"Without Woohyun.. I kept crying."

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"I hate you, Hana!"

"W-Woohyun..", I cried as he cursed me and threw me away. I looked into his eyes but all I saw were hatred and disgusted.

"I hate you, Hana! Get away from me!", He yelled as he pushed me away, disgusted with my existence at the moment.

"Woohyun.. please dont do this..", I pleaded as I gently took a hold on his arm as I bit my lip nervously, hated the fact that he threw me away.

"Let me go! I dont know you! Let me go!", He yelled again and immediately  pushed me away the moment our skin made contacts.

"Dont.. Please dont..", I pleaded, as I nervously looked at him, wasnt going to give up on the boy.

He ignored me as he turned away, showed his back on me.

He already walked away, step by step, as he acted like a deaf human, ignored all my shouting and yelling. I desperately called his name but it never reach him.

He disappeared in seconds, kind enough to only left his footsteps behind for me to sadly stared at.

"N-No.. He wont leave me.. He wont do this..", I mumbled as I fell on my knees, blow minded with the situation.

Tears kept coming out from my eyes, as my heart ached, pained.

"Woohyun hate me.. what should I do..", I mumbled while cried in pained. I closed my eyes as my digged my nails on my knees, felt depressed and devastated with the fact.

I slowly opened my eyelids as a tear flowed out at the same time. I sighed relief as I was glad that it was just a bad dream.

"That was a nightmare.." I muttered to myself and sighed afterwards.

I slowly sat straight and took a deep breath before I exhaled. I did the same things again.

I quickly got out from my bed as I took a towel and went into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror as I got flashback from the nightmare before.

I eagerly shook my head as I wanted to clear my mind and wasnt going to think about the meaning of the dream. I continued my daily routines afterward.

I wore a comfortable dress as I picked up my stuff and walked out from the room.

I went downstairs as I shouted for mom, was informing her that I would go to visit Woohyun and she approved it.

I smiled as I wuickly wore my converse and went out from the house. "I cant wait to see him.", I mumbled, excited to meet the boyfriend.

I went to the train station as the hospital was at the big city. I bought a ticket and was searching for a seat while waited for the train.

I was about to take a seat on a bench but was surprised instead when a random girl suddenly bumped on me and to make it more dramatic, her coffee had also fell on my dress.

"Ohmygod! I didnt see you earlier. I'm so sorry, miss.", The girl around my age with a long blonded hair and blue eyes apologised as she immediately took out a tissue from her handbag and wiped the stain on my dress.

"Eh, nevermind. Its okay.", I gently pushed her hand as I took the tissue that she offered and wiped the coffee stained with it.

"I'm so sorry. I didnt mean to. I'm really sorry.", The girl apologised again and again as she bowed multiple times which attracted some people attentions.

I quickly stopped her by held her arms and gave her an awkward smile.

"Its really fine. Its nothing much. You gonna ride the next train too?", I tried to change the subjec as I quickly took a seat and urged the girl to take a seat beside me.

"Yes, I am! You too?!", Thankfully she stopped and took a seat beside me as she faced me with a bright smile.

"Yes yes. Me too", I replied with a chuckle. She seems so young to be in my age but yet so elegant.

"Whats your name?", I asked her with a friendly smile. I looked down at my dress as I continued to wipe the stain back again.

"Sora. Jung Sora.", She answered and granted me with a friendly smile back. I looked at her and nodded before I turned my attention back on the stained dress.

"What is your name?" She gave the same question to me as she kindly gave another tissue towards me when she saw I was struggled to wipe the stain with already dirtied tissue.

"I'm Yoo Hana. You can call me Hana.", I introduced myself as I politely gave her a small smile.

"Well, what should we do about the dress?", She asked as she stared at my stained dress, was feeling guilty at the sight.

I shook my head as I kindly replied, "Its okay. I dont mind it."

Sora also shook her head as she replied, "But I do mind. It was my fault. Um.. do you perhaps want to borrow my dress? I just bought it tho."

I looked at her in surprised.

"What? No no, its alright. Seriously.", I refused in a polite way as I let a chuckle, felt funny with her sudden suggestion.

"Nevermind. It was my fault and you can give me the dress back later. Can I have your phone number, Hana?", She laughed as she was asking for my number.

I awkwardly smiled as I thought that this was too sudden but oh well, its not like she will do any harm to me.

"Okay, thanks. Here.", I took out my phone and exchanged my phone number with hers.

She urged me to changed into the new dress that she bought which I couldnt really reject anymore. So, I agreed and borrowed her new dress for the day.

I came back with the stained dress in the shopping back that she gave to me as I was already in a new dress.

"You look beautiful.", Sora said while looked at me with a smile.

I smiled as I shyly replied, "Thank you."

"Oh, the train has arrived. Lets go!", She pulled my hand and we made it into the train safely.

We sat next to each other. We talked about various types of story as we got to get know each other more.

Sora was younger than me and I am not surprise.

She then talked about her past which surprised me cuz she got so comfortable around me within minutes. I just stayed silent as I thought maybe she was an easy-going person.

