I hate doing this.

So many people post about this kind of thing just to get attention or something, and it drives me insane.

I guess I'm just venting through writing.

Feel free to ignore or skip over this, none of its that inportant.

Fine.

For the past few months or so... Well, bit linger than that, I've found myself lacking emotions.

Like... At random, I'll just kind of go blank. Like... Feeling nothing. Or maybe being moody, when I have no reason to.

Like when I should be happy, I'm typically just there. And I act like I am- but I'm not.

My god this sounds so pathetic...

Or when I'm supposed to be sad, I just kind of... Don't care.

And myself?

I honestly feel nothing for myself.

My well being? I don't care.

It's not that I hate myself, I don't,

But it's like I don't exist.

It scares me.

Heck, fear is one of the only things I can really feel.

I only felt loved and happy- or anything about myself, around 2 people- I didn't even know one of them in real life.

And then we grew distant.

I'm down to 1.

I might be jealous? I don't know...

And I feel empty. Like... I'm stuck in some sort of void..?

Everyone has a void, and they all have different things. Whatever they want, and they're all so original and perfect...

And then there's mine.

Endless black.

Something is supposed to be there, something is telling me I'm meant for more than just this, but I don't know what.

I know one day it'll be better. I know that I'll change the world, or maybe just one persons world, but regardless...

I know I'll do something.

And that something will be amazing.

But for now..? For now, I'm a kid.

Some distant, angsty, tween, and I can't do anything.

I want to, but I'm stuck.

I'm trapped, and there's no getting out. Not for years, at least.

...

That's all.

Sorry guys, I just needed to say that, huh?

I'll delete this later, don't worry.

Guess it just makes me feel a bit better.

I hope you guys know where I'm coming from. If not, I hope you can anything least understand I'm not some attention-seeking hog.

Later.