(Continuing last chapter's day, with a different timestamp)

~Monday, March 2nd (12:30 pm)~

~Quick note: In America, or at least the school I went to, Kindergarteners go to school from 8:15 to 3:00. Along with all the other students in each grade level. So Emily and Sebastian are in school from 8:15-3:00. Something else that was brought up was "why did they get up so early?" Again, based on my own school experience/s I had to wake up at 6 am, but I would usually get up earlier to have some time to check Wattpad and other social medias I had at the time. Seeing this was around 5-7th grade. (going into 8th)

Sean sat at his desk, editing the footage that he would upload to his channel when he shot GTA V online with Felix ( <— Check Pewdiepie's Channel), having a thought in the back of his mind, he tried to ignore. That note. What was it exactly. It couldn't of been a suicide note, because she was still here. He stopped editing. Sean took his headphones off.

"Babe? Can you come here for a second?" He asked her. She walked upstairs into their bedroom. He opened his arms, she smiled and sat on his lap, looking at him.

"What's up?" She looked at him.

He sighed. "I'm gonna be upfront and honest. I was looking for some old footage for a video and I found something..." Sean looked at her. Her stomach turned as he told her what he found.

"Do you know what this is?" He looked at her. She nodded, trying to stay calm. She was ready for the disappointment in Sean's eyes as the words left her mouth.

"It was a cry for help.." She looked down as tears ran down her face. He remembered what had happened that day.

(REREAD CHAPTER 9 FOR FURTHER DETAIL.)

(AN EXCERPT FROM CHAPTER 9)

Tears swelled her eyes. She threw her phone at the wall. She cried loudly. Sean ran to her. She looked at him, tears streaming down her face. Sean grabbed her, hugging her tightly. She struggled to get out of his grasp. She screamed whilst crying. 

"LET ME GOO~" She cried hard and loud. He kept her in his arms. She dropped to the ground. He sat with her holding her. She struggled harder. Screaming loudly.

"GET OFF ME" She cried. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" 

He shook his head, staying calm. She's done this before. The outcome was not pretty something he would always regret. She tried to hide her urges, she tried. He knew her and he knew she would try to do it, so he restrained her. 

"Calm down [Y/N]! It's okay. I'm here. and you're not going anywhere until you are calm and collected." He held her, she still struggled. She cried harder. Scratching his hands trying to get him to let go. Sean didn't budge. She screamed and cried for over an hour, before she calmed down. She cried silently. Sean held her close. 

~End of Flashback~

Sean looked at her deeply. "Be honest with me, was this a suicide note?"

She started to cry, nodding. "Sean, I felt like I didn't have any other choice.."

"So you thought ending your life, would stop your problems?" Sean's eyes became glassy as he choked back his tears.

"At the time yes." She looked down, crying.

Sean held in the urge to cry and just looked at her.

"I'm sorry.." She looked at him with tears running down her face.

He hesitated to speak. "..Is that what you were planning to do if I wasn't there to restrain you?" His voice shook.

She stayed quiet. Sean looked at his computer, reading the note again.

"Why would you think I didn't care about you?"

" I thought you tried to help me to be spiteful... or to make the situation better. It took me a while to see the truth.." She dried her tears, sobbing.

"So you thought killing yourself was a good idea?"

She nodded. His tears expelled from his eyes, running down his cheeks.

"Not only would you have killed yourself, you would've killed a major part of my heart. Why didn't you say something? I could've helped you... I love you.." Sean wiped his tears.

She felt her heart breaking, She broke down in tears.

"I'm sorry! Okay! I just wanted to feel love for the first time.." She stood up, in tears.

"I wanted to feel love without the essence of fear.. I wanted someone who wouldn't let me destroy myself emotionally and physically. I wanted someone who would love me as I loved them. I needed someone to be on my side and protect me as I protected them. I needed a friend. Someone that I loved and was a best friend to me. I needed you, and I still need you. Please don't give up on me, on us. *starts to lose control of herself* *screaming* PLEASE SEAN! DON'T LEAVE ME..YOU'RE EVERYTHING I HAVE, PLEASE STAY WITH ME. I DON'T WANT EMILY AND SEBASTIAN NOT HAVING A LOVING FATHER. PLEASE...!" Sean stood up, and hugged her, trying to calm her down. He tried to avoid her having a panic attack. She cried in his arms.

"Listen to me. I love you, Okay? You mean the world to me. Please calm down. Emily and Sebastian will not have to be parented in singles. Please listen to me. *turns her so she is facing him* Please listen to me [Y/N].. I really do care about you. If I didn't care about you, I wouldn't of tried to talk to James about everything. I would've been stabbed either. I really do care and I really do love you. Please.." He held her close to his chest, having his left hand across her collarbone and his left hand on her stomach. She cried softly, calming down. She truly felt safe in Sean's arms. His arms were warm and welcoming. Which lead to the fact, she enjoyed sleeping next to him. He usually slept on his side, allowing her to get in between his arms, placing her back against his chest and his arms around herself. For Sean to fall asleep instantly was always a problem. He never could fall asleep when he wanted to. 5:30 in the morning and he was still awake ( <— IG), after being out all day and made a collab with Felix and Ken. Sean smiled, holding her closer to him.

"I really do love you." He kissed her. She shyly smiled. She took his hand and brought him over to the bed, laying him down next you her. He smiled, spooning her. She looked at him.

"I love you.." She kissed him, and turned around, letting him spoon her. She closed her eyes, slowly falling asleep. Crying makes you tired as most say. [Y/N] fell asleep quite fast. Sean kept himself awake, thinking intensely. He thought many things, but hesitated to tell her about these things.

~She was perfectly fine.. Or so he thought...~