Chapter 23 - Stay with me cuz all I got is you

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Posted on 22 August 2015

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Woohyun's point of view

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I opened my eyes when I saw a sunlight went through my eyelids.

Ugh.. what..

Eh..?

I looked around. Where am I? Isnt I suppose to be in hospital with Hana?

I am now standing in the middle of green field that full with green-ish grasses, white clouds that covered me from getting burn by the sun and there were also birds flew above me as they chirped.

I looked up. Theres a blue skies shines before me.

Why am I in the middle in the field? I mean.. how come..

Then, before more questions start flooding in my head, someone suddenly patted my shoulder from behind.

I flinched. Ohmygod.. w-what..

I slowly turned around and saw a beauty was smiling brightly infront me.

I stunned.

"H-Hana..?", I asked as I am so shocked when I found Hana infront of me in a perfect condition with a really sweet smile plastered on her face.

B-But.. she s-should be in.. wait. Where did all those scars go? Its gone. She looks perfectly fine.

I looked at her. She was wearing a white dress that obviously really suit her pale skin. She let her black-glow hair went down until it reached her waist level.

I really miss touching and playing with her hair..

"Yah! Nam Woohyun! What are you spacing out for??", Hana suddenly yelled at me then grabbed me down and both of us sat on the grasses.

I looked around me. Now, we sat on a picnic blanket and infront of me, there were a looot of foods.

"Yah! Nam Woohyun! Are you even listening to me?", Hana shouted made me looked at her instantly.

I saw Hana already pouted and that was cute..

Gosh, Hana.. I really miss you so much..

My eyes started to get teary but I held it.

"B-But.. Hana, shouldnt you be in h-hospital right now?", I asked what has been playing in my mind all these times.

Suddenly, I earned a laughed from Hana. I looked at her, weirdly.

"Yah, Woohyun, are you sick? Do you have a fever?", Hana asked with a chuckled then she suddenly put her right palm on my forehead. Maybe to feel the temperature of mine.

I twitched. How I miss her touchs so much.. I miss when she touch me and when that soft skin of her touch mine..

"Hm, you're okay and you look fine too. Hahaha whats wrong with you, Woohyun-ah?", Hana chuckled at me.

She started to arranged those foods infront of me.

I confused.

"B-But.. y-you are in c-coma..", I stuttered when I heard the word 'coma'.

"Hahaha. Ohmygod, Woohyun! Come to your sense honey! Hahaha why am I in coma when I am here infront of you in a very good condition?", Hana laughed then slapped my back lightly. Well, its not hurt.

How I miss that laugh so much.. I really miss hearing those cute laugh that sounds like music in my ears..

"See? I am perfectly fine. Dont worry, okay?", Hana gave me a warm smile ever then she touched my cheek.

I feel like wanna cry.

I cant believe this.. Hana is finally okay and she could touching me like this and she look at me with her pretty eyes and she gave me her sweet smiles.. I j-just cant believe this..

"Hey~ I am okay, I said.", Hana said again to make me feel relax and gave me a smile again.

I touched her hand that touched my cheek.

I seems cant talk and just afford to gave her a nod.

She smiled and also nodded her head. Both of us pulled our hands away.

"Okay now. Here, try this. I specially made this for you.", Hana said while held out a sandwich infront of my face.

I looked at the sandwich then looked at her back.

"Y-You made this?", I asked trembling as I still cant believe that Hana is infront of me right now.

"Yup, I made this specially for you, Woohyun-ah.", Hana said while smiled then held out the sandwich near my mouth.

I opened my mouth and Hana slowly shoved the sandwich inside my mouth. I chewed the sandwich while stared her.

"Delicious.", I said then gave her a smile.

"Fuhh. I'm glad you like it.", Hana said happily as she started to eat hers.

I chuckled then looked back at her.

She was now chewing the sandwich that she made, with a really proud and happy expression. I smiled when I saw her reaction.

Too cute..

I looked at her intensely. I cant seems to turn away cuz she look so stunned under the sunlight that beamed on her.

Am I dreaming? I mean.. this is too beautiful to be real..

I stared at her while she was too concentrated in eating her sandwich.

How can I describe this pain yet pure feeling that have been in my heart all this times?

How much she means a lot to me and my entire life.

How important she is in my life. How I cant live without her presence.

How I cant breath when she is not there talking to me and smile to me.

How hurt I feel when I cant stare into her eyes and say how much I love her.

How much I feel like I could die when she cant be by my side and the thoughts of I'm gonna lose her.

