Hot tears pricked my cheeks as I stood in front of the balcony door remembering the incidents of the past few days. It was too much! I had let the chairman down! I had lost.

 I finally admitted my defeat! Shehzad… even thinking about his name boils my blood.

 That cheater! How could he? How could he do all this to me! Why? First my family and then Shehzad. Why Allah why? I know I should not be complaining but I have had enough! That day all I wanted was to surprise him and tell him my feelings and what did he do?

In return, for all that I did what did he do?

 Betray! That’s what he did! He betrayed me! He…he actually got engaged to that Brundidge lady! Didn’t he even think at least once before getting engaged? Didn’t he think about me? Not even once? Why!!!

 I grabbed a glass which was peacefully sitting on the table. A small smile played on my lips as I thought about what Blacksmith had done for me! How it hurts to know that the people you love don’t care about you but the people you don’t know, or worse, hate, care so much!

I was wrong about Joshua all along. So he was a good guy. Well kind of a good guy! Well you’ve learned your lesson Khadijah! Never judge a book by its cover.However, I judged Shehzad to be a heartless beast and that’s what he is! Perhaps sometimes the result is right!

My eyes drifted towards the flowers I had planted. It has been a long time since I watered them. The mere thought of these flowers hurt like being pricked by a thorn. I remember how I used to run around wanting to pin a flower on Shehzad’s coat.. I remember the feeling. It was pure love. Love for a beast! But didn’t Beauty turn the Beast back into a charming prince because of her love?  I broke out of my thoughts as a warm, big hand grabbed my shoulder tightly and turned me.

A shocked Shehzad stood in front me. His expression changed suddenly from shocked to emotionless. In a split second he grabbed my arms tightly that it started to hurt and opened his mouth to say something when I pushed him back. I looked deep into his eyes searching for something, a sign of emotion.

“GOD DAMN IT KHADIJA!” he shouted.

I was moved by his sudden action but got a grip on myself.  I still had the glass in my hand. Adrenaline was rushing in my blood and I couldn’t hold any longer. Before he could even move a muscle I threw the glass on the floor right in front of me and yelled.

“GOD DAMN ME? NO. GOD DAMN YOU SHEHZAD ATISH!”

Shehzad flinched and took a step back. I could see that he was shocked to see my sudden outburst. His once emotionless face was now filled with shock and his lips slightly parted. Ignoring the change, I continued.

“Why did you have to do this to me? Why?? First my parents, now you! So all that jealousy, all that concern was fake. You never really cared!!! I was…I was so happy when I backed the cake for you! I thought that finally things would work out between us! But no! You cheater, you beast! I hate you!!You ruined me! My whole life! All that matters to you is yourself! All you want to do is care for yourself! You’re heartless!”

“ Mujhay tum say nafrat hai (I HATE YOU)! Tumhara naam sun ka bhi Mujhay ghin atti hai (I’m disgusted even at the sound of your name)!! If Abu would have been alive, main un ko battati ka jis admi ka sath wo apni betti ka rishta karnay ja rahay thai wo kitna neech insaan hai (I would’ve told him that the person he had chosen for his daughter was so low of a human being)! I HATE YOU SHEHZAD ATISH”

I finally broke down completely and fell on the floor. Tears gushed down my face and I clenched the glass pieces tightly not caring about the pain.

I had had enough!!! I could no longer have patience. I couldn’t understand why all this was happening to me. I had finally broken. I threw the pieces of glass which were now covered in my blood and held on my dress tightly. I yelled loudly. The room was silent and suddenly my sobs filled the room. I couldn’t get a control on myself though I tried a lot.My head was throbbing so badly I wanted to bang my head onto the wall. A piercing pain went through my heart. I wanted all this to get over.

I closed my eyes thinking that maybe it will help me run away from the reality. I shouldn’t have come here. I shouldn’t have. It was a bad idea! All the incidents from 3 days before flashed in front my eyes like a film. Shehzad’soffice, his confession, Susan, rain, Joshua.

My eyes were still closed and my sobbing was out of control! My back was now touching the wall with my legs close to my chest, my hands around my legs and my head between them. I remembered how I woke up on Joshua’s bed just 2 days ago.

