My emotions are
in a twister, spinning to
fast to handle.

•••

The are all fighting
over how I should
truly feel.

•••

Should I feel
hurt?
Love?

Happy?
Depressed?
Angry?

Worthless?
Sad?
Timid?

•••

I feel hurt when
someone who didn't
think before they spoke.

•••

Love for the person
I hold close to my heart
but my mind tortures me.

It tortures me with
possibilities of him
leaving again.

•••

Happy for the
little good things that
happen in life.

•••

Depressed from the
thoughts in my mind
that won't leave.

•••

Angry when someone left
and betrayed me,
never speaking to me again.

•••

Worthless to the person
who I want to cheer
up the most.

•••

Sad that someone who
was dear, reached his
final chapter in his life.

•••

Timid to tell people
what's going on and
to ask for help.

•••

I'm torn by my own
thoughts while some tear
me from the outside.

•••

No one can really
tell what's happening
inside me.

•••

Play dumb and lie
if they hit close
to base.

•••

How long until one
can tell just by
looking at me?

•••

Will someone ever just
look in my eyes
and tell I'm being torn?

•••

How long can I
keep it under control?
Only a god would know.

•End•

-Written Feb. 18th, 2018-