She told me that she always loved this one boy even until now. He was her childhood friend. He was the same age as me.

She left him when she was in her first year in high school. It was because she was too childish back then. She was going to transfered from her old school and she left him just because she thought she couldnt stand long distance love.

But after she left him, she regretted it. She loved him and will always love him.

"I see. So, where is him right now? Dont you miss him?", I asked her while looked at her, curious with her love-story ending.

"I dont know. I lost contact with him. Yes, I missed him and still missing him. I want to meet him again. But will I?", She turned her head to look at me as she gave me a sad smile.

She's really in love with him, I thought as a smile plastered on my face.

"If youre fate to be with him, then both of you will eventually meet again in future. Am I right?", I comforted her as I tried to give her my support.

She smiled back. She nodded her head, agreed with my words.

•°•°•

I stood nervously in front of Woohyun's ward. I stared at the three numbers on the door as I tried to calm my heart.

My hands were shaking really bad. As time were ticking, I became more nervous as my heart was beating even harder. Why should I feel nervous? I dont even know.

I nervously held the knob as I slided the door opened.

My eyes were wandering around the room, eyes were searching for Woohyun's figure.

A smile plastered on my face when I saw he was still asleep on the hospital's bed. He looked so peaceful while he asleep.

I walked towards him as I then silently took a chair and sat beside his bed. He slept without a noise.

He must be tired.

I fixed his bangs that fell messily on his forehead.

"I miss you, Woohyun..", I mumbled to myself as I stared at his flawless face.

My eyes were getting wet as I stared at his bruises and bandages. I quickly got up and went out from the room to bring some water for Woohyun when he wake up.

After I came back, I saw Woohyun wasnt there on his bed. He was missing.

I was so panicked. I ran out and searched for him all over the hospital. From the 1st floor till the 10th floor but he wasnt there or anywhere.

I went to ran up to the rooftoop. I clicked my tongue when I saw the elevator was broken so without hesitation, I immediately ran up using the stairs.

It was still okay when I climbed up but when I reached the 5th floor, my strength was getting weaker.

"I cant give up..", I muttered as I looked up between the staircases and saw thousands of stairs were waiting for me.

I sighed as I steadily stood up and continued to climbed the stairs. After a few minutes, I finally arrived at the rooftop.

I couldnt breath properly as I felt so tired after climbed the stairs. I lightly pushed the rooftop's door opened and I saw him. Right there, across me.

"Woohyun!", I shouted his name as I slowly walked towards him. Still couldnt breath properly.

I felt so glad that I found him.

I miss you, was what I wished I could shout loudly at him but I couldnt.

He turned his head as he spared me a glance.

"Oh, you're that girl from yesterday. What do you want?", He asked coldly as he gave me a tense expression and turned his head away, showed he was not fond of me.

My heart broke at his action but hid it with a fake smile as I stood beside him. I glanced at him as I saw he threw his attention towards what was in front of him instead of me.

I tried to stand beside him closely but he backed away from me and was about to walk away.

I sadly looked down as I tried to contained myself, wasnt going to show him that his action hurt me.

"You made me worried.", I mumbled as I slowly turned around and faced him.

I stared at his wide back as I wished to just gave him a hug right away but I couldnt. I'm not sure if I will ever could.

"Mind your own bussiness, stranger.", he said as he phrased the word stranger precisely. He didnt care about anything, he didnt care about my feeling. He didnt give a shit about it.

I just stayed silent. His cruel words made me speechless. I was afraid that if I did say something right now, I might cry. So, it was better to just shut my mouth close.

He tried to walk away again but I quickly stopped him as I gently took a hold on his firm arm.

He sent me a deadly glare.

"What do you want?!", He shouted, maybe was frustated with me.

"Y-You still cant remember me, Woohyun?", I carefully asked what has been in my mind since last night.

"I cant and I dont even know you! Let me go!", He smacked my hand away as he immediately turned around, wanted to disappear from the scene so bad. 

It was hurt but I just couldnt give up.

"Its me, Hana. Please remember me, Woohyun. I love you very much and so do you..", I tried to comfort him as I held his arm again, wasnt forcing any strength.

It was really ridiculous to me at how he could just forget everything about us after one night. It was impossible.

"What the hell are you trying to say?! I'm not your boyfriend! and I dont have any girlfriend like you!", He roughly pushed me away until my body lost it balance and my back hit the wall behind me, painfully.

I gritted my teeth as I felt my back ached but I ignored it and walked back towards him as I held his arm again.

"You know me! I'm your girlfriend, Hana! Yoo Hana! Please remember me. We went to a date together to see the fireworks! How can you not remember?!", I said in a loud voice, didnt realise that I was gripping tightly on his arm.

I bravely looked up at him.

He glared at me. He got really angry and frustated but I was more frustated than him right now. It was too painful when your own boyfriend didnt remember anything about you. None memories of you were there in his head. It disappeared just like that which made no sense to me.

