Chapter 33

Just a quick warning: This chapter contains sexual material. That is all :)

My mate's back was to the door; unintentionally giving me the perfect opportunity to change my mind, turn around and leave. "Stop that!" My wolf growled. I forced my legs forward as I moved in the most sultry way I could manage.

I was pleasantly surprised to find that I didn't look completely ridiculous as I felt my hips sway at a slow pace with my light steps. As I got closer, it looked as if my mate was on the phone; already finishing up as I heard him mutter a soft 'goodbye' to whoever was on the other line.

My wolf felt incredibly proud as Logan turned; his eyes widening slightly as he took in my form. Her emotions filled me with a little confidence that served to replace some of my anxiety. Despite the nervousness that remained, I managed a lopsided smile to flash at my mate; earning the satisfaction of watching his Adam's Apple bob up and down subtly as he swallowed.

"Happy birthday to you" I sang, inching closer with every line. "Happy birthday to you." I sighed inwardly as I managed to keep my voice from quivering; running the tips of my fingers accross the surface of his table as I walked along its side.

"Happy birthday, my dear Alpha." I was right in front of him now; leaning on the table as I bent forward to press my hands onto the armrests of his chair. I moved my face within an inch of his. "Happy birthday to" I saw his darkened eyes for a second before I was laying flat against the table; his body pressing into mine as his dark, intense gaze bore into my surprised green eyes. "you." I finished in more of a gasp than a whisper; his hands around my wrists keeping my arms on the table.

He didn't say anything before his lips were roughly moving against mine. I ripped my arms out of his grasp and wrapped my hands around the back of his head; forcing him closer. Despite my protests, he managed to pull away a few seconds later. "No, we can't do this." He mumbled; his voice thick with lust as he was trying with all his might to push himself off of the table and away from me.

I grabbed one of his arms and yanked him back; my mate not having any other choice but to comply with my wishes as I heard his wolf growling to be closer to me. "Why not?" I whispered; pressing a kiss to my mark on his neck. I felt his excitement against my thigh. I looked up at him through my lashes as I continued a slow trail of kisses up his neck.

He managed to push himself away this time; taking a step back as he continued to resist me. I pushed myself up onto my elbows; cocking my head to the side as I watched him struggle against his wolf, wanting so badly to have him back on me. "Chelsea, you have to get out! Right now! I won't have control over myself for much longer." He growled.

I flashed him a taunting smirk; despite the uneven pace of my heart hammering inside my chest, as I sat up and slid off of the table. "I don't want you to try to control it." I whispered; every word sliding effortlessly off of my lips like water running over a stone.

My mate's canines appeared as his wolf continued to force against Logan's restraints. He shook his head. "Stop that." He growled. "Get out right now! I won't tell you again!" I felt the intense force that came with his next words as they rang in his Alpha tone. "I don't want you here! Go away!"

His words cut deep into my heart; too close to all the verbal abuse he had thrown my way before. I felt my face crumple with the pain as a tear slid down my cheek. Logan stiffened when he noticed that single drop making its way to my chin. My hand flew up to my chest as it tightened; ducking my head to hide my glossy eyes. "You, don't want me?" I mumbled in a soft, hoarse whisper; every word a harsh slap to my face.

I told you that this would happen! I snapped at my wolf; feeling her pain trickling into me and mingling with mine. She didn't respond as she tucked into herself and whined softly. I nodded to myself while still keeping my gaze on the floor as I slowly came to grasps with my situation.

I continued to silently weep; realising how pathetic and stupid I must look to him at the moment but also extremely hurt from what he'd said. Stop it, you're ruining his birthday! I chastised myself. I roughly ran a hand accross my eyes; trying to dry them despite the tears that were still falling.

I finally managed a weak smile and summoned enough courage to look up at Logan; knowing that I now looked like a mess with my red eyes and tear stained cheeks. "I-I actually got you another gift so its not a t-total lost." I said; trying to sound as cheerful as I could, despite how heartbroken I felt. "I'll just g-go g-get it f-for you." I mumbled; my crying making it hard not to stutter.

He opened his mouth to say something; reaching out to me, but I didn't wait before rushing to the door and beginning my jog of shame up to our bedroom. I heard my mate following me up a while later; silently watching me as I got onto the floor and reached below the bed to retrieve my back up present.

