Hi there. First off happy belated holidays and new year.

And I have been on wattpad...sort of but just not as active had I have been.

To give you a look, here is what is going on:
Like before I started that my depression is back( I mean, it never went away but yeah) but things have gotten so much worse, suicidal worse.

I'm trying to receive help but that's a whole mess on it's own.

I have a national test coming up and currently studying (failing).

My love life...HA! What's that?

I've been falling out of toxic relationships (friendships, family etc)

Finding true friends.

I know what I want to be in the future (Social worker! Woot woot!!!)

And overall trying to stay alive one day at a time.

For those wondering when the next TW update is: I'm sorry. My mental health is not allowing me to right now, at least until after the national test.

Not only that, but my own sexuality became confluzzed. Do I like it? No or yes? Questions like that.

My faith has began to waver which I hate, so I'm trying to get that back.

Also leaving things (and people) in the past and look forward.

What do I want in a relationship and can this person give it to me?

I've even cut down seriously on all thing Weeb related.

It's a lot guys, and for those that stuck around me during constant mental break downs.

I say I love you, from the bottom of my heart.

As I write this, I'm in tears because I dont think I've ever been this confused on who I am and what I am. Its scary... terrifying even.

But knowing I can come back here and find you guys smiling (through text, duh) and welcoming me back. Makes me the proudest Mom/Sister/daughter a girl could ask for.

So this is a hello, but also a thank you. I'll be back when I can so I can say proudly that I am Pupsey. :)
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~Pupsey