" Jo ruke tw kohe giraan thay hum,
Jo chale tw jaan se guzar gye "
~Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Maahrit, stop...
I love you maahrit pls kuch bewaqoofi mat krna, utro niche...
Ye mera kuch nhi bigaar skta

Background music main Zulaym ki awaaz mere kaanon se tkra rhi thi lekin samaat tk pohnchne main bebus thi.

Aesa lgrha tha main jo kuch kr rhi hu, khud se nahi kr rhi hun.Aesa lgrha tha ye sb mjhse wohi krwa rha hay, aur main ek katputli ki trah uske isharon ke mutabiq chal rhi thi.

Lekin main kmzor nahi thi, uss ek bar ke suicide attempt ne mjhe bohat kuch sikha dya tha ke meri zindagi ki qeemat agar ehmiyat rkhti hay tw wo sirf mere khud ke liye hay.

' Theek hay , nahi deti main apni jaan. Magar main ye video ussi surat main bnaugi jb tum Zulaym ko chor doge aur wo yahan mere paas hoga. '

Main fatehana andaz se muskurate huay uss anjaan bnde se baat kr rhi thi, aur uske bolne ke tasurat se aesa lgrha tha ke wo meri is tajweez pr khush hay.

' Tw phir manzoor hay, lekin ek baat kaan khol kr sun lo agar tum ne hoshyari ki tw Jannat ki mayyat pr bethne ke liye tyyar rehna, aur Zulaym tw wese bali ka bkra ban hi chuka hay tw usse dubara se qaboo main krna mere liye bilkul mushkil nahi hoga, Dus minute hain tumhare paas. Zulaym wahan dus minute se pehle pohnch jayega aur wese hi tumhari video mjhe dus minute se 30 sec pehle miljani chahye '

Main ne khamoshi se uska aitebar jeet lya tha aur main janti thi ke agla qadam mera kya hone wala tha.

Call end ho chuki thi aur main apne mansube p4 amal shuru kr chuki thi.

Theek 9:30 minute ke baad main usse vidoe bhej chuki thi aur mere drwaze pr Zulaym hazir ho chuka tha.

Maine muskura kr drwaza khola aur wo shiksta haal aur shiksta dil ke sath mjhe apne dono hatho se sametne laga. Ye frelings mere liye bohat ajeeb thin kiunle Zulaym se main ne kbhi aesa kuch expect nahi kya tha uar iski sirf ek pagal deewane wali possessive image dekhi thi aur aj ye sincere tha?

Wo kafi der tk mjhe apne ap se lagaye huay merr kndhe pr sar rkh kr ro rha tha aur main hakka bakka usse ghoor rhi thi, ye mjhe rula kr khud bhi kya issi trah rota hay?

" Maahrit... M.. Maahrit k.. Kya. Tum ne.. Kya tum ne... ??? "

Maine uski peeth ko sehlaya aur khamoshi se usse apna phone pkra dya. Aur wo video play ki jo maine usse send ki thi.

Maine teh ba teh 25 jorre kpre pehn rkhe thay aur jiski wjah se mjhe strip krne main blkl diqat nahi hui, sunne main ajeeb tw lgrha hoga... Magr maine apne sath sath shayad Zulaym ki bhi hifazat ki thi, aur mjhe yaqeen tha ke usse ye ehsas zroor hua hoga...

Video ke end hone pr wo mjhe be-yaqeeni se ghoor rha tha, aesa lgrha tha usse mjh pr yaqeen na araha ho.

Kafi der ke baad uski khamoshi ka baandh toota aur uss ne sirf ek jumla kehna munasib smjha,

" Main tumhe taalaq deta hun "

Mjhe apne kaano pr yaqeen nhi araha tha, kya waqae, maine wo suna divorce?

' Lekin kiun Zulaym... Mjhe tw ap se... Uss contract ke bawjood, apke rawayye ke bawjood ap se mohabbat hone lgi thi lekin... '

Tarrakh!

Aur ek zordar thappar mere gaalon pr raseed kya gya tha, mjhe iss jumle ki aur iss hrkat ki tawaqa soch main bhi nahi thi halanke main Zulaym se thappar kha kr aadi hochuki thi.

" Tumhe kya lagta hay Maahrit main beaqal hoon? Kya mjhe nazar nahi ata? Wo yahi tw chahta tha jo tum ne kya... "

' M.. Magar maine usse apne jism ka tw deedar nahi kraya... Rahi baat uske samne kpron ko utarne ki tw ap ye jante hain ke maine 25 jore pehne huay thay tw ye blkl namumkin tha ke wo mjhe hawas ki nazar se dekha '

Maine bohat jiddat se apni awaaz ko mutawasit rkha hua tha, ansoo kisi bhi waqt gir parrne ko tyyar thay.