When I turned; Logan was crouching beside me. The tears immediately began to well up again; his gaze a reminder of the embarrassing moment I'd just had. The pain of his rejection travelled to every part of my body but I kept it hidden as I smiled again; wanting nothing but to just be alone and cry away the hurtful humiliation. "Happy Birthday." I handed him the gift and sat back expectantly as I waited for him to open it.

I couldn't help the blood that rushed to my cheeks as I waited; the memory of my failed first 'gift' making me cringe internally. When he made no move to open it, I stood up. "Okay, I'll go change into something else and we can go for some dinner or something. I'll be right back."

I heard the box touch the floor a moment before my mate's warm hand wrapped around my arm; stopping me mid-step into the closet. "Chelsea," he began; his voice soft and tender. "I didn't mean to say it like that."

The tears were still falling; not stopping despite how badly I tried. I turned to him after plastering a fake smile onto my face. "What do you mean?" I tried; my voice cracking on the last word. I chuckled humorlessly as I ran a hand over my eyes. "Damn all this dust...I think I might be allergic." I pretended to joke; forcing out a laugh again.

He shook his head as he cupped both sides of my face; wiping the falling tears with his thumbs. "Chelsea, you're hurt, and that's the last thing I'd ever want to do to you." He admitted; leaning close enough for me to feel the heat of his lips on mine. He looked down for a moment before his eyes met mine again; as if asking for permission. "Can I?" He whispered; his voice strained.

I nodded slowly; completely , mesmerized by his close proximity as I tilted my head up to press my lips to his. He pushed closer to me; pinning me against the wall. I burried my fingers into his hair; feeling the soft strands against my skin. That seemed to send him into frenzy; his lips becoming more insistent against mine.

He pulled one of my legs up and wrapped it around his waist; his other hand travelling up the back of my nightgown to rest flat on my back. I deepened the kiss as he leaned further into me. A few moments later, he pulled away just enough to speak to me; breathing hard as I watched his eyes flash between grey and obsidian. "I want you so bad, it hurts Chelsea."

His words made my heart beat harder than it already was; pounding against my ribcage like a caged bird trying to get free of its prison. I leaned my forehead against his. "Show me how bad." I whispered; trailing my index finger against his bottom lip. My stomach twisted with excitement as I heard the soft, low growl he threw my way in response to my words.

I watched as he closed his eyes; taking a deep breath of my scent. "We can't." He responded just as quietly. I kept the tears in this time as I pulled away; eager to stop this before I got my hopes up and my self esteem crushed again. He doesn't want to, stop pushing him Chelsea! I scolded myself; removing my leg from his hip.

For the second time that night, I slipped away from Logan; wishing with all my heart that we could just forget this night had ever happened. Before I could properly get away though; my mate grabbed my arm again. I felt my wolf stirring within me. Her agitation towards his denial seared through my body like fire; fully able to feel how much both he and his wolf wanted to mate with us despite how much he tried to convince himself otherwise. Before I could stop it; a growl left my lips.

I ripped my arm out of his hold and before I knew it, my palm connected with one of his cheeks'. "Get off!" Logan winced in response; evoking guilt in my heart despite how irritated I felt towards his mood swings on the matter of mating at the moment. I took a deep breath to calm myself; or at least sound like I was. "I don't mind waiting if you don't want to be mated now, but please stop confusing me; and stop hurting my feelings. Just, stop it!" I pleaded; sounding very vulnerable on my last sentence; feeling the tears building already.

I refused to look weak again so I turned and walked out of the room. Or I thought I had until my back collided with something soft. I looked up into dark eyes; a firm body pushing onto mine from above. I was too surprised that I didn't even register that he was kissing me until he bit my bottom lip; urging me to respond. It took all the restraint I had but I refused him as my mate's double rejection tonight replayed in my mind.

He growled deep in his throat in agitation towards my behaviour; making the idea of kissing him back much more appealing as the lust began to pool in my body. He grinded into me; making me gasp as I felt his not-so-little buddy dig into my lower stomach. He took the chance to slip his tongue past my parted lips. I moaned softly against his mouth as our tongues collided; the mixture of his scent, touch and presence intoxicating.

His hand came to rest on the dip of my back as he pulled me closer; crumpling my night dress in his tight grasp. I pushed through the lust-induced haze and managed to pull my head away from his. "You said no." I whispered; already breathing hard.

