For once can I love someone who loves me back. Who doesn't play with my feelings thinking it's keeping me intact.

But again I'm so afraid to be with someone I love because I'll hurt them in the end. I just never want to lose a friend.

The pain is so unbearable, though, with each new love I find. The hopeful possibility that I might fill your mind.

Fill your mind with the same thoughts as I. Like some kind of drug that makes you addicted and get high.

Calling me beautiful and cute and amazing makes my heart skip. It makes me think that the possibility of your feelings being the same, making my stomach do a flip.

Although I know you can compliment someone and not have to like them, but you never said these things out of the blue before. And now seeing you with her, tells me you don't like me anymore.

Maybe you never did and it was all in my head. But now all I want to do is cry in my bed.

I shouldn't cry because I knew I had no chance. I just wanted to hold you and maybe have one dance.

You told me you would want to kiss me. But now that I've gone for the day, would you even miss me?

Do you ever talk about me like the way I talk about you? The way my heart flutters, but now feels so blue?

The feeling of safety when you hug me in your arms. I get so flustered because of your unintentional charm.

Maybe it's dumb to dwell on some guy. I've had this before, many times again, but I keep wanting to try, but why why why?

I'm too shy to hug you and not let go. I'm too shy to kiss you and feel my blood flow. I'm too shy to embrace you like she does — never on the low.
I'm too shy to call you and talk to you for hours, I love your voice though.
I'm too shy to verbally talk to you, because my head doesn't think of words, no.

I wish I could do all the things I'd imagine in a fairytale, but my body grows weak and I can't help but flee.
I wish I could be all the things you'd want me to be.

I just want to be closer to you so I don't forget. I want to be close enough that you don't care if I break a sweat.

There's one thing I don't get, no I'm not sure.
Why do you let her hang on you and bug you when you hate her?

Why don't you tell her to leave you alone instead of drawing you in?
Don't you remember all things she did the last time you let her win?

Don't you remember how she left you a hundred times, but still wanted you back? Hits you, but kisses you, never have a full conversation, and doesn't care jack?

Maybe I'm being overzealous.
But I'm not embarrassed to say that, yes I am jealous.

I'm jealous that you give all your love to a girl who tests your feelings by risking her life. I'm jealous that you give your love to a girl who used a knife.

I'm jealous that you give love to a girl who blames you for her crime. I'm jealous that you give love to a girl who said she kill herself because of you later in time.

She faked a suicide to see if you'd cry.
Apologized and asked you to try.

Before you said you loved her, but she's caused you so much pain.
Is that really love, all in vein?

I would say that I love you, but that word is so strong. I'm too scared that if I say it that you'll be gone.

I would say that I love you, but what if I'm wrong. I'm decent at writing poems, but I'd rather sing it in a song.

If I sing it in a song you'd have to listen closely to the lyrics that fly. I could never read you this poem because I might cry.

So until I find the right notes, I'll try to stay afloat. And when I do sing it to you, just know I might choke.

If the day comes where I move on. Just know that I care about you even after dawn.

Back to this present I ask you of something.
Please don't say things you don't mean, just say nothing.

Please be mine if you do feel the same. I just don't want to have to play this game.

I'll express my feelings in every way of art. But for now, sincerely the girl, who lost her heart.

~Danirious