I cant leave with it anymore. She is so much important in my life. She is my other half. How am I suppose to live if my other half gone?

How can I explain to Hana about this feeling..? I mean, I have to do it now or never, right?

I looked away. I took a breath then exhaled.

"Hana urm I--", I stopped my words when I suddenly saw Hana's expression changed.

Then, suddenly Hana coughed over and over. She used her palms to covered her mouth.

"H-Hey, Hana.. Are you okay--", Before I could finish my words suddenly I saw Hana was coughing.. blood.

I frozed.

N-No.. This.. T-This is not happening again..

"H-Hana.. N-No.. Dont.. D-Dont leave me again.. No.. Hana!", I hugged her and put her face on my chest.

The beautiful scenery before already turned into a very dark and terrified scene. I could heard thunders all over above me.

But I dont give a damn about and my focused are all on Hana.

"W-Woohyun-ah.. I--", Hana cant go on with her words as bloods keep coming out from her mouth as she keep coughing over and over.

My eyes started to got blurry.

"H-Hana.. please.. Dont.. D-Dont.. I am so happy that I finally c-can see your smile.. can hear your l-laugh.. your e-everything.. I mean, h-how could you.. how could you do this to me?? No, Hana.. No..!", I shook my head as I started to hugged Hana tightly in my arms.

Unfortunately, my tears came out from my eyes. I cried.

"H-Hana.. Hey~ W-Wake up, dear.. I need you, Hana. Please.. dont leave me..", I cried loudly as I held Hana in my arms, tightly.

I cried while digged my face on Hana's head.

"No.. No.. This is not happening again. I am not going to lose you for the second time. No! I cant lose you again!", I cried as I loudly shouted while hugged Hana's weak body in my arms.

"I-I am s-sorry, Woohyun-ah.. I-I love y--", Again Hana cant go on with her words but this time she slowly closed her eyes.

No.. this cant be.. No.. No.. NO!

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"NO!! YOO HANA!!", I shouted loudly as I woke up from my sleep.

I opened my eyes widely and wild my eyes around the room.

I looked at beside me and sighed in relief when I saw Hana still there laying on the hospital's bed with all those wires around her.

Ohmygod.. what a nightmare.

I got up from Hana's bed.

I looked beside me and smiled widely when I saw Hana's sleeping face or should I said the same face she has since yesterday.

I smiled painfully then carrassed her cheek smoothly.

"Good morning, Hana. Do you have a good sleep?", I asked with a painful smile.

No response. As expected..

"..I bet you did..", I said with a low tone as I started to felt a pain in my chest.

I miss you so much, Hana.. Seeing your eyes closed every seconds really torture me.. Please open your eyes and look at me. I miss you staring at me..

I leaned in then placed a kiss on her forehead.

"I will be back, dear.", I said then hurtfully smile when I know that I need to leave her for awhile.

"I miss you..", I stood up then carassed her smooth cheek.

I really do, Hana..

I quickly walked out when I felt like my chest started to thump crazily as my eyes starting to get wet.

No.. enough of crying, Nam Woohyun. Hana need you.

I courage myself and started to walked away with a forceful happy smile plastered on my face.

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I went back with a bowl of water in my hands.

I walked towards Hana's room with a smile.

Hana needs a bath.

When I arrived, I quickly slided the door and walked in.

I walked towards Hana's bed then sat beside her bed.

"Hey, I'm back.", I said to Hana eventho she didnt give me any feedback but I just nodded my head with a smile.

Be patient, Woohyun. One day she will.

"Hey, Hana. Do you mind if I..", I tugged Hana's hospital gown a bit then chuckled by myself.

"By now, you must already smack me on the head. Hahaha. You will get angry tho if I do this thing to you. I mean, the bath. Well, Hana, actually the nurse wanted to do it but I against it and said that I wanted to do it..", I stopped for awhile while looked at Hana's peaceful face.

"..But, I'm not a pervert, kay. I'm just helping you since I'm your boyfriend. Hehe.", I creepily smile then slowly pulled Hana's gown up until it reach below her chest.

And there show a white pale skin of Hana. Her stomach already showed off.

"Ehem. I-I'm going.", I said while coughed a bit. Why am I feeling like this? Aish, Woohyun really.

I grabbed the wet towel that I put in a bowl of water earlier. I squeezed it in each sides then slowly started my job, giving a unofficially bath to Hana.

I started wiped her stomach slowly and smoothly as I dont want to hurt her. Then, I moved towards her arms, palms and legs.

I pick up another wet towel then squeezed it again and started wiped Hana's face, smoothly.

