Well, to answer your question it's been pretty rough this month.. A lot has happened and I'll get into more detail on a certain thing in a little bit.

Now I know a lot of people that read my fanfics don't read this. But for those who do, thanks.

But anyway. Life as been a complete pain in the ass, excuse my language, there's the fore warning. I've been in this dark place right now. I've been trying to not drag it upon others and keep a smile and joke around with them like usual, goof off and what not. But some have noticed that I haven't really been myself lately. Even my parents. Well my mom for the most part. I'll still try and be there goofball at times, but it doesn't feel the same anymore. I guess..

I don't want to say what I have is depression. I'm sad in a sense of so many things, but I'm not depressed. School has been a very stressful thing as well. I want to quit band as usual, nothing new about that. Art has taking a huge leap at me again and I'm trying to get in the gear of that. But I've been very lazy too. I want to write and I'm going to be completely honest with all of you. I've had no motivation.. And I love all of your comments and support and feedbacks for me to updated, but I am very lazy.

Now on to physically. Lately (and yes I drink lots of milk, thank you. -.-) my body has been giving me the most problems. My immune system is very weak so I get sick a lot so that's not new so I'm sick again. But my body has been achy regardless of the sickness. My bone(s) will randomly ache when I lean on my knee or elbow or anything I guess.. Pointy? XD whatever, but seriously. It's really often.

Backtrack real quick so this will be explained when I say his next thing. About 3 years ago I had to go to the hospital because I pulled two muscles on my sides and this was new and it hurt like hell. My mom thought I was having a hernia. I wasn't, thankfully. Doctors just said I pulled a muscle. But ever since that day it would happen every once in a while. Frequently though.

Okay. So today when I got home I felt so tired, I passed out on my bed without even realizing. My mom came in and asked if I'd like to change so I'm more comfortable. I said sure and tired to move. My right side - from my thigh to my hip bone - felt the same achy feeling but worse. I had to have my mom help my undress cause I couldn't move. I then fell asleep after again. Which isn't usual for me. I slept until I was woken for dinner. The pain was gone then and I didn't feel it as much. But it was so concerning to me. My body has been so weird lately.

But aside from my excuses of not updating I really do hope you can forgive me. It's just been hard. There's so much I could do to maybe help my weird issues but it's just my mind not wanting to do the effort. As bad as that sounds.

I shall be on my way to dream land now. If it's your bday happy bday, if it's night when you're Reading this goodnight like me, and if it's morning good morning. Etc lol.

<3
~Danirious