I'm still in shock, what the hell is going on? "Oh.. I'm sorry if I've shocked you I.. I really didn't mean to make you think it was someone else." His head turns and he gazes in the direction of the television like a stunned rabbit, "Wait.." his face flexes. "I did mean to do that." He bites his lip and I want to pull his lip out of his fucken mouth and tell him to stop being a slut.

Woh.. that would be too aggressive. Wait, when am I not aggressive? "Why did you feel the need to hide it from me?" I ask him with the very little voice I have at the moment, can't breathe very well either. "Because I had a feeling that you didn't like me back." He finally looks up at me with those huge doe eyes of his and pink cheeks.

JESUS!

Insert high pitched screaming. "What makes you think that?" I ask him. He stares at me for a while as if trying to process what I'm hinting at, because I'll soil myself if I tell him straight forward. His eyebrows knit a little and he looks at my lips which makes me want to seriously throw myself out the window and live on the floor as a pancake.

I've thought about this twice, so I clearly want to do it. "Are you.. saying.. what I think you're saying?" He asks. I look down at my hand that's still on his lap and I slowly move it away, naughty. "I'm saying..." I start, "that I feel the same way." I look at him, my face hotter than I think it's ever been in my life.

He stares at me with an emotionless expression, which I find very confusing because I would've thought that he'd be pleased to hear that I like him back. "What?" he asks, oh he's still in shock.. I get that. I am too. I take a deep breath and I prepare to explain myself. "I like you too Jungkook, that's what I mean."

My heart is pounding so hard I might just pop like a balloon. Then that damn smile appears on his face again, "Really?" he asks. I nod quickly not able to say anything. He lets out a breath, as if relieved, "Wow.." he whispers and looks away from me only to stare forward. "I never thought.." He doesn't finish, he lightly chuckles.

"I really thought that you were going to reject me." I stare at him in disbelief, "You're kidding me right?" I get my voice back. He looks at me, "No, that's why I was debating on telling you." Now I'm staring at him in disbelief, why are we so damn clueless? "So you really did think I didn't like you? You understand that's far from what I feel.. right? What did I ever do that made you think I didn't?" I ask him.

He chuckles nervously. "I don't know, honestly I thought you were seeing me as Jae's douchey popular brother." I laugh at his words. "Only a little bit." He lightly chuckles again, "Kidding." I smile. His face stays pink and he just smiles, keeping full eye contact with me. This boy.. "I still really don't know what to say to you." He confesses as he leans toward me.

"I don't know what to... say either.." I find myself choking up. "Wait." His face flexes. "Then.. was I the guy that you were talking...?" I nod, and he chuckles. "When I was talking about you.." I grin to myself to the thought of all those nice things Jungkook had said about me that day. I'm honestly so flattered and truly happy.

My face heats up, he had said that I'm gorgeous and how my smile makes him feel. Wow, wow oh wow this feels so nice. "Yeah, I'm surprised you didn't figure it out I thought I was being pretty obvious." He shakes his head laughing and running his fingers through his hair, "Honestly no, I didn't. When you said you liked someone I didn't want to hear all the things you were gonna say about him."

"Because I knew you were going to say such nice things and I was going to feel super jealous, hating myself for not telling you I liked you." He smiles, "But it honestly feels really great that all those nice things you said were about me." I nod and pick up my shoulders, acting coy. "I can say the same about the things you said about me." My face is hot!

He smiles even bigger, "Everything I said is very true." I smile, "And you don't have to impress me ever, I'm always impressed by you." He just stares at me and his looks concerned. "That's why you were going to cry, isn't it?" I bite my lip, "You really thought I liked someone else." He mumbles.

"Yes." I nod bringing my hair behind my ear, "I really did think so, and all week and all day today I was just beating myself up. Because I thought it was Aecha that you liked, because I didn't know who she was at first until of course people were talking. And what I saw made sense, but I feel a million times better to know that I was wrong."

"Dang, I'm sorry.. I never meant for you to question yourself and be sad. I guess we were both pretty good at hiding it from each other because that's the reason why I avoided you. I was really hurt too, and I kept an eye on you. I wanted to figure out who this guy was, this guy that made your face brighten up like the light of day."

Wow, why are we just so dumb? "I'm surprised you didn't see me staring at you." I laugh nervously, covering my cheeks with my hands. "I must be blind and dumb, because I really didn't see you. I would've freaked." He mumbles and I continue to hold my hot cheeks. "And screw Jimin for telling you to give up on me." I add.

