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{SWEAR WARNING}

So yeah... here's some vent Art I guess- I've been meaning to get this off my chest- so I did it and poor shitty art work.

So, for the past few years, probably ever since I turned ten, I started to get really anxious about everything. And why I mean everything, I mean it! Every single little fucking thing.

And this anxiety shit is the reason why I'm not doing all these cool and amazing things I want to! Like there are several sketches and story ideas that I haven't posted because of this shit!

And my anxiety causes me to think bad about EVERYTHING!! And when I'm too much of a scardy cat to do anything, I immediately keep telling myself how stupid I am and how I'm not good enough and so on.

And people at school actually think they understand me! Well guess what! You don't! These people don't know what I go through just as a normal day at that school!!

I'm constantly worried, I'm constantly nervous, I'm constantly afraid of getting judged, and they think that they understand!?!

Though, there are those few people out there that actually do understand, and know that not just a hug and sympathy can make me feel better, cause it can't.

It makes it worse actually.

One thing about me is that I hate getting sympathy from people in public. And so whenever I start to cry or feel embarrassed/anxious, people always try to feel sympathy for me, thinking that it'll make me feel better. I'm sorry, but it can't.

My anxiety and shyness is holding me back from doing things that I love, all the things I hope to do.be when I grow up are mostly out the window because of this shit.

And people tell me to "face my fears", BUT ITS HARD!! They say, "I know it's hard"- but in reality- I don't think they do-

It feels nearly impossible to get over my fears, because my brain always pushes my fears to extreme measures and always makes me think like I can never do anything good.

Also, that's another reason why basically no one at my school knows about my trolls obsession. Cause I know that they think they're too good for that, so they belittle me for liking it.

Okay- well that's it for this worthless shitty vent- I'll shut up now- and continue to be anxious in my room alone-

Bye- (@/ skipthezurrodragon on Instagram)

-STZD {31-3-22}