OKAY ALL CAPS HERE WE GO BE PREPARED..

So I used to band and I played percussion, I hated it. I wanted to quit and this unfair thing came up. If I quit then I take drum lessons. I cried and cried. I didn't want to do drums. I wanted to draw, write, make videos. I mean, don't get me wrong. I love drums, I'll bang on them and make a beat. But I don't want to make it my main focus. I don't want anyone to teach me, I'd rather self-teach myself if I did want to. But I don't. I had missed two weeks of lessons because of me being sick and thanksgiving. Drum lessons always get in the way. It makes my life a living hell and stresses me out so much, putting so much weight on my shoulders.

And yes, I have told them, "I don't want to do this, no, and I don't like it," I get that a lot. It doesn't work...

My dad said it would be a good "bond." But in all honesty, we have way more things that we could bond over. This isn't something I want to do.

I just wish.. I wish I could speak up and not get grounded or in trouble.. I they would listen.. I wish I could do what I love, and that's doing this and drawing. I love writing stories, I love drawing.. I love making stories and plays, I love singing, I love making movies..etc.

I just want someone in my family to hear me out instead of the answer, "They're doing what's best for you," IS THIS REALLY WHAT IS BEST FOR ME? BEING SOMEONE IM NOT! I DONT CARE IF YOU SHOW ME THESE VIDEOS OF OTHER PEOPLE ON DRUMS BEING SUCCESSFUL AND WENT TO SCHOOL WITH A SCHOLARSHIP! I WANT TO DO SOMETHING I ENJOY! I DONT ENJOY THIS!

LET ME BE ME!

So backtracking.. I went back into band to stop lessons.. THEY BROKE THE PROMISE AND MADE ME DO MORE! IM SO DONE! I HATE WHEN PEOPLE PROMISE ME THINGS! THEY NEVER KEEP THEM AND ALWAYS BREAK THEM! STAB ME IN THE BACK!
IM SO DONE!

I just want them to listen without me crying in my bedroom. This may sound dramatic, but it's pure hell to me..

IM JUST DONE...

*sigh*
I just want it to stop.. I just want it to stop....
:::(

There will be an update on this book today... Just go back a chapter to see it...
-Danirious