Terror and dread has fallen on my face

And yet I'm smiling like a little kid

On Christmas Day

•••

Isn't that just odd?

Fear is looking me right in the eye

And yet I'm happy

•••

Weird how sometimes fear

And happiness can go together

In an experience

•••

So many possibilities of death

And yet I grin knowing

That everything will be alright

•••

My mind is racing,

Everything is chasing

Happening so fast

•••

Suddenly I stop thinking,

My mind goes on autopilot,

My smile growing bigger

•••

My mind can't process it,

My thoughts disappear,

And my body starts to move

•••

One minute trying to get out,

One minute trying to stay,

It can't decide

•••

Stay or leave?

Stay and regret it,

Or leave and regret it?

•••

Terror and dread,

Happiness and enjoyment

Two opposite emotions in one situation.

•••

It might seem completely

insane to you, but

To me it's normal and ordinary

•••

In this situation,

This and many situations

Terror and happiness is possible 

(I wrote this on a plane on my way to a vacation but tried to make it flexible enough to be other situations. Hope you like it)

-Written November 28, 2017-