morning
You woke up from the sun in your eyes , you were on Lisa's sofa ..you saw her across from you on the other sofa .

You were still in your costume from last night ..oh god last night .

You felt like you were gonna cry again from the sudden memories that came crashing into your mind.

The thoughts were making you feel sick.

You sat up , your face felt all irritated from the mixture of your tears and makeup dried onto your skin.

This is not how you wanted to wake up.

You wanted to wake up with no sorrow , you wanted to go onto your phone and be able to read texts from people that didn't start with "hope you are ok" ...

But here you are.

Sat on your bestfriends sofa.

Puffy eyes from crying along with dark streaks of mascara along with flashbacks to the horrible scene of your so called boyfriend chea-

NO !!

You didn't even want to think about it , you viciously shook our head before hitting the back of it ..as if hoping you could smack the memories out of you mind for good.

You got up to go to the bathroom to freshen your self up.

You noticed the hicky still on your neck ..you broke down a little and began sniffling .

You missed him so much .
"Y/N??" You heard Lisa call you .

You quickly wiped your eyes again before walking out .

"Hey"she gave you a sympathetic smile .

You just stood near the door and gave a weak smile back .

"Come here" she said walking over to you holding her arms open , you hugged her "I'm so sorry b" she said squeezing you .

You sniffled a bit blinking , a tear fell from your eye onto Lisa's shoulder "sorry"you spoke before wiping away the excess droplet from your eye.

"Aha it's fine" she said releasing you from the hug .

You were lucky to have a caring bestfriend like her . "You wanna lie back down and I'll make us some food" she smiled at you , you nodded heading back to the sofa .

If you were honest you weren't in the mood for food, you weren't in the mood for anything.

———-2hrs later
Hobi POV :

I was awake in my room , I couldn't sleep at all last night . Knowing she was crying ..because of me !

I'm such a fucking dumb ass !

I love her and I've made her feel like shit ! I have to talk to her .

I was drunk and horny from her last night ..only she makes me feel the way I do and no one else ..I was stupidly using soya to get rid of my boner from Y/N and I shouldn't have done ..we were both drunk though ..I still shouldn't have even stayed in that room that long !

Why the fuck did I cheat on her ! I need to explain to her ; she deserves an explanation . She deserves to know my reasons despite how ridiculous they are.

This whole situation is ridiculous..how have I managed to ruin the best 5 day relationship in the space of one night .

I've gotta drive to Lisa's .

I threw on a hoodie and jeans before grabbing my car keys. I didn't even say hello or goodbye to my parents who were both in the kitchen.

They would only ask how Y/N is doing ..they don't even know what happened.
———-
I pulled up outside Lisa's house , here goes .

I walked up to the door and knocked on .

Lisa opened the door "what do you want dickhead" she said , I deserved it .

"Is Y/N still here??" I asked desperate , "nope" she simply said , "well where is she ??"
"why should I tell you-."

"Pls Lisa !!" i begged , she jumped a little .

She went to shut the door on me , I stopped it with my foot .

"Why should I tell you ! She was in bits last night and she was a mess this morning" she said scowling at me .

"Lisa ..I made a mistake ..but Y/N means the fucking world to me and I'm in love with her , I was drunk and stupid and I wanna tell her I messed up and how much she means to me . I've never cared for anyone as much as her. I messed up ..but I want her back"

She just stood there looking me in the eye.

"Lisa please"

She took a deep breath .

"She's at her house ..you need to make this right".

"Thankyou" I said before running to my car .

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YPOV
You got home around an hour ago , you had taken off your costume and had a shower .

You cried when in the shower trying to wash away the whole memory of last night.

You changed into your Ryan pyjamas and had your blob fish slippers on , your hair was a little damp so yo tied it into a bun ,you went down to your living room .

You sat on the sofa turning on the tv , you looked for a good channel but nothing pleased you .

Bored already you turned it off with the remote , the room was silent ..only the noise of the clocks hand ticking could be heard .

You just continued to stare at the blank screen ..you were completely zoned out like a zombie .

To be honest you felt dead inside so you might as well be classed as one.

Your door suddenly burst open revealing the last person you wanted to see ..but someone who you missed so much .

He saw you on the sofa and ran up to you kneeling down "Y/N thank god" he said grabbing your hands .

"I was worried you wouldn't be here" he said ..he's been looking for you ..you were glad but still broken .

You stood up and walked to the kitchen , "so ..wh- what do you want ?" You asked him , your voice was already shaky .

Don't cry don't cry !

"To explain and sort things out" he said walking over to you .

"No stand over there" you said stopping him from coming too close .

He looked at you disappointed , but he respected your request and stood still in his current position.

