*Hours later*

"Yuna? Is that you?" I hear my mother's voice, "Yes, I'm just coming from Jae's." I call out as I close the door and take off my shoes. "How was it? Did you make dinner over there?" She asks and I walk right into the living room. She has a few piles of work that she's grading for her class. "Yes, I was teaching the twins how to make that soup you taught me." She keeps her eyes down on the papers and doesn't even look up at me. "Aaaah.. that's.. very nice."

Her voice trails off. I let out a breath, "And Appa?" I ask, "Mmm.. he's coming home in a little while I think. He should be... mm.." She doesn't finish. I frown and continue to my room, I smile as Kevin is laying on my bed practically blending in, but I can see him in the white sheets because of the orange spot on his eye.

"Hi baby boy." I say to him as I set my backpack on the chair in front of my desk. I turn and he opens his eyes and just stares at me. "Wow, not even a greeting? What a meanie." I frown as I walk up to him and sit on my bed, he purrs and gets up. "Not even a 'hi', Kevin." I frown. He rubs up on me and sits on my lap.

"Okay, I forgive you." I smile and as I sit back I pull him closer to me. I pet his head and he continues to purr, a little more aggressive this time. "I wanted to tell you about Jungkook today." I whisper to him. "He was acting weird and even Jae noticed." I stare off into space as I pet his little head. "I really don't know what to think of it.." my eyebrows knit.

"Do you honestly think there's a possibility that Jungkook could even have the slightest amount of feelings for me like I do for him?" I ask Kevin, I finally look down at him to meet his little cat gaze. He meows, what seems like a response to my question but since I don't know how to speak cat.. I make up his answer in my head.

"Yeah, you're right.. I don't think that Jungkook could possibly like me." I nod. He meows again, it could be a rebuttal to what I have to say but again.. because I don't understand cats I'd like to think he's agreeing with me. Honestly, there's no way in hell that Jungkook could like me. I frown and pet his head again.

"Why can't you just.. go tell Jungkook that I like him? He'd probably laugh and pay no attention to me." Kevin blinks and I scratch his chin. "I want so much to know what it's like to have someone like me back, what it could be like to have him care as much as I do." I gently pet the fur on his chest and make it smoother.

"I mean, don't you think it's kind of ridiculous that I've reserved myself for him all these years? When I could've easily walked away from my feelings?" I slowly shake my head, "My heart has chosen its battle, and I'm not sure if it chose correctly because of how risky it is. My heart just wants to make it harder for me and that's unfair."

I draw little circles in his fur then I smooth it, "Why does love have to be that way? And why do the girls always have to be the ones that get hurt? Why is that fair?" I bite my lip and shut my eyes, "Kevin." My lips tremble, "I wish life wasn't such a huge mystery and it makes you think irrational things." I open my eyes and tears fall down my cheeks.

I lower my body and lay on my side and Kevin lays comfortably looking at me, my head on my pillow. "Why did life choose him? Why did my heart choose someone that possibly would never want me, and it devoted itself to him?" Kevin purrs aggressively and presses himself on me, "Why does this life have to be so unfair to those who try more than people who don't?" I sadly grin at him.

"You're the only mans I need in my life, huh Kevin.." I kiss his little head and he just continues to stare at me. I wonder how low in life you have to be to call your own pet your significant other because no one else wants you. "I have fur in my mouth now." I mumble. He then meows and lays back, it's okay.. fur in my mouth isn't the worst thing that's happened to me or can happen to me.

Kevin lays next to me and falls back to sleep. "Do you need a companion?" I ask him, but he doesn't respond. I hum for a few seconds, "We'll be singles together.. which means we're not single but let's not think about that right now." I pet his little soft ears. I then hear my phone buzz and I look over to it in my backpack. "It could be Jae.." I whisper.

I look down at him at my side to see his cute little eyes closed. I get up slowly and his little body still falls in the direction he was leaning. He lays flat and looks at me, as if mad at me that I moved. I quickly grab my phone and walk back to my bed, only to have Kevin throw out his paw at me, smacking my thigh.

"Are you really that mad that I moved from my own bed?" I ask him. He blinks and gets up, walking over to the end of my bed and lays down. "Wow, you're so dramatic." I lay back down. I look down at my phone.

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JAE
Hey, so I was wondering if you wanted to spend the night tomorrow? My parents are going to some intervention. So they'll be gone all weekend. Only if you want to..

_

I think for a while, it shouldn't be any different than any other time that I would go and spend the night. The only thing that is different is how Jungkook was acting with me today, I shouldn't let that affect the way I feel when I go and see my best friend. Because then what? Then Jungkook once again is affecting the way I do things in my life. I can't settle for that.
"What do you think Kevin? Should I go spend the night?" I look up at his little body, but he doesn't respond or even move. "Hmp.." I whisper as I look back down at my phone.