He stroked the side of my face; his eyes dark. "I've changed my mind." He said; his lips turning up in a crooked grin. My hand cupped the back of his head as his lips assaulted mine. He deepened the kiss as he grabbed the back my knee; using his hold to return my leg to his waist. Once it was securely wrapped around him; his hand travelled over my thigh and up the curve of my bottom until it was resting on my back. My other leg wound around him as well; the muscles in both clenching as my legs forced him closer.

The cold air hit my back as my mate shot up into a sitting position; bringing me up with him as I settled comfortably on his lap. I couldn't help the soft whimper that managed to slip past my lips as he pulled away.

My protests were short lived though as his warm lips pressed into the hollow of my neck. He began to leave open-mouthed kisses on my skin as he took his time travelling up my neck; my teeth sinking into my bottom lip as I fought to bite back the moan that was slowly crawling its way up my throat.

I bent my head back to give him better access to continue his sinfully, delicious torture. My fingers fisted in his hair as his tantalizing lips touched his mark on my neck; his teeth grazing that one spot. "Logan." I choked out; my breathing embarrasingly uneven.

His head turned up slightly as his eyes landed on my face. My hands were back on the sides of his face in an instant; my lips smothering his. I heard the soft sound of tearing fabric right before I felt the flimsy night gown I had on slip off of my frame; leaving my skin bare to the unforgivingly chilly night air. I shivered once before my back was against the mattress once more.

I managed to reach for the buttons of my mate's shirt despite how close we were; getting two undone before I got sick of them and settled on just tearing the front apart instead. The small, circular pieces of plastic barely made a sound as they scattered accross the room. Logan unwillingly pulled away from me for a second to shrug completely out of his shirt.

My fingers felt that familiar spark as they studied the muscle beneath my mate's chest and abdomen as he lowered his body back onto mine; holding himself up with his elbows as to not completely crush me. Logan shivered beneath my touch; his hands mindlessly caressed my bare hips as his breathing began to get shallower.

One of my hands came up to play with the hair at the nape of his neck; sinking into the black strands as I tugged him down. My body was completely covered in those little sparks as he completely lay on it; no longer keeping himself up as the his masculine weight pushed down onto me.

I shimmied lower; my legs dropping from his waist.  I twisted and he complied with me as we switched places; giving me his previous spot on top. I straddled his waist as my lips hungrily pressed to the base of his throat; nipping lightly before my tongue darted out to lap against the stinging skin. I kept my pace slow as my lips travelled up to my mark on his neck.

I tenderly kissed it; my lips moving softly against his skin as my fingers continued to stroke his hair. My lips parted before I sucked on that spot; knowing that Logan more than liked it as his little friend hardened even more against me. His hands gripped my waist tightly as my lips reached his

jaw; lingering there for a while before they returned to his.

He flipped us over then; deepening the kiss as my fingers began to undo his belt. Logan was more than willing to help me out as he unzipped his pants and pushed them off. We parted for a moment to take a breath; his eyes were unsure as he stared down at me. "Are you sure you're ready?" He whsipered.

I nodded before his lips captured mine again; one of his hands trailing up the inside of my thighs. My body was more than compliant as my legs parted at his touch. I couldn't help the gasp that he stole from my lips as his fingers slipped beneath the thin, lacy fabric of my red panties. My mate touched me where no one else had ever touched me before; the muscles in my stomach clenching as his fingers flitted over my most intimate part.

He withdrew his hand. "You're so fucking wet." He growled against my lips softly; reaching behind me to unclasp my bra. I let him slip the garment off; his gaze on my naked chest making me a little self concious. One of my arms came up to lay across my breasts; hiding them from his unwavering stare. He growled softly at my actions; ripping my arm away and pinning it to the bed as his eyes met mine. "Don't ever hide youself from me!" He demanded; his low threatening tone making me want him even more.

I leaned up and kissed him; long and slow as I took my time in deepening the kiss. Our tongues brushed against each other as I studied every inch of his mouth; feeling like I'd never get enough. I felt his earlier rigid posture melt away as his hand began to fondle one of my breasts; my nipples hardening as the kiss grew hungrier.

Logan's other hand kept me pinned against him as it grasped my back. My lips were frozen in an 'O' shape as he removed his lips from mine to press it to my collarbone; leaving a blazing hot trail of kisses down to my breasts. My back arched as his lips closed around one of my nipples; his tongue moving over the throbbing bud in a way that had me desperately clinging to his neck as his hand expertly tended to the other.

