This blood vessel cries that I call my body,
I'm frozen in time, stuck in space,
Legs shiver and skin rings,
My brain shuts down, pale is my face.

Fear so intense, so intense, it can swallow me alive,
Can't breathe, I choke on my own hatred for me,
Why did I break my walls, why did I let you in?
Why did I reveal what I felt, why couldn't I just let it be?

It was your game and you played it well,
You win, win, win, win, win,
I lose, lose, lose, lose, lose,
And now realise that love is a sin.

Guys I wanna request something today. I need support, yes I said it. I'm on my knees here. And I'm feeling very weak. I think I could use a miracle right now. PLEASE pray for me if you could be so kind. Believe me, you're the other family I have. You have always been here for me. You've helped me before in ways I cannot describe and I request you to be here for me and many others like me. I hope you will trust in me and know that I have done no wrong. Still I'm at a point in life where I have to be scared for something I did not do. I just want each one of you reading this to know that I love you just like I love my poetry and that you'll always hold a special place in my heart.
Forever and always,
Your troubled soul,
JC