Hi, so I don't use this book as much as I used to anymore, which is why this will be the last chapter. I like looking back at this book to see some good memories I've made, and some not so great ones, but hey that's life. Life isn't always perfect.

I literally remember opening this book to write during class in high school to share my feelings to people who will probably never see this book or even know me. However, it was nice to just write about random things, kind of as if I was writing in a little journal. It was nice.

I've learned a lot throughout this past year or two about myself and my emotions. I never used to cry when nothing was wrong, like I do now, but sometimes you just have to let it out. I think having friends to be there for me is the most rewarding thing. Even though I don't keep in touch with them everyday, I know I can always text them spontaneously one day and they will respond. I love them for that❤

Now that I'm 19, and I still have a lot to learn, but I know a little bit more about myself, even if it isn't much. life is hard. Life isn't always going to be a routine. It can be hard when you don't really know where you're heading. There will be lots of changes and sometimes you can stray away from the meaning of life so easily. But it's so important to keep going because you never know what the day will bring.

Nervousness, sadness, happiness, anger. Those are all perfectly normal emotions we have as humans, yet 3/4 of those are looked upon so negatively. There sometimes feels like a pressure to be happy all the time, but that is not true at all. Happiness is not the only thing we should feel.

Good years, bad years, those don't exist. What's more realistic is better or worse years. Better or worse days. There's not really a good or a bad. There can be excitement, and fun, but that doesn't mean it's necessarily a good day. There may be things, emotions, going on beyond that "good day," making you feel a little bit bad but that's okay!

2020 was a blur. I graduated high school, started college and the whole covid-19 pandemic blew up in the middle of this as well. 2020 wasn't necessarily a bad year, but was definetly one to remember. We literally all thought the world was going to end but here we are now. Life is a journey, things change-- for better or for worse. It's a rough journey, but as long as you know you have people by your side helping you through it, that's all that really matters. Even if you do feel alone, that's okay, feeling alone is a normal feeling and shouldn't be looked down upon. We all have those days, sometimes multiple days in a row, but there will be a light at the end of a tunnel. You can do it.

And with that, I say au revoir, thank you and have a better day.

-Amber