{flash back}

I slowly opened my eyes. My head was throbbing really badly. All I remember was rain and cold then someone wrapping their arms around me. But now I was in a warm comfy place. It took me a couple of moments for my eyes to get used to the atmosphere. I was in a room on someone’s bed! I turned my head towards my right and a light moan escaped my lips.

“Oh thank God you are up!” a sleepy voice broke the silence.

This feeling was so déjà vu!

I turned my head to the right just to see Joshua Blacksmith.

“Blacksmith?”

“You know me?” he answered. “How weird. I am not sure I know who you are.”

“Ya Khuda! This can’t be…..Joshua how did I get here?”

“Wait…wait…No you are Khadijah???” his eyes widened with shock.

“Huh...Yes! You don’t know?” I said moving in the middle of the bed and covering my hair with the duvet.

“Oh. You weren’t wearing your scarf so I guess I didn’t recognize you.” He smiled.” Lucy! Can you please get a head scarf from the nearest store?”

“Yes sir” a lady’s voice answered.

I was shocked at his kind behavior that I didn’t realize my mouth was slightly open.

“Well at least now you believe I am not so bad.”Joshua smiled

“Hmm” I replied.

“I was just coming back from the court when I saw a girl crying in the rain. I thought of helping her and got her home. I then called my cousin, who is a doctor, to come check you. She said you had a cold and gave me the medicines. Now if you have your answers you may fresh up and have breakfast.” He said standing up.

When he reached the door, he turned around and said “Though I’ll stay curious on how you reached there”

He winked and left the room.

I was dumb struck at his kind gesture. Who knew Joshua could be so kind.

{Flash back end}

The next scene flashed before my eyes. The next day (a day before today), Joshua took me to buy clothes. I did not know where to stay and I told him that my cousin, Shehzad, and me had a fight. He was kind enough to let me stay at his place. I was so confused and shocked. It was so hard to get myself together. We just stepped out of the shop and were laughing when suddenly Joshua’s face straightened. I turned around to see a shocked Shehzad staring at me.

“Kha….”

Before he could even say my name, I told Joshua to take me home. I ignored Shehzad’s presence and sat on the bike behind Joshua. The whole ride I was silent.

“We’re here.” Joshua announced.

“What are we doing here?” I said looking at the building where Shehzad lived.

“You told me to get you home so I got you to your home. This is the place you live right?” he inquired

Then with a bolt, I realized that I just called Joshua’s place home.

“I am so sorry. I meant to say your home. I am just not ready to go home yet.” My voice was shaky and the tears threatened to fall. I was slowly losing control over my emotions.

I was brought to reality by a warm hand on my shoulder and a calm voice saying my name.

“Khadijah”

I realized I had gone completely silent. I pushed the hand away, with all the energy I had left, with my bleeding hand and said as calmly as I could.

“Don’t you dare touch me Shehzad.”

Shehzad’s eyes widened with shock and he moved a step back. I saw he was holding a first aid kit. “Is it your specialty to hurt people and then aid them? I questioned him.

“Khadijah!”

I stood up to leave but the tears started again.

“I killed them…”

“Kay…”

“It’s all my fault….”

“Kay…”

“I did it……..”

“Kay…”

“Why me? Why did you have to do this?”

“Kay!!! Listen you are blee…”

“I hate you. I don’t want to listen to you…”

“KAY”

“I HATE YOU……”

“KAY”

“I KILLED THEM…. IT WAS ME… MEIN NA MAAR DIYA UN KO ( I killed them).”

“KAY…KAY..DIA!!!”

I suddenly stopped when I heard him call me Dia.

“h..how.. how do you know I am also called Dia”

“It doesn’t matter now. Come I need to bandage your wounds.”

“NO. I want answers first.”

“you shouldn’t have come . You made a big mistake. After I bandage your wounds, you need to go away. Ok?”

“Shehzad! I want answers! You can’t do this ok! Answer me!”

“Khadijah! I just want you to hate me ok! That is all I wanted. I was successful but you had to come here today didn’t you?!” shehzad said sitting down on the floor and opening the first aid box.

“What do you mean?” I questioned.

“First promise me you will go away. You would not return after I tell you this. You will never come back to me.” He talked while cleaning my hand. I winced in pain. It did hurt a lot.

“Answer me Khadijah. Promise me.”

“But… I can’t leave you shehzad. I love you. I promised you I’ll never leave. I just can’t leave you.” I begged him not to make me leave him but I knew it was of no use.