He rolls his eyes and shakes his head, "That guy, he's really just a lone wolf bachelor." He shifts on the couch, "He'd always show me other girls who slide into his direct messages asking about me, and I'd tell him I didn't care. He'd try to pick them up, of course none of them ever deny him. He's Jimin." He shrugs. "I don't know, but I'm happy I didn't believe him."

He looks down at me and I let my hands fall off my cheeks, "I wasn't planning on giving up on you anyways, I was just fighting myself to grow some balls and tell you how I feel." He blushes, and I smile, "Well what gave you the strength?" I ask. He tilts his head and looks at my face, slowly smiling. "I don't really know." He says, I blush again because of his gaze.

"I guess when my sister was going to leave for her shower I just said, 'it's now or never'. Since she ruined the first time I was planning on telling you." I raise my eyebrow, "First time?" I ask. "Yeah, a week ago when you and my sister made treats." OH!!! I lightly gasp, that's what he was going to say!!! The thing I forgot! I'm fucking dumb!

"No way.." I mumble, he nods. "But I don't know, I took Jae interrupting as a sign that I shouldn't." Ugh Jae. I lick my lips, "Honestly that day I was really ballsy because I was really hurt.", "You had me sweating like crazy." He says quickly. I laugh, "Really?" He nods quickly, "Having you do something like that, I thought I was going to say something really stupid."

"Awe, you should've." I say, causing us both to laugh. Then I shrug, "I kinda just.. really liked that. Being under your arm and being close to you, you really surprised me with how you were reacting." He nods, "I surprised myself too, I thought I'd be too scared to put my arm around you but I just did it and I'm surprised you couldn't hear my heart exploding." I stare at him.

"And.. um.. I honestly thought you only did that because you thought of me as a friend.", "Ha, I thought the same about you." We both shake our heads and laugh, this is honestly so weird for me. Explaining my actions towards him, about him. "I'd honestly really like to do that again." He bites his lip right after, I smile and shrug. I'm really shy I don't know what to say to that.

Then it dawns on me.

"Wait, then what did you tell Aecha?" I ask. He blushes, "I told her that my heart was with someone else, and that I've been wanting to confess. That I didn't want to lead her on and hurt her feelings, that we could be friends. Which she was fine with, and she doesn't know who it is, I didn't want her harassing you or something." My face is all red, I can feel it.

That his heart.. was with.. me. "Wow." I mumble. He smiles and rubs his neck, "Yeah." He replies. I stay quiet as I stare into space, after a few seconds he breaks the silence. "Can I.. have your Kakao or something?" He asks. "Yes, of course." I nod.

He stuffs his hand into his pocket and pulls out his phone, his eyes look at me eagerly waiting for me to give him my Kakao username. I look at him and tell him my Kakao, then he saves it and I'm able to breathe for a few seconds until I hear Jae come out of the bathroom. She took a shorter shower than normal, what the heck.

Both Jungkook and I look up at the ceiling, then I feel my body lean in his direction. I'm about to turn and look at him when I feel his hand on my arm. "I'll text you tonight." he whispers in my ear and I'm ready to turn into mashed potatoes because I'm a potato. "Okay." I look at him and his face is close to mine, my face stays hot until he moves away and he walks toward his room.

My eyes falling to his cute butt in those slacks, damn- "Hey Yuna, what are you doing? What should we do?" I hear Jae and I look at her, she has a towel on her head that makes her look like an ice cream cone. "I've just been waiting for you patiently." I smile, smiling for another reason. Smiling because I'm just realizing what happened a few minutes ago.

I really can't believe what happened, Jungkook... "My brother was annoying you, wasn't he?" She asks in annoyance as she sits next to me on the couch. It was far from that. "No, we just sat here and we're on our phones." I tell her. "Wow.. our generation and phones." I laugh at her words, "You're the exact same." She laughs back.

"Whaaaaateveeeer." She whines. I then feel my phone vibrate and I pick it up to look at the screen. My heart flies up into my throat and I read it.

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junggukie971
I kinda couldn't wait to message you.. sorry.. I hope you don't mind..

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"Yuna? Who's that?" Jae asks me, "My mother, she's just wondering when I'll be home." I lie. "Oh, she doesn't mind that you're here does she?" Jae looks concerned. "Of course not, I just told her in another hour or so." She smiles and nods, that's fine. "Anyways, do you want to watch a movie?" I nod quickly, "I'd love to watch a movie." my phone vibrates again.

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junggukie971
Are you just going to ignore me?? Am I bothering you? I'm sorry if I'm being annoying, I just want to talk to you

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I let out a nervous breath and message him back. I never knew he could be so eager to talk to me the second he knows how I feel, I never thought that he'd be the type to double text.

