Chapter 4 - vote army, vote for Jungkook and kookies ;)

SORRY FOR SHORT CHAPTER IM SORRY... WILL BE LONGER NEXT TIME PROMISE <3

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Ren and I were currently in line for hot chocolate when a song played in the cafeteria. 

Bts... wow! Should have known!

Everyone jumped on tables and partied as they enjoyed it.I just shook my head and ran off, cursing along the way. This band makes my stomach churn makes me feel sick to the stomach.

And I'll tell you all about that.

(FLASHBACK)

I was at the clearance store, Charlie's which had cute dresses for special occasions. I bought a few when I noticed a suspicious figure shopping, vertically opposite of me.

Their eyes held so much fear as if they were running away from something.

I shook my had and started bagging my dresses, until the guy held my eyes for one split second, his slit eyes piercing my soul, then he pushed me.

"That dress- i- it w- was m- my sisters... who died.." His jaw clenched.

"W- ell I di- didn't know s- sorry." I put it back.

The dress was very beautiful but I guess I'll just leave it.

He nods, turning his head away until he faces me with so much hate. "You are so mean... hope you never wear those dresses. They don't look right on you, your fat so why would you wear something like that?" 

His demeanor turned deathly as I choke on my own words, like a hurricane of sorrow, I obediently bow down and apologize to this rude oppa who looks scary. "Sorry, sorry, sorry," I kept bowing down my head.

He clicked his tongue and went down eye level with me. His appearance was clearer. His purple hair showing with the hinge of white. And his brown eyes aren't anything like chocolate just a dark road ahead. He smirks as he pulled my hair. "Don't you ever call me Oppa... your nothing but a really old rat, ya hear?" 

"Ouch p- pl- ease s- to p," I yelled out in pain.

No one was nearby or even if they were they didn't bother to help or witness with what was going on.

"You know who I don't you?" He raised a threatening brow.

"No sorry," I replied bluntly. He tugged on my hair now making it harder for me to focus.

"Please stop!" I yelled, begging for his remorse to be shown or any sympathy.

"I'm Suga from the k-pop band BTS. And there's one thing I really hate that no one knows of and will never be aware of..." He rolled off his words gazing around as if he didn't want anyone to hear.

"What's that?" I said callously. 

"I hate ARMYs who are fat and ugly. Especially ones like you." He says, laughing manically.

I bite my lip in horror. "Y- you really are pathetic... you know I heard one member was the least favourite guess that's just you."

"Hmm is it now?" His deathly manner responds and pulls me hard to the ground.

"Don't you ever wear dresses, your nothing but a pathetic pig." He said, to his demise I recorded half of that.

And I would send it... if I feel like it.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

I hide in the toilet stools and wipe the tears away. I reminded myself I was never able to dress nice or please others; I was utterly worthless.

The way he said it made my teeth grit and all the air inside of me escape.

Until a knock sounded on my stall. "Are you in there?"

I wiped a tear and smiled opening the door. "Yeah, I'm here, sorry for being a nuisance."

My best friend doesn't judge me or care what others think, Ren has always been there for me. Her lovely blonde hair always shimmers and radiates me with warmth. I smile her smile and hugged her hug.

She lets go and her eyes warn me. "You are never a nuisance. Your my best friend ok no matter what." She smiles cheerfully.

I nod and we head back to our classes.

▬▬▬JUNGKOOK'S POV:▬▬▬

I approached Jimin with a tight bro hug. "I'm sorry you're leaving us."

"Don't worry I'm still here, let's celebrate for the last year I have left of BTS with you guys," His iridescent eyes glimmered with a lost picture without a frame nor title.

He just nodded and patted my back, "Thank you Jungkook."

Suga was being a little brooding lately his emotions are clouded like the most of us here. "Suga you ok?"

"Umm no just leave me k!" He exclaimed.

My eyes held horror as I walked back to my other hyungs and we just chatted. "Jin do you know what's up with him?" I asked, the gentleman here, smiling like a millionaire.

"No, for once I actually do not know, maybe his sister's death is still burdening him?" He says I nod along.

Maybe.

I head home the following night saying goodbye to my hyungs.

I read a book and smile at a thought.

She loves reading.. how about I write a book of her life and confess my anonymous, undying and faithful love for her.  With her pictures of her younger self and her awards, I recollected after she threw out. she labelled 'heart-breaking memories' why is that?

I want to get to know her... but I'm a severe coward.

I can't compete with my inner darker self. I am worthless of her love, aren't I?

But this could be immensely positive she is my 여신 (goddess) after all. 

"Yes, she is my goddess my one and only, the one who was always there, when I was small and afraid. And now she is my little petite butterfly and I shall encage her within my heart, forever and forever," I smile like the Cheshire cat.

Afterall, these boots were meant for stalking.

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Vote, comment and follow for me k <3

You know your always beautiful don't let Suga break your heart if he is your bias that is, you all worth it just keep a smile so they won't know your hurting. Smile through the pain and soon the pain will learn to fade away.

X O X O- Ayaan

P.S -  sorry for the short chapter wasn't feeling ok.