“Do you want to know or not?” his voice turned hard and cold again.

I nodded my head in agreement and he finished bandaging my hands. I looked into his eyes and saw clear fear. Fear for what? That I did not know…yet.

I stood up and started to tell him how much I loved him and couldn’t leave him. “Shehzad please. Do not make me leave you. I love you shehzad please please. I beg you please.”

“Khadijah! How many times do I have to tell you that loving me is useless? You just have to hate me and forget me! I am telling you it is dangerous for you. You….you just have to understand. Look Khadijah whatever I said back then was not true. I am not engaged to any girl it was just for you to hate me.” Shehzad yelled standing up.

“But why shehzad? Why?” I cried completely confused.

“Khadijah listen. You have to leave now. Go don’t come back I’ll get Larry to tell you. Just go.”Shehzad begged.

Just then, I heard a bang and the balcony glass broke and a bullet hit the wall. WHAT THE…….. Ya Allah

“Oh god. Shit shit!!”  Shehzad yelled “go Khadijah run go!!!!!!!!!!”

“No no. shehzad please no.”

Shehzad pulled me closer to himself protectively. My head touched his chest and I clung to him, letting out all my tears. His warm hand touched my back and he begged me to go.

Another shot was fired nearly getting us. It was then that shehzad held my hand and ran. He opened the front door, pushed me outside, and pressed the elevator button. Once we goton the ground floor he pushed me to run in front of him.

“Khadijah just run! Whatever happens don’t stop.” Shehzad yelled at me from behind.

I ran. I just ran without thinking anything. I just prayed to Allah that shehzad was behind me and that he didn’t leave me. I don’t know for how long I was running but now I had enough. My legs were tired and I couldn’t move. I felt nausea and I just wanted to rest this is too much!

“Khadijah,” Shehzad screamed holding my hand and pushing me towards the left.” Don’t lose it now. Please.”

“Shehzad. I….I’m tired” I complained.

“Just a little more.” Was all Shehzad said. He pushed me again and kept on nudging me to run.” Just a little more Khadijah just a little more.”

After another long run, we finally stopped I had no idea where we were but I was happy that me and shehzad had escaped the firing and that he was completely safe.

“Okay listen Khadijah! Go inside” he pointed towards the huge garage behind me “and then go right. You touch the wall and you will feel a door. Go inside. There will be a tunnel. Just keep running and you will find a door. Get out of there and go to Larry. He will tell you everything. Now Khadijah they are coming. Go go .Just go Kay. Just go!!! Promise me you wouldn’t stop!!”

“Shehzad.” I looked at his pleading eyes. His face was wary and his breathing was shallow. “I promise.” With that, I ran inside. It was pitch black and I was scared for Shehzad. After a lot of struggle I finally found the door and went inside. Just as shehzad had described it was a tunnel and it had lights which were lit. Just when I made my mind to run a voice stopped me in my tracks!!

“Finally! Shehzad Atish! Now you are all mine!!”

For a few minutes everything went silent, I cuddled my body against the wall thinking of all possibilities that could have been happening there. I waited for a long time, and there was still silence. I thought they must have gone and I moved to open the door just when the silence was broken by the sound of gunshots. The noise was clear enough to make out that it was fired three times. Panic rose within me.Bile was rushing to my throat.

What if it was shehzad? It was my entire fault! I shouldn’t have come home. I shouldn’t have! Just when I planned to go check I heard the voice again.

“Go search the girl! Boss wants her! “

I could hear footsteps getting nearer as the moments passed. I stayed silent and sat like a statue making no movements whatsoever and my tears started falling again. Ya Khuda please keep shehzad safe. Please!!!! I prayed silently.

By now, I had realized that it was shehzad who had been shot and all I could do was pray.

“Ok she’s gone. Let us go. As if, she is so important. She would have been another doll for the boss!” I was shocked when I heard that, who was this boss and what has he had for shehzad?!!

After a long time I got the courage to opened the door and got out. I slowly preceded the entrance and right in front of me was Shehzad bleeding and lying unconscious. Taking turtle steps I reached him and knelt down next to him, I couldn’t believe what was in front of me. I ran my hands in his hair and examined his body. As I had expected he had three injuries. One on his lower abdomen on his left side, one on his right leg and one on his left shoulder. I was horrified at the site that I couldn’t even speak. After getting control over myself, I dragged shehzad inside the garage and lay him down with his head in my lap. It suddenly clicked to me that I still had my bag with me which meant I had my cell. I took out my cell and dialed the chairman’s number.