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yunaboo
I'm watching a movie with Jae

junggukie971
Okay, that sounds fun

yunaboo
Yeah..

junggukie971
I'll be right there

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WHAT!? I hadn't even noticed that Jae was already putting on a movie, I then hear Jungkook's bedroom door open and bare feet against the floor. With every foot step, my heart pounds and my veins feel tight. Finally Jungkook is in view and I can't look at him, not because I'm ashamed that I confessed to him or anything but because I'm so damn nervous.

Not to mention that he has changed into sweats and a form fitted shirt, I don't want to check I him out so hard right now in front of his face and get caught. That's not my style after all, I like to be sneaky.

I feel his eyes and the pit of my stomach turns to liquid. "Ew, what are you doing here?" Jae asks as she finally sees Jungkook, I finally look up at him. He's looking at her and I look at his jaw, Jesus.. "Can't I come over and watch a movie with you guys?" he asks, and I'm ready to throw the remote at his head. Legit, this boy NEVER watches movies with us.

Jae makes a face and I already know what she's going to say. "You never watch movies with us, how come you want to all of a sudden?" she asks. I knew it. "I'm just bored." he makes an excuse. "Can't you go be bored somewhere else?" I laugh, causing him to look straight at me and I cover my mouth with my hand.

For fucks sake Kook, why do you have to look at me like that? Give me a heart attack why don't you. I even gasp a little under my breath, those eyes gosh damn it. I feel my cheeks get really hot, is he offended that I laughed at what Jae said about going somewhere else? It's because the way she said it was funny, I don't know why I'm trying to justify it.

"But I want to be here." he says as he looks at me then looks back at Jae. "No, go away, Yuna has to go home after the movie. And she doesn't want you here either." he raises an eyebrow and looks at me again. Holy shit, he's so obvious! Stop being obvious! Bitch, I'm obvious too because I'm just staring at him like a stupid cat.

No! How dare I say that!? Cats aren't dumb, I can't say that when I have my son at home waiting for me. I'm not a stupid cat, I'm a stupid bitch. That's better.

Jungkook doesn't even question if that's true because he knows it's not. I look down at my phone, forcing my gaze away from him. I can't even breathe, my chest feels heavy and I wish I could disappear into the crack of the couch so that I could hide away from this feeling. Not from my feelings for Jungkook, but the feelings that are invading my body at this second.

This discomfort with not even being able to express myself to Jungkook more because I'm scared about what Jae could possibly say about my feelings. That she'd see me like she sees all the other girls at school who fall to her brothers feet, she'd see me just like them. Because I'm aware of how she feels about girls like that.

I end up looking at the pictures that I took of Kevin the other night when I put bread on his face and he just gave me a dirty look. "Wow that's so mean of you Jae, I just want to watch the movie with you guys." he replies to her. "You've seen this movie." Jae says quickly. I look up at the tv, WE'VE seen this movie.

Oh my gosh Jae, they need to get Netflix or something because we've seen all the movies they have on actual dvd. "You have too!! What the heck." here comes another twin fight, gosh. "And?", "Then how come I can't watch it too if we've all clearly seen it?", "Why do you want to so bad?" she asks and he goes silent.

Don't make it more obvious Jungkook, please, just drop it and go back to your room. Please. "Fine, whatever.." he actually sounds really mad. Did he really want to be around me that bad?? "Don't ever ask me if you can hang out with Jimin and I when he's over, you can eat dirt." I then look up at her and her eyes widen. "Fine! You can stay you stupid cry baby!"

I knew that she would say something like this, I knew she wouldn't miss the opportunity to be around her mochi. Jae takes the towel off her head and throws it at him, only to have him catch it and throw it back at her. The damp towel slapping Jae in the face, covering her front of her whole head. It makes a loud slap sound that made her head jolt back aggressively.

I smack my hand over my mouth as I laugh because it sounded so funny. "UUUUUUUGH!!" she whines. She yanks the towel off her face and looks at Jungkook with a mad expression. "You're such an ass." she mumbles as she wraps her hair in the towel again and sits down right next to me, then leans against me.

He looks at me then walks over to the other side of the couch and sits down. Jae then decides to lay down along the couch and lays her head on my lap, her feet on Jungkook. I take off her towel and run my fingers through her damp hair that smells really really good. She keeps her eyes on the television and watches the movie.

I hang the damp towel on the arm of the couch and continue to brush her hair with my fingers. I look up and watch a little of the beginning until I turn my head I meet Jungkook's eyes, I want to choke. My lips part but I don't look away from him, he leans back and gets comfortable while he still stares at me. Jae laughs and I look down at her, then back at him.

