Let's goooooo.

9th grade..I fell in love with him. We'd stay after to school and hang out and hold hands, suuuppppeeerrrr sweet.

Buuuut the thing most of you did not know was that another guy got into the mix and for some of you suspicious yes, he is on wattpad in our community.

I met Nathan in.....I don't even remember XD XD ( Newsflash kids: Work on your memory, it'll help down the road ) But I do remember it was because he thought I was amazing person/liked my style of writing ( You know on that tag book like: Tag your friends if they are *insert compliment/insult here* )

Thus began talking.

Then Rping because man oh man do I love to roleplay ^^

But it was because of the rp, his funny replies and over 'mature' nature that ultimately made me fall for him as well. 

Yes, your girl for once fell for more than one guy that wasn't in an anime.

Now, this whole thing happened between November/Decemeber? through April. I was friends with his ex ( key word: WAS ) and I confessed to her that I liked him but I didn't want to be the girl stereotype that I'd cheat. Buuuuuut she told him how I felt and we talked about it.

Thennnn we started facetiming...going down hill. I KNOW.

But there is a much deeper side to this then most of you would know. I introduced them to each other and they seemed to hit it off. Even created a group chat..the downhill part was that both of them were toxic to me.

Not in a total bad toxic but once I had broken myself off from both of them this past summer, I realized how toxic it was.

Feeding into a horrible habit of mine which I have been meaning to stop. At times, encouraging it and I'd fall into because I loved them both.

I got the second kiss of my life from Kody, and I still think back it at smile. But after continued the habit and it even got worse in the month of March.

The month of April. I was fully cheating on Kody with Nathan, because of the habit I felt nothing but was mainly on myself and I'll explain why.

I guess because of what happened in 8th grade, I thought I deserved to be selfish. I went through hell and back with two attempts under my belt so I deserve to be giddy.

But the thing is, you can be selfish without hurting someone.

But heres the twist, Kody partially knew. But allowed it because of the habit. Now, skip to April 11th ( yes this time I memorized the exact date ). I broke up with Kody to go to Nathan, and Nathan was fully aware of it.

Kody and I had been arguing days prior to several things so I mainly used that as an excuse. He didn't seem to mind but one thing I've known about Kody for the past two years I had known him, he has gone through hell...way more than I have, so he had learned to conceal his emotions under a smile.

But the sickening this is that I didn't care. I went to Nathan with a smile on my face and my heart content...yeah well, karma's a bitch XD XD But in this case, a good bitch.

Things with Nathan start going downhill, mainly due to religious factors. You see, Nathan claims to be 'non-religious' but has made SEVERAL atheist comments to me. And if you haven't noticed since it's legit on my bio, I'm a Christian to the core.

The full relationship lasted roughly a month until things seriously started going downhill. I took an AP test in May, I had a severe headache the day before and I had been studying day in and day out for that test. ( AP= Advanced Placement. My recommendation: Don't do it if you have a strong mind..)

I asked him to pray for me, He refused. I didn't see the problem, I pushed for it because I wanted to hear good words of encouragement through a method I know from the person I loved. He refused, I then got mad.

But I let it be...mostly. Fast forward a week or so during school finals, we had our biggest argument ever. He called me a bitch and other words while I hurled insults back, then things got so bad I'm pretty sure he blocked me...I think, can't remember :P

On Wattpad, when I told my friends I was fine about it ( Except NightsongxD, I can tell that girl practically anything. She must go to therapy for all the crap I put on her XD ) But in reality, the next day since I had finals I started crying during my test.

NO JOKE. Honestly, looked like a mess. Nose runny and all that good stuff.

Due remember, this was when he said Geektasticshipping is dead. But after some time and seriously crying on my friends' shoulders ( like damn, I don't deserve them ONE BIT ) I was fine. However we actually didn't officially break up till June-July. And all of that happened near the end of May.

See, this is what happens when your memory is utter crap ^^ I tried just being friends with him but honestly we both made it hard on each other, so now he's probs living a good life. Wouldn't know haven't spoken to him since October after some real drama including him and his ex who just happens to be one of my daughters.

Was this all confusing? Eh, I'll be more than happy to clarify cause I jumped some stuff and got to the big stuff.

Now the current year....hehehehehehehehehehhe, ahhh. Love is...weird towards me but it's fine. That conversation is for another time whether y'all dm or not.

Random Person: Why did you tell us all of this?

Thank you random person ^^

I've noticed that people on Wattpad are closing off of each other and in a lot of incidents, I'm afraid I give off that kind of vibe.

Don't really read books ( And I'm trying to work on that ), my attitude sometimes is just suuuppperrr crappy unless you dm me.

I wanted to open with you guys so you guys know you can come to me for anything. I love earning trust so I legit put my past life right out there for y'all to see but I'm fine.

For those who knew of the situation, here's some clarification and for others...yes, this is the big mess of a person that goes by the screen name: Pupsey.

And for those wondering: Kody and I are talking and we seem to be on a good terms. He came out as gay and now he is bi. ( I'll figure out why the heck the bi thing happened later ) And Nathan last time I saw is dating one of the most followed people in the Poke-Fandom. Since he's been crushing on her for a whhhhiiillleeeee. I wish him love and the best of luck in his life ^^

Alright, I'm done typing and now going back to trying to update this book of mine so I can get working on other books too XD

I love you all, just remember that <3

Oh! And to my lovely exs:

( Even tho I do NOT like Ariana Grande )

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