“Good evening. This is…..” a manly voice spoke up but I interrupted him before he could finish.

“Can I please talk to the chairman.Fast!”

“But maam…”

“Just tell him that Khadijah wants to talk to you. It’s an emergency. Please just go.” I somehow managed to say that between my sobs.

There was a short silence and after that the chairman’s voice came in.

“Khadijah baita? What happened?”

“Dada jaan! Dada d..Shehzad! He…he got shot dada jaan! please please come for help. We are… I don’t know exactly but it’s a huge garage kind of place. Dada jaan please come fast! Shehzad needs help. Wo mar jai ga (he will die). Dada jaan please!”

“Baita just tell me did shehzad get you in the garage?”

“y..yes.”

“Acha. Ok beta I’m coming stay put.”

After that the line went dead and all I could do was wait. I put Shehzad’s head in my lap and held his hand in mine. A moan escaped his lips and he tried to say something but I stopped him.

“No relax. Dada jaan is coming!”

A ray of hope lit in my heart. Shehzad was alive. I just wanted dada jaan to be here and that to fast. I took my scarf off and tore it into three long pieces. The blood had to stop and all I had was my scarf. I tied each piece on the wound. Though I knew it wouldn’t help so much all I could do was try.

“I remember that day. When my father wanted me to marry. I was really mad. I told them that I wished they would die and you know what? The next day they died! So technically I killed them and …and you were going to die too, all because of me. I shouldn’t have come Shehzad. I am sorry b…but… but I wanted answers. How could I be so selfish? I put your life in danger. I am so sorry. Shehzad don’t worry. I am here. Always.  I am always there for you like I promised. I wouldn’t leave you EVER you hear that never ever. Not so easily” I just wanted to let my emotions out and I did.

 I wanted shehzad to know that I was there for him and will always stay. Now that I know that he didn’t do any of what he said that day. I just hoped he would be safe. I was feeling tired and nausea. I was hungry and my body ached. Ya Khuda please. I don’t want to faint now. Please. I don’t know how long I sat there with my eyes closed and Shehzad’s head in my lap. I heard a noise outside so I put my bag under Shehzad’s head and took my cell and stood up. The garage was really dark and I had to switch my torch on to find my way. I looked at shehzad. His eyes were closed and his chest was rising up and down less than normal. Without wasting more time I walked outside and saw a Mercedes car coming this was really fast. I walked a few steps in so whoever it was wouldn’t see me. The car stopped and the doors opened and closed. Dada jaan’s voice broke the silence.

“Khadijah!”

I ran outside and hugged dada jaan and said ”dada jaan please. Please save shehzad.”

He looked really confused and worried. He put his hand on my head and realized I wasn’t wearing my scarf.

“Khadijah baita your scarf?”

“Not now dada jaan. please. Shehzad”

He took my hand in his and we started walking in the garage. I looked back to see five men walking behind him.

“Which way baita?” dada jaan asked I could feel the nervousness in his voice.

“Follow me” I replied. I led them to the left corner of the garage and to my surprise shehzad wasn’t there.

“shehzad!!!” I shouted “dada gaan he was right here dada gaan he left! He escaped. Dada jaan Shehzad!” I crashed my head in the dada gaan’s chest and started crying.

How could he go? He was hurt! How could he? Why did he?

No Dia pagal mat bano (don’t be crazy). How could he leave? Nahi but he’s not here!

“Khadijah beta. Relax” I didn’t realize I was talking my thoughts until dada gaan spoke.

“Boss. He’s here” one of the men called from the other corner.

Dada jaan took my hand and guided me towards Shehzad.

“Shehzad!” Dada gaan shouted. He was laying there as a log. Two men came forward, picked him up, and walked out of the garage.

Once in the car Dada jaan called the doctor and told him to reach the mansion as soon as possible. I still had Shehzad’s head in my lap and looked out of the window. Could this day get any worse? I just prayed to Allah that He would save my Shehzad. I stared out of the window and my vision blurred and everything turned black.