He moved to the other and lavished it with the same attention as the throbbing between my legs became close to unbearable. A moan escaped my lips as I continued to cling to him. "Logan, I want you." I gasped; yanking on his hair to get his attention. "Please." I pleaded; my voice thick with lust.

Every cell in my body hummed with need as his lips were back on mine. I wasted no time in deepening the kiss; my fingers boldly reaching down to linger by the waistband of his boxers. I tugged it down, Logan realised what I wanted as he raised his hips to allow me to push the piece of clothing off; freeing his erection.

I couldn't help but allow my eyes to roam over the naked planes of his body; enjoying the fact that the clearly turned on, amazing guy on top of me was all mine. He managed to smirk at me; a crooked smile that looked so sexy on his face that it had another wave of lust rippling through me. "Like what you see?" He teased huskily; his hands travelling down until his index fingers were hooked at the sides of my panties.

I lead his head down low enough for me to whisper in his ear. My lips pressed to the part where his neck met his jaw; smiling against his skin. My eyes followed the trail my hand left as it traced a line down my mate's muscular torso. "Very, very much." I mumbled; looking up at him from under my eyelashes.

I felt the thin fabric of the only thing I had on being torn right from my body; every inch of me now on display to my mate's hungry gaze. He grasped my hips as he pried my legs apart; positioning himself at my entrance. His eyes were filled with tenderness as he looked down at me then; his thumb stroking one side of my face. "This will hurt a little." He whispered. "If it's too much just tell me and I'll stop."

I flashed him a reassuring smile as I gripped his broad shoulders; Logan kissing me tenderly as my hands began to wander into his dishevelled hair. I winced as he slid into me; the sharp pain I felt as my mate took my virginity taking me by surprise. He immediately looked concerned; freezing where he was as he urged me to open my eyes. I did as I was told; keeping my gaze on his as he continued to sink further into me. "Are you okay?" He asked timidly; his eyes scanning my face.

"It doesn't hurt much." I responded. The pain began to transform into pleasure once he was completely inside me; my body adjusting to him. I could feel our connection growing even stronger; my wolf purring in delight. Logan's hips moved up; pulling himself out before pushing back into me, his movements slow and careful.

My body on the other hand had different ideas as my hips unconsciously moved up to meet his; craving the friction I knew was coming. My muscles coiled tighter with every achingly delicate movement; my hands yanking on  his hair lightly. He sensed my urgency and began to slowly pick up his pace; my hips rocking up to match every thrust. I faintly heard the sound of the headboard hit the wall behind it every time Logan slammed into me; but I was too busy to give a fuck.

I moaned. "Logan." I mumbled; my mouth claiming his as our movements became quicker and more rigourous. His hands were touching my heated skin everywhere; mine doing the same as they roamed his entire body. My hands grasped his back hard as I felt my pleasure build to a level where I couldn't think of anything but him; his touch, his scent, his taste, every part of my brain consumed by him and only him.

I could feel the thin sheen of sweat that covered the both of us as we continued to move; the tension in my body building. My muscles tightened as he thrusted one last time into me. I screamed his name as my world exploded in my first ever, mind-splitting, reality-shattering orgasm. Logan found his release with me; his body quivering over mine.

We stayed that way for a moment; our breaths mingling as he leaned his forehead on mine again. I pressed my lips to his for a brief moment; feeling like I was in another world as all I saw was the man above me. My fingers found their way back to the damp strands of hair at the base of his neck as our lips pulled apart. I didn't hear what I was saying before the words flitted into the air.

"I love you." I said in barely a whisper; my voice thick with emotion. Logan's eyes widened; as if in disbelief that I had just said that. The words hung around us for a second that felt more like an eternity as my mate gathered his thoughts.

He was the one to break that frozen moment. He pulled out as he climbed off; collapsing on the bed beside me as he gathered my body up in his arms. He positioned my head on his chest as he tilted my face up for another kiss; the brush of his lips on mine so light it was almost as if I'd imagined it. "And I you." He muttered; his eyes glowing with happiness.

I managed a smile before I yawned; the tiredness from the night finally attacking my body as I began to relax. He pulled me closer as he told me to sleep. I closed my eyes and did just that almost immediately; my slumber the most peaceful it had ever been.

Hey everyone, sorry the chapter took so long, it took a while just to press the publish button but in the end I did anyway. Hope you all liked the chapter!