He slowly smiles and it makes the pit of my stomach explode, I feel my heart in my throat. He slowly lifts then drops his eyebrows at me, and I don't get what he's hinting at. "What?" I mouth to him, he just smiles even bigger and doesn't even explain himself. I lightly chuckle and look up at the ceiling before looking down at him.

He now has his elbow on the couch and he touches his lips with the tips of his fingers, he looks at me more intensely now. My face heats up and I just look back at him with a straight face and red cheeks, he slowly tilts his head and his eyes look all over my face. "Yuuuuna, keep running your fingers through my hair please." Jae whines.

I look down at her, for the rest of the movie I don't look at Jungkook because I don't think I can stare at him for any longer without fainting. Throughout the whole movie I kept getting chills and when I'd move my eyes to look at him, he was already looking at me. It makes me wonder if he ever looked at the tv. "Awe, that movie is so cute, don't you think?"

Jae sits up, "Yes, it was super cute." I tell her. "You have to go now don't you? It's already pretty late and you told your mother another hour." she frowns. I look at her then my eyes quickly look at him and he's still looking at me. "Unfortunately, yes." I reply as I look at her. "Okay." she frowns.

I get up and get my things, "Oh, Jungkook.. Eomma just texted me and said to get the mail." Jae says, when I look at her she's looking down at her phone. "Okay." he says getting up quickly. "You're not even going to ask if she said for me to do it?" he laughs rudely "I already know that she did." He saves himself from looking sus.

Jae laughs, "You're right, she told me and I'm having you do it." Jungkook just looks at me "Whatever, I'm tired of your shit." Jungkook says making Jae laugh mischievously. I pull on my backpack and walk up to Jae, "I'll see you tomorrow." I tell her, and she hugs me. "Okaaaay." she says and she sounds very suspicious too.

"Jimin just texted me." she whispers in my ear in an excited tone. "Tell me how it goes." I chuckle. "Okeeey." she chuckles and we pull apart. I walk over to my shoes and slip them on, Jungkook also slips on his sandals. "Hey, Kookie.. Why don't you just walk Yuna? She always walks home by herself, also.. Since you didn't walk with us today.. You owe her one."

She's really trying to buy more time to talk to Jimin and have Jungkook out of the house. I try not to pee on the floor, "Okay." is all Jungkook says. We say our last goodbyes, then Jungkook and I are outside of the apartment. I grip my coat as he walks next to me. "You're really obvious.. You know that?" I chuckle nervously, only to make him chuckle as well.

"Kind of can't help it." he looks at me. I bite my lip and look down, I stand in front of the elevator door and he pushes the button. "I just took what we talked about really seriously." I look up quickly at him, "I did too, don't get me wrong." I begin to feel a little nervous and I look down at my shoes like they're the most interesting things in the world.

"Did it make you nervous?" he asks as he leans against the wall, of course you made me nervous. I raise an eyebrow and look at him, "Of course it made me nervous." the elevator door opens. We walk in and he pushes the button for the lobby, "Um.. I have to go home." I tell him, "How about you come with me to get the mail." he suggests.

I just stare at him and he looks back at me, "Why are you staring at me so much?" I mumble as I slowly look away from him. "Because I want to.. You don't like me looking at you?" he asks as he walks up to me but the elevator doors open so I walk past him. "It's not that.", "Then what is it?" he asks quickly. I stand in front of the mail boxes and I decide to get our mail since I'm here already.

"I.. don't want Jae to find out how I feel about you." his eyebrows knit and he watches me get my mail. "Why not? She doesn't know??" he looks surprised. "She's never known." I don't look at him. "What do you mean she's never known?" What else does it mean Kook? "For how long..-", "Don't you need to get your mail?"

I look at him after I have the mail in my hand and close the little metal door that has my apartment number on it. He quickly gets his mail and I lead the way to the elevator. "Yuna.. can you please explain it to me? I want to understand." He asks as he stands right next to me. "Later." I say as the doors open and I walk in.

"Are you okay? Am I being too weird after we told each other?" Yes, you're being really weird. "Just... really different." I push the number for my floor and he stands next to me. "I've always acted this way." He says. Then realization hits me, literally all those times I caught Jungkook staring at me... IT WASN'T MY IMAGINATION!? It's just weird to me now because I know how he feels and I know that it's real.