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I woke up on a soft bed. I lay still for some time trying to remember what had happened. Suddenly everything came back to me. I sat up with a start and pulled the needles out of my hand. I was at the mansion.

“Khadijah! Alhamdulillah you are up!” I heard Tanya scream. I turned around to find the room door open and Taniya standing in the way alongside with dada jaan. “You should rest Khadijah” Dada gaan spoke. And I knew that he was very upset by what had happened.

“I am fine Dada jaan. Whe…where is Shehzad? I will tell you everything after I meet him. Please Dada gaan. I promise. Please!” I lied. I was still feeling very weak. I looked at my hands and realized they were dressed in new bandages.

“Taniya!” he nodded at Taniya and she took my hand and guided me to the next room. I opened the door to see shehzad laying on the bed covered with a white duvet. Ignoring the decorations and everything else I went and sat next to him on the bed. Taniya left the room and I started moving my hand in his hair. I did not realize the time pass by until a low shaky voice said my name.

“Khadijah”

I looked down to see a pair of beautiful tired turquoise eyes staring back at me.

SHEHZAD’S P.O.V:-

Shit! Shit! Khadijah had to come now?! Now out of all the time? When I was finally able to make her hate me so much that she would leave? Dammit!

Now where is she going?

I looked at Khadijah run the other way when we were supposed to go the other way.

“KHADIJAH!KHADIJAH!!!”

Damned listen to me!!!!

F*** man!

I ran towards her and held her hand and turned to the other direction and said”KhadijahDon’t lose it now. Please.”

“Shehzad. I….I’m tired” she complained.

Shit! Now what do I do! Damned that idiot girl! First she cuts herself now she’s tired! Damn it! Damn it!

“Just a little more.” Was all I could say.

I pushed her again and kept on nudging her to run.” Just a little more Khadijah, just a little more.” After another long run, we finally reached. “Okay listen Khadijah! Go inside” i pointed towards the garage behind her “and then go right. You touch the wall and you will feel a door. Go inside. There will be a tunnel. Just keep running and you will find a door. Get out of there and go to Larry. He will tell you everything. Now Khadijah they are coming. Go go just go Kay. Just go!!! Promise me you wouldn’t stop!!”

“Shehzad.” she looked at me. Her face was looking tired and I knew she had had enough. “I promise.”

Thank God! This silly girl. With that, she ran away. I had to make sure she left. As I was about to go inside when a voice called.

“Finally! Shehzad Atish! Now you are all mine!!”

“Oh so it’s you! I should have known you f***ing bastard!” I swore at him.” So didn’t he get time to come and kill me himself?! He was always a lazy a**” I laughed

“Oh? You think so! Nah the thing is he doesn’t find you worth it! Now he wants the girl! And im sure you don’t want to be reminded why! In case you don’t remember he wants to toy around with her” he laughed.

That nerve of him!!!

“You Bastard! Don’t you even touch her!!!!Yougod damn moron!” my anger was rising. It’s not as if I love her or something. It’s not that I care for her or something but she has gone through a lot for me! I will not tolerate anyone touching her! NO ONE.

“Oh? Having feelings for her now are we?” he mocked

I didn’t reply him instead started looking around for any sign Khadijah had left.

“Now Shehzad Atish get ready to die”

Bastard! My gun?! Shit! I left it at home! God damned!!!! My f***ing gun!!

The sound of gunshot rose in the air and pain filled my body.

Before a second could pass two more shots hit me and I fell on the ground. I clenched my left side lower abdomen. It hurt like hell! Damned! I couldn’t move my left leg and right shoulder! God damn him!

“I’ll leave you to die! Bleed to death Shehzad Atish!”

After a moment of silence he yelled again.” go search for the girl. The boss wants him”

I tried to move but it was like my body was paralyzed.

Khadijah please don’t be idiot enough to wait. Please. I hope you are already gone!

Damnit. F****

Shit!

Uggh damn man damn!!!

I don’t know how long I lay there but now my vision had started to blur and I had lost a lot of blood.

I felt a kick on my face.

“So still up?” that bastard smiled.

I tried to say something but no words came instead my vision blacked out completely.

When I woke up I heard someone sobbing and I tried remembering what happened and after a few moments it clicked.

 My wounds still hurt! God dammit!Ugggggghhhhh

I tried to say Khadijah’s name but no voice came out instead a moan escaped my lips.

