I am terrible when it comes to stress. I used to lie to myself saying I don't stress easily. Yeah right. If I stress I get panicked sometimes. Or I get worried something could happen.

But when I stress and panic I explode into tears. Like I hate too much noise or get annoyed easily when I try to work and there is too much noise like drilling like any person. But I get panicked when someone screams or shouts at me. Like 'what's going on? Why are they shouting at me? Plz don't shout it's scaring me. No! I'm gonna cry!' And I do even though I know why they are shouting. I. Can't. Process. It!!! My mind tries to sort itself out but my emotions are leaking out. I get embarrassed and I cry harder and hate the ppl staring at me. I get permission to calm myself down. I tell myself "Breathe. Hum a song. Try to calm down." After 5-10 minutes it works until I get back to class and cry from embarrassment. I love purple, yellow and blue. I love puppies, baby animals. Teddies,  Lollies, Chocolate and gummy sweets. I cuddle my pillow when I sleep. I also hate being shoved and teased and shouting crowds. Thank goodness I was never at a huge party before in my life. I love to chew straws or I love cool straws or bendy ones. I love stripes and warm jackets and cute things and lavender and strawberry cented stuff. I love the sound of the wind in the trees. I love the smell of the rain or waking up next to a river or the smells when the sun rises. I love sucking on small sweets when I sleep. I'm over sensitive and act very childish around a few of my friends or at home. BTS calms me down or hypes me up. I hate thunder and scary dogs. I love to sleep till 6 : 30 or 7 : 30 in the morning and stay up till late. Though if I'm tired I'm clingy and emotional. I love salty foods and fried chicken and pizza and pasta and pies and mash potatoes.

I don't know what to make out of this. Plz help me understand what is going on with me.