A month later. February, 2018.

I was talking with Xavier about the possibility of making a trip to Florida this weekend.
Of course, possibilities were 0% of having permission and 0% of having money, but at least we both tried. Xavier has been my best friend for years, although he is 3 years olden than me. His little brother was my friend too, but we weren't that close.
And even though Xavier was really good looking, I could barely imagine myself being with him. Maybe because I kind of know everything about him so that makes it difficult.
We were talking about his university, how tired he was of his parents and their divorce, and also talking about our exs. Which is why we have decided to go on a trip whenever we can. No matter if it's going to take years, the plan is there.

He was in his final exams and I was about to start high school again. He told me to get ready and to get a 4.5 GPA if I wanted to get a scholarship. But come on, I was going to be on junior, is not the big deal yet.
"But if you are a good student this two years that you have left, then any university will be glad to have you, don't you see me?"
He was right. I remember how he send his application to Midtown College and Anderson University. At the end he was accepted in both and decided to go to Smith College. Of course they accepted him, though he was far away from me and his friends.
Planning to go with him to Smith College was another good choice he proposed to me, but I wasn't a good fit in. He was all sciences and I am all literature. Art and drama, definitely the last one has been my moto during my breakup time.

Somehow, I said goodbye to him and started to prepare for tomorrow. I was happy about seeing my friends again, but I felt the need to talk to Julian. I just sat down on my bed and grabbed a book. Anything to stop thinking about him would have work. It has been a month already. Why I was still crying? Am I ever going to stop?
Suddenly my cellphone vibrates. I got a notification. A message from Mikaela. That bitch.

"I'm so glad that you and J had broken up. Thank you for letting me have the free way, again. Xoxo"

And under the text, an image. Julian and Mikaela kissing each other.

It has been hours and my mother got in my bedroom. She saw me crying, and slapped me on the face. I was totally shocked, why on earth is she hitting me if I told her how I felt!
She then sat on my bed. Looked at me and said:
"I'm so done with this topic. It has been weeks and you are not still over that piece of crap? Do I have to remind you your value as a person and as a woman? Don't you see? Even she is admitting that you are more than her!"
And will never forget that. My mom was right. Mikaela needed for me to get out of her way of trying to get Julian back, because with me on the road, she could never get a chance. And I laughed.
"I'm sorry to hit you. I love you, I really do. That's why I need you to see what a mess you are turning to".
I took a shower and then went to sleep. As short as I could think in everything, I would be fine.

No one ever told me that waking up so early was going to be this difficult. I was depressed, and I have to go to school like this, looking like a shitty raccoon.
Mom made me breakfast and then I just prepared myself as always. A high pony tail and some mascara could help for my apparence. Otherwise, my classmates would take me for Rocket Raccoon. Mom was talking to her phone while she drove me to high school, and when we got there, she hung up.
"Sorry darling we couldn't talk all the way" she said. I knew she was having a lot of trouble in her work, so I told her not to worry about it and I got out of the car.
It's been 3 long months since I haven't seen so many people.
And of course there were my favorite prom. The senior year has arrived for them all. And they were screaming out loud. The party had started last night, and I really wanted to see some cool pics but due to my shit, I felt asleep.
Joshua and his team were wearing some kind of uniform, like the army or something like that. It was funny because none of the boys wanted to go to the army, but sure they used the uniform to party all night.
-There you are Anne! How are you doing? Oh my Gosh, you look so stunning as always!
Oh no again. I'm tired of this little bitch.
-I'm doing fine as you can see, thank you Abigail. How have you been?
If she wanted to be such a hypocrite I could totally win her.
-I've been doing fine, thank you dear. Have you seen...
-I just arrived, so I haven't seen anyone rather than the senior year.
And I walked away, I really was not in the mood of talking to that girl, not with what she had done last year. Poor idiot.
I walked into my class and saw Maia talking to Jonathan. They would make such a great couple!
-Hey guys, is nice to see you both!
-Anne Cecile, can you tell me why you didn't answer?
I gave her the look of "I have no idea what are you talking about".
-Didn't you see what David posted?
David was her ex, and Julian's best friend. Maia showed me the picture. There was Julian, Mikaela hugging him and David making some strange sign with his hand. Such a damn weirdo.
-Yesterday she texted me. It seems she is happy eating up my trash.
Maia laughed and told me not to worry about them anymore. "Everything comes to its place. Just sit and wait".
Jonathan looked at me and said:
-Why are you always attracted to shit guys?
And talking about guys, Joshua came up with one of his buddies, Christopher. And waved at us.
-Well, Joshua is not a shit guy John! Don't generalize.
-As if- he said.
It was time to get in class and start with lessons, or subjects, I didn't know really. I tried to look strong but that picture just hit me hard.
I sat between George and Roxanne, and Maia was behind me with Jonathan. We were the "Just In Case" group of friends. We just weren't popular or weird, we were just there, having fun always.
There were some new students. Three girls. No boys.
Ugh, wouldn't I meet someone new?
-That girl over there is so pretty- said Jenna, who is also member of our  "JIC" group, and who arrived late as always.
-She looks a lot like Laila- I respond. Laila wasn't longer a classmate of ours but of course she was still our friend. And Lissa also was our classmate.
-Talking about Laila, she broke up with Melissa. Again- said Maia.
-I know, what a piece of crap is that girl- I replied.
Maia just gave me a bad look. She was so close to that girl she couldn't even see the witch Lissa was.
-Morning everyone- greeted our head master, Mrs. Lee.
And she started to talk about how she wanted us to be good students and that teachers were there to help us build our dreams and to get us to our goals in life, and some other crap I wasn't paying attention to because I was about to return to my old habits in class: sleep on the desk.
Until suddenly, Roxanne kicked me on my leg. I got up and saw Joshua standing at the door.
-Morning, excuse me Mrs. Lee, may I talk to Alex for a while?
He was so tall, and precious.
Damn it why can't I meet someone new and most important of all, single?
Mrs. Lee agreed and Alex went outside.
Then, the headmaster started to introduced all of the new girls. Ava and Clara were classmates already in another school and then there was Jasmine, who looks like Laila. For me, she was going to be called Laila Lite.
Ava was talking and introducing herself to all of us when Alex got back to the classroom, and he gave to her such a look. It was obvious he wanted to get her. Veronica looked at him but she just ignore it. How can she accept that?