The big try. Next week on Monday.

-And remember guys, you only have this and the next year to think about your futures. It's a big step to finish high school and start college. The staff of Klaus University would be proud and pleased to see you on campus.
We all clapped. This was the "your future is in front of you, so start thinking what are you going to do about it and stop messing around" week. Today we were going to have some meetings with universities that have some kind of association with our high school. The things that everyone wanted to know about were basicly financial aids and, in case on living as a boarding student, if you could have a roomate of your opposite sex.
Thinking about your future in having sex is a real difficult task.
When another university, which name I really didn't pay attention, said that in your second year you can ask for a room with anyone you want, boys started to scream and clap. Joshua was there with them too, and said:
-Well, this shit about being single is pretty awesome!
The "yeeeah", "that's how you do it bro" and other shits made him feel even more proud. I wonder how would that girl feel if she heard him.
Luckily (and a little suspicious), she moved to another school this year. Yes, her last year of high school she just moved. That's kind of creepy.
Anyways, I just tried to think that maybe he was just joking, but then I couldn't stop myself to think: "what if Julian said the same thing? What if he is laughing at me with his friends?"
-Look how's he is acting, as if she was some sort of dictator in their relationship- says Maia, disappointed.- And that is the guy you like, huh?
-Maia, he is not Alex, don't hate him- I said, due to the inexplicable resentment that she feels about him.
-Is his brother, Anne. At the end they are not that different, believe me. And besides, I bet you've learned a lot with Julian already, please don't get with some shitty guy again.
-I'm sorry, I can't promise anything- I said, and we both laughed.
In the deep of my heart, I felt that maybe Maia wss right, and Joshua was the same as his brother. I mean, no one didn't say a thing about their break up but it was obvious how much his friends and him enjoy it. Maybe that girl was the guilty, and he is just starting to be happy again.
All these things were rolling in my mind when I was heading to my house. It has been a long and boring day, skipping the visiting part from universities and colleges. And that was another thing that has been having me on my nerves.

I'm only 16 but I still don't know what to study or where to study, and I even didn't study last year for the exams, I cheated! I might be the worst teen ever existed.
It's not like I am not intelligent at all but, I do like to use it on bad things. Like scheming or lying or planning shits. Unluckily there is not a test to prove that or a work that would pay you.
Well, maybe I could consider to get in the FBI.
My mother couldn't pick me up, so I went home walking, with Fitz and The Tantrums loud in my ears.
I don't know too many songs about them, but Out of my League was perfectly designed for me to dedicate to George. Well, right now Joshua.
But George was my whole world, way before Julian or anybody else. Since 9th grade I know nothing about him anymore, not even on social media. It's been three years since I moved.
How is he doing? My life was funnier with him around, even though he never talked to me. For instance, I missed my friends. My old friends, from my old high school. I missed my old high school. I miss the old days.
And what would have happened if I never transfer to this school? Maybe some dissaster, as always.
Having George as a crush when I was 12 years old was a big deal. He was older, and he would never look at me the way I did. Maybe because I never even try to talk to him. I was too scared.
Just as I am now. I'm really scared. Thinking that Joshua might think I'm not pretty or I'm weird.
I mean, I have a Star Wars backpack. I'm a fucking nerd too, a geek. And I was proud and I never felt ashamed about it but, what would Joshua think?
I just jump from 16 to 12, again.
As always, I tried to calm down and get some idea. I mean, what if I start stalking Josh and he just ignores that. How would I look at him?
And it's not that it never happened to me. But being again, on this "impossible love" road, just made me realize that I don't learn.
The big mistake was that I never talked to George. At least with Joshua changed that but, it wasn't the big deal with him 2 years ago. And now I'm just scared and my fear is also my damn.
If I were going to stalk Joshua, I need to fix my profile information and, of course, new pictures.
Even changing my username would be necessary. I don't think that Joshua is going to fall for someone who has her username as one of Spider-Man's girlfriends.

-Anne, we need to talk.
-What happened mom? Is there some problem with your flight?
Mom went today to check on all her flights and stuff.
-Kind of. I know I told you that I'm going go travel this Friday but, I'd rather stay one more week with you.
-But mom, I'll be fine! We already talked about this. We are going to miss each other, but at least we'll get to live in peace.
And she started to cry, and then she hugged me.
-Anne Cecile, I'm really sensitive today- and we both laughed, - but I'm sure you are going to be a mature girl, who understands what does responsibility, discipline and self love means. I've been looking at you these days, and for real you are very stressed out. I'm afraid that what is having you like this is your love life. And I'm sorry if can't take from you the whole pain you feel everytime you think about Julian, but what I can do is to stay for more days and try to guide you, Anne. I just don't want to anyone treat you like shit again. I don't want you to feel alone or that you don't have anyone in your life, so that's why you start making nonsense things like drugs and alcohol, or even prostitution...
-Enough, mom! I understand your concern, but I mean it when I say that I want you to be happy. You know for how much we've been through, but in reality we are never going to be too far apart. Mom, I'll be fine. There is no one and I don't do drugs.
She laughed. And we sat and talk for a couple of hours, until she confirmed her flight for this Friday, finally.
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