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ME
Yeah! Should I bring anything?

JAE
Nah, just your lil cute cat.

ME
Oof.. will your parents be okay with that?

JAE
probably not.

ME
Okay then I won't lol.

JAE
Awe man.. just because my dad is allergic. Kevin is so cute.

ME
I know.. I'm sorry.

JAE
it's okay man.. I wanted to talk to you about my brother.

ME
What about him?

JAE
He was acting strange don't you think? Can I call you?

ME
Sure, go for it.

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I feel my heart pick up speed in my chest and I try my best not to poo my pants. My phone automatically rings. "Hey bestie." She replies. "Hi." I smile nervously as if she could see me. "Okay, so my brother was acting weird tonight don't you think?? I mean... he usually doesn't even want to be around us."

"Yeah I don't know, I obviously didn't pay much attention to him because I was just worrying about homework and dinner." I lie, I did notice. I did more than notice, I freaked out and I've been overthinking what everything could mean. "Oh, well.. I'm sorry that he was bugging you. He's like a little puppy.", "Haha.. Jae, you're the same way." She lets out a breath.

"Okay okay, I know but he's like.. a whiny puppy that uses his puppy eyes to get everything he wants." I then think about how he looked into my eyes and begged for me to stay with him as he did his homework. "You too." I tease. "Ugh! We're too much alike, it's annoying. Sometimes I wish I wasn't a twin, he's too exhausting." I chuckle.

"Well.. you two ARE twins, and I know you don't mean that.", "No, you caught me.. I love him too much.. But eww on a real note, I forget sometimes that I shared the womb with him.. mm." I chuckle. "Anyways.. What do you want to do tomorrow, it's going to be kinda boring.", "We can bake." I suggest, she gasps.

"Yes! I'll tell my parents to leave money for us so we can go shopping. Now I'm excited.", "Same." I smile. I'm relieved that we've gotten off the subject of Jungkook. We continue our conversation that turns into talking about random things, up until we both go to sleep.

**
•Next Day•

"Best friend!" She cheers as she opens the door for me to head into her apartment. "Hi Jae." She pulls me into a hug and I smile wide. "I'm so happy you're here even though I just saw you yesterday and talked to you last night but I already miss you.", "I missed you too." I mumble as I bury my face in her shoulder. As I slowly look up I see Jungkook walk into the kitchen shirtless.

I feel my whole damn soul fall out of my ass, maybe my body would go pale and cold. I feel dead right now, I'm not okay. He has a mad expression on his face, his eyebrows knit and his hair is messed up but still looks perfect either way. Jae pulls away from me and I'm praying to God that my face isn't a damn tomato.

She closes the door and I walk in to take off my shoes, "EW! JUNGKOOK! Put on a shirt you gross ass!" Jae whines. I just hear Jungkook laugh, which makes me want to slap myself really hard until I get a black eye. "Why, this is my house." He spits at her in a groggy voice which makes me wish I had taken a nice iced cold shower before I came over here.

"Yuna is here!" Jae cries. "Oh?" Jungkook peaks his head out of the kitchen and looks straight at me. "Hey Yuna." He smiles wide. I catch a glimpse of his cute ass nipple that is the perfect balanced snack and his collarbone that stabs my heart. "Hi Jungkook." I wave at him. "Fine, I'll put a damn shirt on even though I don't really want to."

I mean, I wouldn't be complaining if he kept the shirt off. I'd be fine with it, just don't let Jae find out I'm okay with seeing her brother buck ass naked. That would be a show I'd spend thousands on. "Thank you!" Jae tells him. I watch Jungkook walk back to his room, oh my gosh.. that back. His back looks so defined, oooof.

I walk in further into the apartment and Jae pulls my hand up the stairs to her room. "Here here, you can put your stuff in my room." I set my stuff on the couch in her room that turns into a bed. "So my parents left money for us to go to the store but they said that Jungkook HAS to come with us to the store." She whines. "No, it's okay. We'll make him carry everything." I joke.

"Oh my gosh! You're right!" She thought I was serious? Oh my gosh, I'm so bad at sarcasm. Jae changes out of her pajamas and I braid her hair since she doesn't know how to do French braids. We walk down the stairs and Jae nearly collapses into the core of the earth when Jimin walks in through the front door. I hear her making little sounds and I want to laugh.

Poor thing, I wonder how she feels about seeing him in black jeans held up by a belt, a white tee shirt and a black coat. Coming from someone who thinks Jimin is a zero point zero out of ten, he looks pretty good. But Jungkook on the other hand want to make all the girls turn their head when they see him huh?

He's wearing blue jeans, a black shirt and a coat that is just a little darker blue than his pants. His hair nicely brushed with the usual part, he even has some earrings in today, along with Jimin.. but who cares about him.