"I dont! Stop this! I hate you! I hate you! Get away from me!", He smacked my hand away and pushed me away again. I was stumbled on my feet after he pushed me.

He huffed as he gave last glare and walked away. He slammed the rooftop's door hard, hinted that he was so mad.

"Woohyun!", I shouted his name but it was too late.

I bit my lips, felt too frustated and stressed with the situation I was in. I stared at the metal door that Woohyun just walked out through it as my eyes were tearing up. 

I couldnt hold it in anymore. The pain was too real that it hurt so much. It is my first time to feel like this. Woohyun never treat me this way before..

"Ah..", I grabbed my chest tightly as I closed my eyes, let myself to took in all the pains and buried it in the inside secretly.

I dont want to lose him.. I seriously dont..

I got up and brushed the dirt from my dress away. The new dress already got dirt on it because I was pushed away many times just now.

Hmm. I need to wash it until clean when I get back home. I opened the rooftop's door and used the stairs to went down.

•°•°•

"Hold it in, Hana. Its okay, youre okay..", I cheered up myself as I faked a smile to hid my truth feeling.

I slided Woohyun's ward door opened and I looked up as I saw he was sitting on his bed while read a book.

He was wearing his glasses. So cute..

I silently walked towards him as I took a seat on the chair that I took earlier. He didnt look up at me nor even he glance at me.

I just smiled bitterly as I looked at him.

"Reading?", I asked while glanced at the book in his hand. I looked back at his face as he look uncomfortable right now.

I knew I was asking a stupid question, but all I wanted was to hear his voice.

"Nope. I am cooking.", He said sarcastically as he seems annoyed with my question.

"So, you know how to joke around too?", I backfired at him while grinned.

He glared at me.

"Fine, I'm sorry.", I apologised as I put up my hands up, surrendered in a quick time.

"Pfft.", He suddenly let out a chuckle which surprised both of us, me and himself.

"Oh, you laughed.", I teased him as I smirked at him. He glared at me again as a reply.

"Shut up. When did I? Dont disturb me!", He went mad again as he turned away and continued his reading session.

"Okay okay. I'm so sorry.", I said and shut my mouth up back again.

I took a peek at him as he was still into his reading. I fiddled with my fingers as I slowly looked up and carefully asked, "Um, sorry to bother you again but.. why do you hate me so much, Woohyun? I mean, we just met according to your condition."

Eventhough I knew my question was a dangerous one and his answers would only hurt my feeling but I need to know the answer so that I could fix the problem.

He suddenly closed his book as he turned his head to look at me.

"Put your own self in my shoes. If you got an amnesia and then suddenly theres a boy confess to you saying that he is your boyfriend when you dont even know who he is, what do you feel? Dont you feel confuse? Dont your head feel heavy like you would pass out? Dont you feel sucks because you dont even have any memories left in your head?", He explained as his stares slowly fell and was now looking at me with gentle ones.

I nodded as I understood what he was trying to said. So, he also feel hurt like me and I'm the one who hurt him. I'm sorry, Woohyun. I just thought about my feeling but not yours..

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.", I looked down and stared at my shoes instead, felt suddenly embarrassed with my selfishness.

He let out a sigh when he heard me.

"But..", I stopped my words as I gathered my thoughts properly.

"But what?", He asked while furrowed his eyebrows towards me.

"But.. I really want you to remember me again. You need to know me and remember me well.", I said that while looked up at him, let our eyes locked with each other.

"Hana, dont you understand myㅡ"

"But! I will not force you again. Lets take this steps slowly. I will help you and you can just think of me as a friend or someone that willing to help you.", I said while nervously looked away when he kept staring at me.

"I'm not your girlfriend, if thats what you want. We can do that. But please, let me help you remember yourself, who are you and who am I to you.", I ended my words bitterly as I faked a smile to showed him that I was okay.

I wasnt okay. 

"Okay then. You are not my girlfriend and I will let you help me.", He replied while was still looking at me.

"Hmm. Okay.", I said and avoided his eyes as I turned my head away.

I wanted to cry as I couldnt believe that I wasnt Woohyun's girlfriend anymore. The fact alone hurt me.

He ended it, right there.

Woohyun then laid on his bed after

"You want to sleep again?", I asked as I just stared at his struggled to pull the blanket up so that it would cover his body

"Yup.", He nodded his head while was still struggling with the blanket.

I stood up and leaned over towards him which made him looked at me strangely. I ignored him as I pulled up the blanket and neatly wrapped it around his body.

I leaned back and said with a small smile, "I see. Have a nice dream. See you tomorrow."

He awkwardly nodded as he changed his position so that his back was on me.

I secretly sighed while looked at the boy who acted strange around me as I got up from my seat and walked away.

I gave Woohyun last glanced before slowly slided the room's door closed.

I walked along the corridor as I thought to myself.

Am I hoping too much? Will I be able to do this? Will I be able to make Woohyun remember me?

I was not sure if I could but what I am very sure is I will not give up.

That was what I promised Woohyun and I would keep my promise.

+to be continue