"Oh." I blush. I gasp when he pushes the button for the elevator to stop. "Jungkook." I say unintentionally, he grips his mail so tight that it bends. This truly shows me how much he dislikes that I'm not opening up to him and communicating with him, I don't want him to be angry at him but I'm not sure why I can't just tell him. Something tells me there will be a better time.

I look up at him, "I'm sorry that I can't control myself now, I've been crazy about you for a really long time. The fact that you like me too is making my body weird and I just want to be around you a lot more. I want to stare at you nonstop and I want to kiss you so bad." My face heats up again and I look at his lips.

"But I also don't want to make you feel uncomfortable about something that is completely foreign to you. This is weird for me too, being lied to all these years about how you might react to my confession. But knowing that everything is going the way I hoped and dreamed, I'm just sort of high on life right now and I don't know how to react."

He lets out a breath, "So I apologize if it's uncomfortable for you.. but just know I'd like to kiss you sometime soon, but a really passionate one.. where I show you how much I like you. But on your terms." That would honestly be amazing. "Is it wrong of me?" He asks in a whisper. I shake my head but he doesn't really acknowledge it, maybe he wants to hear me say it.

He clicks his tongue, "Well." He folds then unfolds the mail several times making loud crinkle sounds and I am a little startled by it. "I guess I'll just have to control myself huh?" He whispers to himself but I clearly hear him. I wish I had the guts and balls to just tell him that I want him to kiss me right now in this metal box, but I'm too much of a coward.

The rest of the ride is quiet and he just leans against the wall and doesn't say anything, just stares at me. Please someone explain to me how I'm still alive and breathing. Why the hell can't I just tell him, "Jungkook, just kiss me. We both want this and I'm going to combust if you don't." Nope Nope, I really can't say it.

I might slit my wrists after I say it, maybe slap myself a black eye. I'd honestly faint if Jungkook kissed me, like.. ever. I'd die, I'd turn into a flea. The doors open and he lets me out first. He walks me to my door, "Would it be totally clingy of me if I asked if we could talk on the phone later?" He searches for my eyes, but I can't look at him.

"I don't mind.." I smile and take out my keys, I'm honestly really happy that he wants to talk to me later. "I'll call you a little after 8." He says eagerly. "Okay." I finally look up at him and he smiles wide. "I can't wait." He whispers. "I can't either." I smile back, "Goodbye Jungkook." My eyes fall to his lips. "Bye.." He says.

I want to tell him to kiss me now, it would be the perfect time for even just a peck or one long motionless kiss. My heart is pounding so much, he slowly leans forward. Is it going to happen!? Is Jungkook going to kiss me!? It's like my legs are under his spell as I walked closer to him, I feel his breath on my cheek.

I'm honesty ready, I've been ready my whole damn life for this to happen. To have his lips on mine, to have him touch me- HOLY SHIT CALM DOWN YUNA. Stay calm! It's just a kiss! I want him to kiss me so bad, but it's like fate is telling us to wait when I hear the door unlocking and I shoot away from Jungkook.

The door opens and it's my mother, "Oh! Yuna, I was about to text you to ask what time you'd be coming home." She then sees Jungkook. "Awe! Hello Jungkook." She smiles and he bows to her quickly. "Hello." He greets her. "I haven't seen you in a while! You're so handsome, my goodness." I blush so much, "Eommaaa." I whine quietly.

"No wonder why Yuna-", "I got the mail Eomma." I show it to her, and I just hear Jungkook smile wide. Yeah, I can hear him smiling it's very obvious. I don't know why I freaked out because he already knows but I guess if my mother says it, it's just like she's snitching on me or something. She's ratting me out but not really...

"Oh! Thank you!" She says. "Okay, bye Jungkook." I lightly push his chest away. "Awe, why don't you come in and catch up? Dongah would love to see you again.", "I'd lo-", "Jungkook actually has to go." I poke his chest with my finger and I look at him. "I'd love to." Jungkook smiles anyways, my mouth drops open.

"Oh perfect!" My mother takes the mail out from my hand and turns into the apartment as she looks down at the envelopes. He just walks up to me and swiftly pulls me under his arm as he pulls us through the door but I pull us back. "What are you crazy?" I ask him, not removing myself from under his arm.

"There's a couple things I could say I'm crazy about." I blush, "Do you really think that this is a good idea?" I ask bite my lip. He smiles as I inhale quickly through my nose when he sets his thumb on my chin and lifts it so that I'm looking up at him, he tilts his head. I let him like I'm ready for him to take me right now. "Please don't do that." He whispers and I let my bottom lip out.

He then sets a little kiss on my forehead and he walks into my apartment, I'm left dumbstruck and pink faced. GOSH DAMN IT KOOK!
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