She appears to be making sounds like, "Huuuuu huhuhuh." Jimin and Jungkook are way too busy talking to even notice us here. "Let's just not go." She turns and crashes into me, she whispers in my ear frantically. "What? No, why?" I whine. "Yuna! Yuna please no.", "Jae you'll be fine." I push her and she pushes me back.

"Oh, Jae.. are you ready to go to the store?" Jungkook asks and we quickly stop fighting. "Ah?" She turns quickly, her face turning pink. "Are we going? Jimin is gonna pull up with us." I look at Jimin, he smiles at Jae and I. "If you don't mind." Jimin adds. "Oh no no, that's fine." Jae quickly answers and Jungkook looks at Jimin, they both share a nod.

"Alright, let's go then." Jungkook suggests. Jae and I walk over to put on our shoes and coats, before we all head out of the apartment together. "So what are you guys doing anyways?" Jimin asks as he walks next to Jungkook who is next to me. "We're going to the store to get supplies to make.. mm.. treats?" I reply to him, the whole time Jungkook is looking at me as I respond.

Jungkook chuckles, "Haha, you don't even know what you're making?" He asks, as if trying to get my attention. "No, because Jae didn't tell me what we are going to make." I turn to her, she's being very quiet and I know why. "What did you decide we'd make?" I ask her, smiling trying to help her feel less nervous. "Maybe mochi's or sweet rice cakes." She grins at me.

"I also wanted to make some Hotteoks." I suggest. "That all sounds good, you think Eomma and Appa gave you enough money for all that?" Jungkook asks. "If we don't have enough money I can pay for the rest." I suggest. "No, it's okay." Jungkook waves his hand, we all enter the elevator and I sense Jae freak out as she gets a spot next to Jimin.

"Ah?" I whisper. "I'll pay if you guys need more." He suggests. "Why? I have money.", "Nah, because I'll be eating most of the treats." He laughs causing me to chuckle. "We'll have to make a lot then, huh Jae?" I hug her from behind and she is less tense when I do so. "Yes." She drops her head. "That's cool, you like cooking?" Jimin finally says something to her.

"N-", "Yes she knows how to bake, she bakes with me." I say to him quickly, I feel her eyes. "Oh." He smiles and looks at Jae. "Then I can't wait to taste those treats." He lightly winks, which makes me want to barf but I'm sure Jae just lost her whole damn uterus. The elevator opens and we all walk out of the apartment complex.

Jae and I walk ahead of them as we make our way to the store on the sidewalk. I feel her weight on me as we walk... she can't even walk.. holy shit she's me, with Jungkook. "Yuna... Yuna.. huhuhuhuh Yunaaa." She cries silently for me. "Jae." I whisper to her to let her know that I can hear her. "I think it's my tiiime." She cries. "I'm gonna die." I try my best not to laugh.

"I'll make sure he attends your funeral.", "Then make sure I'm wearing the skimpiest outfit so he could feel bad for never wrecking my organs." I finally laugh and she laughs nervously. "You'll survive." I whisper to her. "I don't think my lil body can take it." She tells me. "Yeah.. you're putting all your weight on me.", "I'm sorry.. I lost feeling in my legs.", "It's okay man... it's okay."

It takes a while until she actually walks on her own without my support, oh shit. She actually means it, she isn't playing around. "Aye dude, so Aecha confessed to me that she likes me." I hear Jungkook say, and my heart starts to pound. "Everyone likes you duh, what is she expecting with you?" Jimin asks him.

"Well.. she asked if I wanted to go out with her this weekend but I'm not sure.. you know how I feel about my Jagi." Jungkook says and my stomach sinks all the way to my feet, I knew it.. I fucking knew it. I bite my lip and try my best not to let them tremble, why did I even think I had a chance? Ugh!! I'm such an idiot to even think something could happen.

"Yeah yeah okay Jungkook, I forgot you're still all obsessed with her and shit. On the other hand you gotta give Aecha some credit for asking you out, she has some balls for doing that" I hear Jimin, which makes me feel worse. Nice, whoever this girl is.. Jungkook is apparently obsessed with her. Way to make myself feel worse, thanks you little Mochi shit.

"What's so wrong about that?" Jungkook sounds offended. "And I mean yeah, Aecha has the guts to ask me out but.. she's not her." He adds shortly after. "I just think you should keep your options open, have fun with other girls and maybe the thought of her will go away." Jimin suggests. I wonder why Jimin is so into talking Jungkook out from liking this girl.

"I can't do the shit you do Jimin, I can't go and fuck different girls every night and not catch feelings. I actually care about girls, that's why I think I have to decline to Aecha. I don't want to lead her on just because you want me to forget my Jagi." Jimin lets out a breath and Jae pulls me into the store we've come upon but I didn't know because I was much too distracted from what the guys were saying.

