This will be about my chapter where I got all angsty. I have deleted it but it may still be up. Idk.

So I today I took a big step to get help. I went to the school concuarl and talked about what's been going on. So this going to be more of a post saying that I'm okay. So let's begin.

I want to make one thing very fucking clear with you. The thing that stuck with me was this ,"why are sudcial Kendall? *Cesorord* and I have more reason to be sucdcail than you do combined." This has stuck to meet and has been eating at me secnie this person has said this. I'm only going to say this once. No one needs a reason. Boom I fucking said what needed to be said. No body should get say that shit. Why? Because one it makes the person you said it to feel so much worse and two when any type of trama happens to a person even if they don't remember it well their body does. Our cells remember it. If that makes cense. And three if you have said this to someone don't ever say it again because everbodys expire is different. It's sounds like your trying one up some one by having a worse life. And could not know whats going in their priate life. So don't say that shit! Because if you do and I hear you say it I will slap some cense into you. Because it's not fucking appecable. Okay let's Begin!

1. Why I starved myself. I think assume it was because I was ashamed of my weight but that wasn't it. I kept on pushing my standers so high for myself that I couldn't reach them. So when I was trying to be okay mentally my body imgaine made me feel worse. I wasn't enough. You aren't enough. My brain thought that straving my self would make it better but it didn't all it did was make me feel cold,tried,and hungry. Made my friends concerned. But now I realized. If I want to be happy with myself I need to change the way I think about myself. Sure I can't be perfect but I can the best I can!

2.getting over marrow(I'm so sorry if your reading this)

I'm now over marrow because i was thinking wait if I was in a relationship like we had I wouldn't be happy. I would be hoping for the love form her but wouldn't resicve it. So I wouldn't be happy. I'm really glad that we stayed friends.

3. Being a push over

This one o know I have to work on I mean today I think I did good on that. I stood up for myself to day with our studdering. :D

4. the past.
I shouldn't fouse on the past and what I did wrong. I need to fouse now because I can't go back. Sure I've made mistake but I'm only human.

5. Adivce for you all

If you feel bad about your self to the point of hurting your self or sudice. Go to your school concuarl. One, it's free, two they will make you so much better. I just want to say something. Happy in a way is a desion. You can choose to keep on be on mersablie and not get the proper help or get the help and feel so much better. If you are having trouble finding it like of your parents don't care go online not to kids to the emergency number for this or your school concuarl. So thats really all I had to say byeeeeeeeeeeeee