"Please can I explain now"he asked you .

"What is there to explain ? You were about to fuck soya ..there" you yelled a little .

"It wasn't like that ..I was all fired up from you ..and I was drunk and so was Soya ..I wasn't thinking and neither was she ..I imagined she was you at the time" he said .

Tf how does that make it better . "That makes it all ok does it?" you asked .

"No ..no of course not but that is my reason ..my stupid reason" he said .

"Ok" you shrugged , "ok ? That's it ?!" he asked .

"Well what am I meant to say ?" You yelled slamming both of your hands on the kitchen top on either side of you .

"Say that you forgive me and we are ok , look baby girl I'm so sorry !!" He said .

"But we are not ok" you said looking down .

He just stood there confused.

You took a deep breath and looked up to meet his questioning eyes.

"Look ..this may have just been a small thing for you but for me this was the biggest thing I've ever delt with"you said .

"Who says this isn't big for me" he was yelling now.

"I don't know ! You've dated and fucked girl after girl ! Hobi you were my first kiss , my first boyfriend and first time ! I trusted you ! I fucking loved you , I promised to love you no matter what became of you ..that didn't mean this" You said nearly crying .

"Y/N I know and I'm so sorry ..It means a lot to me being your first time ..but you are my first as well ..my first fucking love" he said walking closer to you .

You wanted to just hug him and kiss him ..tell him you were ok and forgave him ..but you weren't ..your trust had gone in him .

"You obviously don't care thou-."

"Don't care !! Why would I be here if I didn't care ..why the fuck would I fucking drive down here !!" He screamed at you .

"WELL WHY WOULD YOU CHEAT IN THE FIRST PLACE IF YOU CARED !! WH-WHY WOULD YOU HURT ME IF I REALLY AM YOUR FIRST LOVE !! ...
HUh ..an-answer me that !"

"Y/N EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES WHY CANT YOU GET THAT INTO YOUR HEAD ..JUST FUCKING LET ME BACK INTO YOUR LIFE ALREADY !!" He yelled even louder then you this time .

You couldn't hold back the tears , they poured out of your eyes .

He just doesn't get it

Hobi POV

I couldn't help my rage , I needed her to know I loved her . I'd never expressed raw emotions like this to a girl before ..Y/N wasn't just a girl .

She was the love of my life and I fucked up bad , but I needed her ..I needed to know she was ok and that we were ok again .

Yeah we only dated 5 days ..but people say they can fall in love just from one look so what we have is just as real as other couples who have been together for years.

I mean ..

Just seeing her there in her pyjamas , no makeup , hair not all done up , blob fish ..slippers ... and yet she looked more beautifully perfect then any other girl I've known , because that look was her look ..her weirdly strange look but I love it .

She began crying , I walked up to her pulling her into a hug , she hugged back for a few seconds before pushing me away . "No !" She yelled .

YPOV
You knew if you hugged him longer you would give in , but you couldn't give in .

Some people would be telling you to forgive him ..or tell you to stop being dramatic and just except what's happened .

But it wasn't that easy .

Hobi was your first in everything , this was your first relationship and to say you already knew you loved him after not dating that long is something big.
You wanted to kiss him and be say yes to being his again.

You wanted to but your trust in him was no longer there . You had to do this .

"Hobi" you said looking at him , he just looked at you , his eyes welled up a little bit with tears .

"It's over .." you said .

You couldn't believe your own words but you knew you had to .

"No ..no don't say that" he said grabbing your hands pulling you a bit .

"Please leave" you said pulling your hands out of his grip and walking to the door .

"No ..please let's sort this out -." He said remaining where he stood.

"Don't make this any harder then it already is for me" you said opening the door .

"No ..I ..I fucking love you , I refuse to leave" he cried .

Your tears fell more "please hobi" you said looking at him , he just looked at you .

His eyes were stinging red .

He grabbed his keys and stormed out the door .

You watched him get in the car before driving off .

You closed the door and dropped down crying . You felt as though you could feel your heart shatter ..literally .

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Hobi PoV :
I drove all the way back to mine , I saw a note on the front door "sorry son , we are going away for a few weeks for work ..see you soon" it read .
Fucking great .

I unlocked the door and went to the kitchen .

I opened the cupboards and found a bottle of vodka ..

I'm a fucking dick why do I do stupid things .

YPOV

——4 hrs later

You cried more and more till you had no tears left .

You curled up on the sofa , you went on your phone , your lock screen made you want to die .

It was a pic of you and hobi from when you went for ice cream that time ..it seemed like so long ago .

You unlocked your phone , you had a lot of messages and missed calls from your friends , you just turned off your phone throwing it to the side .

You fell asleep on the sofa .