It's a novel feeling, it can be likened to having your head hit, the object depending on the gravity of the failure, first there is pain, a flash of white across your eyes, your teeth clash together, the pain is so much that it momentarily blinds you, you can't actually feel it, so bad the next few moments are excruciating.

At that point you are basically delirious like someone with high fever, thinking of how and when it happened, you think of all your hard work and how it amounted to nothing. You look at the evidence of your failure over and over again like your eyes are deceiving you, like if you stare at it long enough the outcome will change.

But like having your head hit, the initial shock will wear off, your eyes will see clearly and your head will be free from the mist gathering it, you begin to actually feel the pain and then the tears come, the type of tears depending on the failure, but if it hits hard enough there is usually screaming, wailing or even worse silently rocking your body picturing several scenarios in your head of things you would or wouldn't have done to avoid it.

The stage lasts longer than the last, it feels like it would never be over, it will, the changes are slow and you wouldn't see the difference your self, in this stage you would probably fall into depression, the light in your eyes may dim.

But like every head wound, eventually it will reduce to a low throb, barely there failure also reduces, you will come out of depression albeit slowly, going back to your daily life, it's not quite easy when reminders if failure are everywhere, this stage lasts less than the last, the head only hurts when touched. It's quite sensitive now.

And so the pain from the failure only comes back suddenly the thought passes through your mind and you're in pain again, pt someone asks you about the thing you have failed at and it seems you are back to square one, but it only feels like that, the pain on touch reduces on the head wound, it gets a little easier to answer the question, after a while you might even be able to fake a smile while answering it.

The head wounds heal even more and with time it leaves a scar and even the scar will fade with time, the failure is forgotten in a way, but it is still on your mind, like the head scar the memory will always come back when you look at the mirror.

Failure to a point is like that, after two years or three it seems some how forgotten, even the people who ask questions get tired of it, it becomes old news, it hardly feels as bad as it did when you were still crying, even though you have healed there is still pain you still grimace at that scar, you can't avoid the mirror, even if you have a thousand successes covering your failure, it is always remembered but it's like a painting that another was painted over, it will take time and determination but eventually you'll be able to smile remembering that experience, maybe a real one, one that will reach your eyes.

Failure can come in various ways, it can be failing an exam, failing to keep a job, failing in a marriage, it can be failing to get pregnant, it can be failing to carry full term, it can be failing to deliver a living baby, it can be failing to save a life, it can be failing to deliver justice, it can be failing to be complete, it comes in various ways.

It cannot always be compared to a head wound, sometimes failure can be continuous happening over and over again, but it will surely go away it will take time and you will get hurt, but it will go away there will always be a success and more and there us always light at the end of every tunnel.

Love

Blessing