“No relax. Dada jaan is coming!” Khadijah said. What? Damn no chairman?? Damned! Khadijah what the hell are you doing here?! I badly wanted so it all but I couldn’t move my lips.

Khadijah moved around and tied something to my wounds. It was so dark and I couldn’t see anything. I wanted to tell her to switch the lights on. They were right behind her.

“I remember that day. When my father wanted me to marry. I was really mad. I told them that I wished they would die and you know what? The next day they died! So technically I killed them and …and you were going to die too, all because of me. I shouldn’t have come Shehzad. I am sorry b…but… but I wanted answers. How could I be so selfish? I put your life in danger. I am so sorry. Shehzad don’t worry. I am here. Always.  I am always there for you as I promised. I wouldn’t leave you. Not so easily” she suddenly spoke.

God this girl is so damn stubborn. F***!!!!

I felt sorry for her. Yes. I do. She doesn’t have to go through this all.

Damn. Getting soft?

Shit!

Chairman! He is going to kill me!

My head suddenly hurt and I closed my eyes and drifted off in my own lonely world.

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I opened my eyes and yet once again remembered the tragic incident. I stared at the wall in front of me, which had a huge calendar on it. It had been two damn f***ing days since I last woke up. The door opened and I closed my eyes thinking it was the chairman.Damned. Shit. I am sure he is shit angry on what happened. The stupid beeping wouldn’t stop and this blood drip, when the hell is this finishing? I felt the bed creek. so, whoever it is, is now sitting next to me. I am sure it is no one but Khadijah.

I opened my eyes and saw Khadijah look down at me creasing my hair.

“Oh Shehzad” she yelped

“I’m ok. Are…are you fine?” I Inquired

“Hmm”

“Ok listen so we can’t waste time. It has been two days I didn’t wake up. Tell me Khadijah did you tell the chairman anything? I am sure he asked you something!”

“Two days? Oh my God!!” she started panicking.

“Uh? You didn’t know?” this was crazy. How can she not know? Dammit!

“Oh umm. Actually, I think I fainted in the car and woke up now. I did see the chairman … like now and he seemed upset. He didn’t even talk to me “she explained.

“So I was right! Ok now. If he asks you anything, tell him everything that happened on my birthday. Then tell him that you came back home and I got angry and that you cut yourself and then we were attacked and we ran… Just whatever happened ok? Don’t tell him that it was a plan please! Please Khadijah!” my voice was low.

Khadijah just nodded her head in agreement. I knew she didn’t want to go. Damn but she has to. Shit I was so close, so close to winning but Khadijah had to come. Uff!

“Look Khadijah”

“Did you kill them? Did you kill the two men?” she asked

“yes. I did but I did not want to get engaged or something. When you came, Susan called me and I had to do this drama for …. For you to hate me!” when she didn’t answer I continued “you are in danger Khadijah you have to leave and go. Just go Khadijah just go! Now that you know I am not engaged please go. Khadijah don’t say that you love me because you just can’t! I told you that you can’t love me. It’s useless. Love is nothing! I did get engaged to her because it would help me gain my destiny. Later on with my other business deals, she didn’t benefit me so I backed off. See? I don’t believe in love!!! Khadijah we don’t have time!!! Please go to Larry he will tell you everything in detail please!” At last I opened up. I told her. I just hope she would help me! I hope she understands.

“ Why Shehzad, why” she spoke her voice broke it hurt me so damn much F***

”Why can’t I stay with you Shehzad I’m your wife. We’re in this together your problems are mine too I want to stay with u to help you through this let me help, shehzad please. Let me, just give me, no, us a chance. Everything will work out for the best” she have tears in her eyes why does she have to do this? How many times should I tell her that I need no one?

“Kay listen to me you have to stay away this is my fight not yours I started it so I will finish it kay. No buts or ifs you will go and start college and Larry or I will update you with any news if needed till then you have to stay away” she looked so broken she should know this is the best for her.

 “One more  thing  shehzad”

“What is it Khadijah” I asked

“Can I stay with you for the night please it’s going to be our last” she asked

“Okay” I said giving in.

“I have to go to dada jaan and tell him as I promised”  With that, Khadijah left for the chairman and I knew I was so close to my real destiny.

