"For my wounds don't show that I have lost but that I have survived."-Emma Woodhead

So I have breakdown once every month. But lately this month of September I had a breakdown five times. And it's been really hard. I want to cry at the drop of pen. And now the mask I wear everyday is breaking and it's killing me. I can't even look someone in the eye without lying to them and saying I'm fine. I also am not eating as much as I used to. I guess I'm just a mess. I had so many breakdowns this much that I wanted to self harm again. That I wanted to end my life. But I know I can get through this but I fight. But I feel that soon I won't be able to fight anymore and I'm scared that day will come.

Well sorry for the depressing story.