I always felt uncomfortable at cemeteries. Maybe it's the emotional aura, the thought that many people have come to grieve.

I like sitting at a grave to observe and wonder. I like that most cemeteries are peaceful and clear with beauty surrounding most. I like how well kept some are and I like the flowers occasionally left. But not the ones without them, because it only makes me wonder more.

Maybe it's bad to say I like the emotional aura, but not when others are with me. Not when the aura is shared with someone unlikely to feel that aura, to see them stare at that grave with thoughts scattered in their heads, tears swimming in their eyes, ground tugging at their feet.

I don't like the feeling of walking to find the beloved you're looking for. Walking on the squishy ground. Even if they are all six feet under, it feels like you're trampling on their property, or just walking right on top of their body.

That's another thing, I don't like how the ground's so squishy. It feels like I can sink in with them.

Maybe it's rude, but looking at other graves is something I enjoy. Who were they, what did they do, how did they feel, how did they make others feel? More questions than few.

What if it's the emotional aura that makes the ground squishy? Or the past feet that have walked these grounds in hopes for closure. What happens if I finally go to a grave where I know them, personally have met them, had a life with them, would all these thoughts be the same?

Maybe just one will stay in my mind.

I don't like how the ground is squishy...