{If you guys have seen the last air bender, the zuko dude}

CHAIRMAN’S P.O.V

I was sitting down in my study. I was angry on what had happened. I remember how Khadijah panicked when she thought Shehzad left from the garage. She was so scared. She really loves Shehzad. I am just so scared for Khadijah! Shehzad will do anything for the chairman’s position! I just hope he does not hurt Khadijah in the process.

The door opened and Khadijah walked in.

“Dada jaan! I promised you that I will come and tell you what happened,” she said. “Ok baita come sit” I motioned her to sit on the chair in front of me. She sat down and I told her to start.

KHADIJAH’S P.O.V

I sat down and told him everything what Shehzad told me. I told the chairman everything that happened on Shehzad’s birthday, excluding him killing the man and confessing his murder and everything that happened two days ago excluding Shehzad’s confession.

I felt horrible lying to the chairman. I couldn’t stay longer because of the guilt eating me inside. I excused myself and went to Shehzad’s room.

CHAIRMAN’S P.O.V

I don’t believe it. How could Shehzad do all this?! Ya Khuda! Now I am sure it was shehzad who killed the two men but why? Why would he do that! Ya Allah please HAVE MERCY ON MY CHILD! PLEASE GIVE MY Khadijah strength. Allah hu Akbar!

I clenched my head in my hands. This was all too much! This has gone too far! What am I going to do this is just too much for this poor Khadijah beti. First she suffered her parents and brothers death

And now all this I don’t know how long can she take this. Ya Allah please help her and please put some sense in Shehzad’s brain

KHADIJAH’S P.O.V

I kept my head on Shehzad’s chest and closed my eyes breathing in his scent trying to remember this knowing I have to let go of him it hurt so much to think about this. All I have is shehzad and I don’t want to leave him.

“Shehzad you’ll come back right?” I wanted to make sure he would come back.

“hmm” was all he said.

I stayed quite. I dint want to ruin the moment like I always do. Shehzad held my hand and kissed it softly I wanted time to freeze. I wanted to held on this moment but I knew this can’t happen. it’s just impossible. Sighing I closed my eyes and the last thing I remembered was his warmth.

I woke up with shehzad shaking me.

“Khadijah wake up. It’s time to go.” He said

I rubbed my eyes and went into the bathroom to fresh up. It was 3 am and according to our plan, we were supposed to get out of the house at 3.30 but it was good that we were leaving before time.

“Let’s go Khadijah and once we go out of the gates we part our ways understand? No talking.” I nodded my head in agreement and his next step shocked me to the core.

In an instant, I felt Shehzad’s arms around my waist securing me in his embrace. He hugged me! That was unbelievable! Shehzad Atish is hugging me!

He broke the hug and we silently left the room taking turtle steps. Shehzad had already informed Larry that I was coming.

I had no idea where he was headed. All the way down I was lost in my thoughts. So much had happened but I would not back off. Yes, Shehzad did kill and I was very upset about that but I had to know the reason behind it. What is he doing? Why? All these answers keep churning and burning inside me! I had enough now it’s my turn to get the answers. I need to know all the answers to my questions.

 As the main gate closed behind me, I had many feelings mixed together. I was guilty for leaving chairman like this, sad that my husband wouldn’t be with me, scared on how my following life would be. Nevertheless, I had to be strong. I have to have faith in Allah. The following path is going to be very hard for me and so I have to prepare myself for anything anytime!

After going to Larry, I have to call Blacksmith. Not that im cheating on shehzad or anything but I have to thank him for keeping me at his place for two days. After that, I need to act as a normal girl going to collage but inside I need to stay alert. I need to keep preparing and I need to stay away from Blacksmith! From any man! I looked back to see Shehzad swiftly walking his way with his back towards me.

Don’t worry Shehzad. I wouldn’t let you down.

I found a new shade of white. This shade is very confusing. It took me a while to understand it. It’s cloudy but clear. It’s clean but a little dirty. It is the shade of mixed emotions. The shade of trust and hate. The shade of choosing your path and doing something for the people you love. I don’t know what shehzad wants but as his wife I have to stay by his side. But if for staying by his side, I have to stay with Larry for now then so be it. You think only you can play games Shehzad Atish? Now you wait and watch what game your wife, Khadijah Atish, plays.

A/N I am soooooo sooooorrryyyy. I know im sooooo late. So sorry this is just the most I could write. I know this is silly.