Chapter 46

I had no choice as I shifted back into human form, my lips unconsciously turning up in a trembling smirk as I watched the look of shock appear on Jackson's face as he realised he'd stabbed me and not Logan. "Oh, don't look so heartbroken, it’s not that much of a loss." I gasped out; quoting the words he'd once thrown at me, around the agony burning through my chest.

I barely kept the smirk in place as he twisted the blade out of me, my back colliding with the ground as I collapsed in a heap at Jackson’s feet while I clutched my chest, as if my fingers alone could keep the blood from spurting from my wound, my heart struggling to beat with the huge, literal hole Jackson left with his knife.

Chelsea! No! Logan's pained howl vibrated through my mind, my head lolling to the side just in time to watch him fight off the two Seekers on his back, ending their lives with two quick bites to their necks. I heard howls, shortly before the screaming began around me, the other shifters finally arriving, taking on the Seekers as Logan rushed after Jackson.

Don’t let him get away. I told him, the pack doctor coming to my side; spreading a blanket out over my body. I won’t, came his reply, his voice filled with worry. Just promise me that you’ll be alright when I get back. He begged. A wave of pain rippled up my body as the doctor began to examine the gaping wound in my chest, my wolf and I doing our best to keep it from reaching our mate. I promise. I choked out, not completely sure if it was even up to me whether or not I could keep my word; dizziness hitting me full on.

Nonetheless, Logan didn’t need my current state as a distraction at the moment, so I put as much conviction as I could into those two words. The pack doctor is here to patch me up right now, so don’t worry about me, I’m going to be fine. I continued, able to sense that he believed me. Good, at least that makes one of us. I thought to myself.

“Give it to me straight Doc, how’s it looking for me?” I demanded, forcing my eyes to stay open as I met the doctor’s gaze.

“Just worry about staying awake for now Luna.” He said distractedly, his hands working quickly as he did his best to stop the bleeding.

I found the strength to grab his arm. “Please, I need to know.”

The look on his face said it all. “It doesn’t look very good Luna, but I’m doing all that I can.”

I nodded absent-mindedly as I took that in, countless thoughts racing through my mind as my fatigued body relaxed against the floor, letting the doctor work. “I know you are.” The main focus of my thoughts though, was how much Logan would suffer if I were to die and how sorry I was that things had turned out so bad, that it may not be my choice anymore.

It hurt to think that after all we had been through, it would end like this. Logan deserved so much better than this, he deserved happiness after how much he’s changed for me, for us to work. I’ve seen him heal over these past few months and right then, I knew that I loved him, truly and deeply, with all of my soul.

As I lay there beneath the doctor’s moving fingers, feeling the life slowly seep out of me, I finally understood that I loved not just the man he’s become but for all of who he was, for the good and the bad side of him. Sure, he had his share of downsides; people have said he's incapable of love, incapable of remorse, incapable of good.

He truly did have a very dark character. But regardless, he was mine, my very own dark mate and no matter what, I knew he would always be. Even so, in the short time we’d been together, I’ve seen that when he wanted, he was capable of love, capable of remorse, and more than capable of good for me.

I knew now that all his actions have their reasons, that my mate was more than worthy of my trust in him. What he did to wrong me in the past was behind us because as I sensed his emotions, I could see that he saw me as his present, his future as he was mine. As long as I knew that, his history didn’t matter. Maybe dying is teaching me that life is too short to hold onto grudges. I muse to my wolf. Maybe. She replied; her own voice weak.

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I was teetering on the edge of consciousness, barely able to keep myself from falling over as I fought to keep my eyelids open. “I’m so sorry Luna; I’ve done all that I can.” I distantly heard the doctor say; his voice filled with grief.

I compelled myself to give him a smile as I laid my hand over his. “It’s okay Doc, you did good. I feel much better.” I lied, knowing we both didn’t trust a word I’d said.

His smile in return looked pained. “You did the pack proud today, Luna.” My heart warmed at that.

“Thank you.”

I felt the usual sparks as Logan was at my side; gathering my limp body up into his arms.  “I’m so sorry baby. I’m so sorry. This is my fault, all of this.” He sputtered; rocking back and forth slowly as he looked on the edge of losing it. It took all of my energy to reach up to him, my fingers splaying over his blood-stained cheek, the smell telling me that it wasn't his own. "He made me-"

I pressed my index finger against his lips, wincing as even that miniscule movement sent another wave of pain through my chest. "Shh..." I rasped, my lips turning up in a forced smile as I tried to calm him. "I know, I know. It's okay, Logan. This wasn't your fault, he did this." I choked out, the effort I'd exerted on my weakening body leaving me gasping.

"But, I let him. I wasn't there to protect you when you needed me. I let him get to you. I shouldn't have listened- shouldn't have-" I shook my head as both of my hands reached up to grasp his face, my blood staining the side of his head.

"Listen to me, stop blaming yourself. Yes, it hurt but now I know why you did it, and I'm proud of you baby, so proud." I whispered with a smile. "You protected me...thank you for that." He still looked resistant to what I was telling him. "Logan, stop doing that. Please don't blame yourself. For me." I mumbled, desperate to see the worry lift from his face.

It didn't, but he seemed to be trying, for my sake, and that was all I could ask for. "Okay Chels, I won't, eventually." I managed a proper smile that time.

“Did you get him?” I asked in a whisper, the edges of my vision darkening.

He nodded vigorously, stroking the side of my face as his eyes met mine. “I did, he’s gone. He’ll never hurt you again.”

“He’ll never hurt us again.” I corrected meekly.

He nodded again. “That’s right baby, he’ll never hurt us again.”

“Logan.” I rasped. He lowered his head until our foreheads touched, continuing to rock back and forth.

“What is it Chelsea?”

“Promise me that no matter what happens you won’t go back to the way you were. Can you do that for me?”

I saw the alarm flash in his eyes, followed by defiance. “It won’t come to that, it can’t.”

“Please, just promise me this.”

He closed his eyes for a moment, breathing in deeply. “I-I promise.” He whispered, his eyes meeting mine again.

I felt myself begin to slip away, my body beginning to go cold as I lost the feeling in my legs. “I’m so sorry Logan.”

He grasped my cheek. “You promised me you’d be fine. Chelsea, please don’t leave me. You promised you never would.”

“I wouldn’t if I could baby.” I couldn’t even move my fingers anymore. He pressed his lips to mine as I felt wetness drip onto my cheek. When he pulled back I was looking into wet, grey irises. “I love you, Logan.” I mumbled. "Through everything, I've loved you."

“I love you too, Chelsea.” His lips pressed to my forehead. “I love you so much.” I nodded weakly as a tear leaked out of the corner of my eye. He said it. I told my wolf proudly. He did, honey. He did. She agreed; my lips pulling up in a smile as my heart fluttered in my chest for the very last time. I was looking up into Logan’s ashen face as I was consumed by cold, dark, emptiness, the pain finally coming to an end.

I cried writing this last part :'( There will be a few more parts to show you all what was happening from other POVs while the fight was going on and some that will take place after it so there will be a few chaps before the epilogue. <3 <3 <3 you all for reading and your support. P.S. please don't hate me .-.  -Roxy.