I love giving people advice, but I can never say my real thoughts. My friend showed me one of her drawing and I wanted to tell her what I thought, but a tiny thing in my heart was telling me not to tell her. It's like it pulled away all of my feelings and I just nodded. She kinda looked depressed and looked away.

Even though I try to give people advice in hard times, I start shaking looking at the ground. People don't really understand...I MEAN I try to be strong, but something keeps pulling me back.

I was talking to a boy at school, he's kinda cute and all of my friends beside one, have had crushes on him or he has had a crush on them. There all really pretty, but I'm there with big glasses and pimples and freckles that cover my face and messy short hair. 

Me: Hey Matt are you going on Age Of Sails? (A field trip were you stay overnight on a boat for a school trip)

Matt: Yeah!

Me: Are you in the cooking crew like all the boys?

Matt: Sadly no..

Me: What crew are you in?

Matt: Boat Crew!

Me: ME TOO!

Matt: Cool!

Then he put up his hand to high five, but I never noticed. I FEEL LIKE A IDIOT! 

I was to busy smiling and blushing and also looking in his eye's to notice his HAND! I'm so sad, cause he's really nice and he looked really upset.

Matt: No? Ok..

Then he walked away..