Some days I lie awake in bed wondering would it be better if I just went to the rose Petal filled room to end all my suffering and pain

Suicide is romantic and sweet i say to someone

They ask how is it

I say she catches you when you're at your lowest point and offers you false bit of hope which we all need

They ask me to explain more so they can understand more

I breathe for a moment then say she offers you false hope and joy but she very toxic but she offers a distraction from your mind and pain

They just state and try to find the words to say but they can't