As I wiped Hana's face with the towel, I stared and observed Hana's beautiful yet so perfect face.

"Hana, you know, yesterday I saw your Mom crying at the outside.", I made a conversation Hana as I keep wiping Hana's face, gently.

"She looked really sad. And your Dad also looked wore out already. I bet they didnt get to have a proper meals, you know..", I said then gently wiped her forehead.

I sighed.

"Hana.. i-if you dont want to wake up for me, at least.. wake up for your parents sake.. I know. Its hard. Very hard. The doctor already explained everything to me that you actually could hear me, right? But just cant answer me. You also could saw me right? Thats why, eventho people might thinking that I am some sort of crazy boy that talking to a unspoken person but I dont care, Hana, cuz I knew that you actually can hear and see me.", I said with a obviously a fake laugh.

Then, I sighed again.

"I know you're angry with me and all. But, Hana.. at least, think about other people around you that loves you. Dont you want to see them? Do you love seeing them keep crying for you everyday?", I asked and as usual, just the square huge box beside her were beeping.

I moved my target then started to wiped her neck as well.

I chuckled.

"I'm amazed that you didnt move even an inch eventho I already touched here.", I said then smiling while wiped Hana's pale neck.

"You're so sensitive here tho.", I laughed and keep wiping Hana's neck and also her collarbone.

I looked up at Hana face when I'm done with my job. I already put the towel back to the place.

I leaned in and put my chin on Hana's bed, beside her ear.

"Hana, I know that you're not the type that will leave all your beloved ones behind so sudden like this. I know that you're really a strong girl. I believe in you, Hana. You know that, dont you?", I whispered in her ear then painfully smiled.

I believe in you, Hana. Please open your eyes..

"Hana, I--", Before I could go on my conversation with Hana suddenly someone came in the room from behind me.

I turned around and saw..

"Urm, Woohyun, can I have a seconds with you?", Sora asked while put a bouquet of flowers beside Hana's bed.

She didnt even bother to glance at Hana worst state. 'Well, good for her', she thought in herself. Well, its rare to see a very bad person to suddenly being a kind one. Its a fact.

I quickly stood up as I shocked seeing her in here.

"What are you doing here?", I asked coldly then looked at Hana back.

I gently pulled her blanket up till her chest.
"I will be back, okay dear?", I whispered sweetly in Hana's ear then gave her a smile.

I turned back and looked at Sora uneasy expression.

I walked near her. But not even close.

"So what?", I asked her while crossed my arms on my chest.

"Can we talk outside?", Sora asked me, or tbh gave out an order.

I pissed off. I glared at her.

Why the heck did you asking for her back, you stupid Woohyun. Ugh I feel like wanna puke.

"Just say it here. Or else just get out from this room.", I said coldly not even bother to give a single smile.

"Okay then. Well, Woohyun oppa we've been a couple already and I think that you shouldnt spend your 24hours in here if you know what I mean. And--", Before she could go on with her mumbles that I cant even stands, I quickly stopped her.

"Wait. Wait. Wait. Since when we are even a couple to begin with?", I asked her then gave her a really death glare.

Sora gasped at me.

"Y-Yah, oppa..", Sora came towards me then unexpectedly she hugged my arm.

What the.

I quickly smacked her hand from my arm.

"You. Listen here, carefully. For YOUR information, I am actually the real Woohyun. Or should I say.. the old Woohyun? Oh well, whatever. I doubt you know about I got an amnesia right?", I smirked at her.

And.. her reaction explained everyhing. She didnt know.

"Okay. So, as you can possibly think in more logic way, you know right that the latest me that always stuck with you are not real. So, yeah, I am NOT your boyf or what and to be really honest, we were already DONE for years before.", I said as calm as I can.

I looked at her speechless expression.

"B-But.. oppa! I-I love you!", Sora started crying then she step forward and hugged me.

?!

I quickly pushed her away. Harder.

I turned back and looked at Hana. Then, I looked back at Sora.

"DONT YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN. I WARNED YOU.", I said with a deep voice and pointed at her.

She automatically step backwards.

I sighed. Aish what a waste of time.

"Just go back home, Sora. We're done.", I said then turned away and wanna walk towards Hana's bed.

But before I could, Sora suddenly grabbed my arm and automatically I turned around.

And the worst part was.. unfortunately, we accidently kissed.

My eyes widen then I quickly pushed her hardly. I really am reached my limits already.

"Yah!! What the hell are you thinking you're doing?!", I yelled at her and that makes her flinched a bit.

Moreover, infront of sick Yoo Hana?! This is so.. UGH! DISGUSTING!