"Let's be realistic, when are you ever going to be with her? Never, just face the fact that you don't have a chance with her man." JUNGKOOK!? Not have a chance with a girl!? Holy.. Then that girl must be the prettiest girl in Busan and the smartest, well.. she's pretty blind if she doesn't want Jungkook. I know a thousand girls who'll take him like leftover candy.

"You don't think I do?" Jungkook asks in a sad tone, we all walk down the aisle as Jae gets things we need. "I mean.. there are so many things that are in the way of you getting her so I really don't see the point. You should just let her go, she's not that pretty anyways in my opinion. She's not my type.", "So instead of trying to get over them, just forget about her."

"And honestly Jimin I don't give a shit about what you think about her, she is literally the most beautiful girl I've ever set my eyes on. Most of the girls you think are hot are fucking not, but I let you do your thing. I'd appreciate it if you didn't insult her." I stare at the stuff in front of me. "Yuna, can you help me?" Jae asks, "Yes." I snap out of it quickly.

I need to stop listening to them anyways. I help Jae get all the ingredients for the three treats we're going to make. Including chocolate and powdered sugar to put on top of the Hotteoks. The whole time Jungkook is on my mind and I hate myself for it, he is really invested in this girl.. she's really lucky to have a guy like Jungkook feel this way about her.

From what I can tell Jungkook is really invested in her and he seems like he won't let her go, no matter what others say. Now I don't even want to spend the night, I want to just go home and cry with Kevin. Luckily we have enough money to buy everything and we head back to the apartment.

Jimin and Jungkook are still talking about her and I don't listen to them this time, I don't want to make myself cry. "You have to talk to him more." I tell her and she makes a, "GWAAAH" sound. "If you want something from him." I add. "I.. I don't know." She looks at the floor. "What do you mean you don't know? It could be something easy since he's already here."

I think I'm encouraging her because my heart is broken and I just need to see her be happy. "Not in front of my brother.." she says under her breath. "Why is that an issue?", "It's a huge issue." I raise an eyebrow, "He would be so damn mad, like you said.. he knows how Jimin is and would hate me for liking someone like him."

I stare at her, well.. I guess no one is getting lucky at all with their crush. "I'll distract him for you." Slips out, she looks at me. "That can work." She nods quickly. "You think?" I ask her. "Yes, Jk is very talkative and gets distracted quickly." She smiles, "That's the plan." She nods. "Okay." I nod.

I'm doing this solely out of making her feel better, it's going to torture me to talk to Jungkook about anything knowing he's in love with someone and I don't have a chance at all. My heart is already very upset with me, pounding in my chest ready to hurt me for doing something that I shouldn't be.

We finally make it back to the apartment complex and we're all in the elevator, it's dead silent this time with the elevator music as the background. I have a lot on my mind at the moment, my brain is scrambling like some eggs. When we finally enter the apartment we all take off our shoes, "Aye Jimin let's talk in my room." Jungkook suggests.

"Alright cool." Jimin answers and they're gone down the hall into Jungkook's room, and I have an idea of who they're going to talk about. That girl that I'm already very envious of, I want to cry to her and tell her how lucky she is and that she better love Jungkook with every cell of her body. That she is the luckiest living being on this planet.

Also, I wouldn't blow my cover like that.. no, who knows if I'll ever tell Jungkook how I feel. He's so invested in this girl and I am like a little dust bunny in the corner of the room that everyone forgets about. "Shall we start?" Jae asks me, referring to the baking. "Oh! Yes! Of course." I try to sound enthusiastic. I take off my coat and we head over to the kitchen.

**
•Few Hours Pass•

I lay on my back on the floor and I run my fingers through my hair and Jae watches TV as she lays on my stomach. "I honestly didn't even know my brother was obsessed with some girl." Jae brings up out of nowhere which takes me by surprise. "Oh? I didn't hear anything about that." I lie, a very obvious lie that anyone would see through but I know Jae won't.

She's like a flea.

"Yeah, him and Jimin were talking about it when we were walking to the store.", "Oh, I must've blanked out." She hums. "You think Jimin has a special someone?" She whispers really really low, I almost can't hear her. "Maybe, everyone has one." She smiles. "You think one day it could be me?" She asks and her eyes light up.

"If you talk to him." Her face gets redder. "I know." She nods. "Yuna?" She questions. "Yes?" I ask as I finally look at her. "Do you think there's someone special for you out there?" At that moment Jungkook and Jimin walk out of the hall and into the kitchen, I get a glimpse of Jungkook.

"No." I say straight out as I look at her again. "How are you so certain?" She asks with wonder in her eyes. "I just know.." I slowly look away from her and look at the television. My mind goes blank and I don't really know what to think about, the ability to hear sound seems to go away and I concentrate on the tiny colorful dots on the screen that makes up a moving image.

It's funny how I wanted it to be him so badly, and he wants someone else.

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