Sometimes I wish I had memory spray 

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To erase all the pain,

all the hurt,

all the memories of you

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Sure, I'm happy, I'm okay on the

outside but in the inside I'm crying 

when I think about you 

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Why?...

Why do you haunt me?

You haunt my past and my thoughts

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Please just leave!

Go And Leave No Trace Of 

You In My Mind!

•••

Take All The Pain,

Tears And Mistakes!

Just Leave Me To Live In Peace!

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I don't want the hurt...I don't want 

the tears...but some part of me 

also doesn't want you to leave....

•••

 I don't like losing people...

but I want to have no more of this 

hurt and pain that comes from you

•••

I'm thankful for my friends...

the only ones that stopped me

from hurting myself

•••

It was only them and the 

happiness that they gave

me that made me push on

•••

You never helped me...you never 

comforted me...you never did anything 

like they did that made them a true friend

•••

The more I think about it,

the more I realized you used

and pained me more than anyone

•••

You almost stripped me of nothing,

leaving me out in the cold, leaving 

me to run to my friends warmth

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Luckily, you never completely took

my will, spirit, and happiness that pushed 

me on to still be who I am

•••

They rebuilt what you destroyed....

patched up what you tore.... and

pieced together what you shattered...

•••

Leave me, it's not worth it

anymore, I don't want to be leaning

on my friends anymore from the pain

•••

So please leave...

no matter what you say or do

it won't change my mind

•••

Leave and Erase the pain,

the memories....

everything...

-Written December 6, 2017-