I quickly wiped my lips gradually. My lips already red and hurt much because of too much wiping but I dont care. Disgusting, disgusting!

"W-Woohyun oppa, please.. I love you very much..", Sora begged me and she reached for my arm again but I quickly step backward.

"Shut up! The hell are you thinking?! Cant you even understand any language?! We are nothing! We are not even begin anything! We are already ended! For years! Why cant you understand, Sora?! YOU ARE MY PAST and YOO HANA IS MY PRESENT AND WILL BE MY FOREVER! I LOVE HER. I LOVE YOO HANA! SHES MY THE ONLY ONE! Just better stop all these shits before I do something that you cant even imagine. This is my LAST warning!", I shoot a really mad and evil glare at her and this time, she didnt even dare to look at me.

Then, suddenly we heard a really loud beep from behind.

I shockingly looked behind me and walked towards Hana.

She already in worst state. She hardly cant breath. Her breathing became unstable. She looked so much in pain.

God.. no.. no.. what..

"Hana! Someone!! Nurse!! Doctor!!", I shouted for a help then I quickly pushed an emergency button above Hana's bed.

My eyes started forming tears.

No. No. NO you cant die Hana! You cant!

I held Hana's hand in mine. I interwhined my fingers with hers. I cried as I witness Hana's worst and pain state infront of me. Yet I cant do anything about it.

I leaned in and whispered in her ear.

"H-Hana.. you cant leave me.. We already made a p-promise right? Tsk tsk. W-We already promised that we're not gonna leave e-each other, right? H-Hana.. Y-Yoo Hana.. Hey, s-stay stronger, dear. I am a-always here with y-you, okay? D-Dont be a-afraid and f-fight it, okay?", I whispered while crying.

Then, after that doctor and nurses bursted into the room.

"P-Please Hana.. Y-You have to l-live.. Y-You cant l-leave me alone like this.. Please.. P-Please..", I said for the last time before I step backwards and let the profesionals do their work.

I saw the doctor checked on Hana.

I interwhined my fingers together. I am so nervous and scared and every feelings that describe my situation are in it.

I am so scared when I saw the doctor asked the nurses to bring Hana to the next room.

Ohmygod.. no.. Hana..

The nurses nodded and slowly put Hana on a stroller safely.

All of the profesionals walked out while pushed Hana's stroller out from the room.

"She's dying.", One of the medic profesional said towards the doctor.

W-What?! N-No.. N-No! NO SHE CANT!

I followed with tears streamed down on my cheeks.

Hana.. please.. no.. you cant leave me.. you cant do this to me, Hana! You cant leave me!

"Sorry, sir. You need to wait here.", One of the nurse pushed me lightly and I just stood there frozed while looked at Hana figure that slowly fade away from my sight.

"No.. Hana.. No, no! N-No.. ugh..", I fell down on the floor.

I cried as I clenched my fists.

I painfully grip my chest tightly and harder.

"Ugh.. I-Is this w-what you feel, Hana? Is this t-the feeling that you f-felt when I said that I .. d-didnt know you? I-Is this.. is it?? Ugh..", I grip my chest tightly as my other hand put on the floor.

I looked down. Tears fell down on the floor.

"..I-If this is the feeling.. I-If this is the pain f-feeling that I-I always gave to you.. I-I am so sorry, Hana.. T-This is so hurt! Hana..", I said and let my tears accompany me as pains keep attacking me from inside.

"Please god.. Dont give this kind of torture to me.. I felt like I w-wanna die.. P-Please.. Save Hana.. Please let her be safe.. Oh god..", I cried as much as I can.

I cant stopped. Tears crazily streamed down on my cheeks.

My heart already turned into million pieces the moment when I figured how hard Hana endured all these pains by herself for all these months.

How hard Hana try to save her pain all by herself.. How really hard it is..

How hard it feel when shes been crying all alone without me accompany her..

How hard it is to pretend that shes okay all the times..

I keep crying and crying when I remembered about all those sins that I have done towards Hana.

Hana.. cant you please give me another chance? I really need to payback for what I've done to you..

I looked at the closed door infront of me.

I feel so scared. So scared that I might lose..

No! No! Hana, please.. y-you cant leave me.. Hana, please.. I'm begging you..

I cried as I stared at the closed door.

God.. is there still a chance for me to make things right..?

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~To be continue~ Thanks for reading♡

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Woah this chapter.. is messy af sigh *bowed 90degrees* i am so sorry. I just cant get the real feeling yet but still i dont want to update late so um yeah

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