on the chest, so I imagined it on me, and it would highlight my small breasts. The strips that go to the shoulder were so thin and delicate. The fabric was not silk but it was somehow similar, and it had beige flowers embroidered around the entire lower part. A small tulle surrounded the skirt. It was simply beautiful.
And it was the only dress left there. I wanted to cry.
It was the perfect dress for a beach wedding, and I always wanted to marry on a beach. The idea reminded me of how much we would talk about our wedding. I hate thinking about Julian.
I just calm, while still looking at that dress. A tall guy came next to me.
-Isn't it beautiful?- he asked.
-It's gorgeous- I said.
-We only have 4 dresses like that one. That is the last one left, the other 3 were sold as fast as you can imagine.
-These 4 dresses were all the same?
-Oh my dear, no! Different designs of course, but it was from the same collection.
-Who designed it?
-Arava Polak. It's a great designer, her style is unique. It has some boho vibe, but is so smart. Fancy, you know.
-I never heard abour her before. She is really talented.
-You know, if you are going to use that dress, it should be with someone just as special as you. Not every dress is for every girl, you should know that my dear.
He smiled and I thanked him. My mom would never buy me that dress, at least not now.
But now I do know what is the exact dress I want to wear when I get married.
I put it back on where it was and start looking for some real and normal dresses. Mom approached to me.
-I saw the way you were looking that dress. Did you like it?
-Isn't it obvious?
-You would look amazing on that dress.
I kissed her in the cheeks. And she bought it for me. She totally did.
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The picture in this chapter is the dress I've been in love with since it came out this year. Since I'm a big fan of fashion design, I thought it would be great to talk about it in this story. Fashion is a huge part of our life and it must be a topic to talk (write) about!
Thank you for reading it and search for Arava Polak, her job is really a dream come true.
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