" Haan, aur isiliye maine fesla kya hay ke main khud tumhe talaq duga contract hone se pehle  "

" Tum ek bazaari aurat ho aur tumhari karkirdgi se saf zahir hota hay ke tumhara bus chalta tw apne jism ki bhi numaish kr hi chuki hoti "

Alfaz garam tanbe ki trah mere quwwate samaat ko cheer rhe thay aur wo ek baar phir mere daman ko napak qarar de chuka tha. Mohabbat meri tazleel kr rrhi thi, tw ye mohabbat kesi?

' Kya tumhe iss baat ka zara sa bhi ehsas nahi hay ke maine tumhari jaan bachai hay, aur tumhari izzat ki paasdari krte huay apne aap ko parde main rkha ??  Wo sab jo fikr aur mere liye chahat aur tarap jo tum zahir krte rhe ho kya sb kuch dhong tha? '

" Tum isse izzat ki paasdari keh rhi ho? Ye konsa parda hay ke tum apni numayish yun sare aam kr rhi ho.Na mehram ke samne har aaza ko chupane ka hukm hay, aur tm tw baqaida uske samne fashion show chla rhi thi. "

' Tum se baat krne ka faida hi nahi koi, main hi pagal hu jo tumhare dikhawe ke pyar main phisal gyi mjhe suucide kr hi lena chahye tha... Atleast tmhare sath guzari jane wali azaab ki zindagi se tw mjhe kam hi azaab milta! '

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Din guzrte ja rhe thay aur halaat mazeed khrab, raat ko der der se aana ab uska mamool bn gya tha. Talaq dene ke fesle ke bawjood main usse dil se chorne ke liye blkl tyar nahi tha. Aur ab tw wo khud bhi yehi chahti thi ke jald se jald baqi ke chaar mahinay guzar jayen aur wo sukun se apni zindagi mere bghair guzar ske. Jbke mjhe iss soch se hi khauf ata tha aur mathay pr paseena anae lgjata tha. Kya main sahi tha? Ya phir main ghalat tha? Agar main ghalat tha tw meri mohabbat bhi ghlat thi aur agar main sahi hota tw meri mohabbat bhi sahi hoti, lekin ye sb kuch blkl bar'aks tha.

' Zulaym... Tum mjhe chor kiun nahi dete... '

Meri samaaton se maahrit ki awaz tkrayi thi, raat ke 2 bjrhe thay aur wo iss waqt dakhil hui thi. Aunty kaafi der se uski raah takte takte thak gyi thi, unki udaas ankhon main ansoo chalak rhe thay. Magar Maahrit ko dekhte hi unka chehra khushi se khil utha aur wo khamosh labon ke sath muskurane lagin.

Maahrit ke qadam lrkhra rhe thay, wo aj phir sharab pee kr ayi thi. Main usse kese smjhaun ke wo jis raah pr chalne lagi hay bohat khtrnak hay, shayad wo apna eeman kho chuki thi. Jahan haya nahi rehti wahan eeman bhi piche piche chala ata hay.

Main ne aunty ko dekha wo jese kuch kehna chah rhi thin, itne dino unke sath reh kr mjhe akhir unse unsiat si hogyi thi. Maine unse bdtmeezi ki thi lekin uske bawjud, aunty ne hmesha mjhe ek bete ki trah pyar se dekha tha.

Unki ankhon ke ishaare main smjhne laga tha, wo meri traf apni umeeden brha chuki thin.

" Maahrit? Tum ne aj phir sharab pee hay? Islam hmain har nashe wali cheez se rokta hay, tw tum ye tw janti hi hogi bohat basic baat hay "

Maine ek sada se andaz main apni baat smjhani chahi, magar usse kahan smjh ana tha wo nashe main buri trah doobi hui thi. Aur iss halat main usse dekhte huay mera dil qabu se bahar ho rha tha, jo haq wo mjhe apne hosh main nahi de pai thi mjhe yaqeen sa hone laga ke iss lamhe ki kefiat se mehzooz ho kr main zroor usse paa sakunga.

" Maahrit, kmre main chalo... Main tumhari help krdeta hun "

Maine apna bazoo uski kamar pr rkha aur ek hath ke sahare se uski gardan ko thamte huay apne kmre ki janib chlne laga. Aunty mjhe dekh kr muskura rhi thi aur main ne ishara se sar ko jhukaa kr unhe jawab dya ke wo befikar rhen main unki beti ka khyal rkh skta hun.

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Maahrit

" Zu..Zu..Zulaym... Ye kya kr rhe hain aap? "

Zulaym ne usske seene se dupatta utar phenka aur apne chehre ko uske shano pr tatolne laga..

Maahrit ki ankhon mai khauf saaf dikhai de rha tha, halanke wo aesi lrki na thi ke apne samne aane wali kisi bhi museebat main ghbrahat ka shikar ho kr thak jaye... Lekin yahan baat uske husband ki thi. Wo husband jo isse beinteha mohabbat krta tha magar iske liye ye shaadi sirf ek contract thi.

I want you to go and wear this , and I won't listen a no! Go!

'' Zulaym? Pls meri baat sunye... Ap jante hain na hmari shadi sirf ek contract thi, tw phr ap kiun seri..  "

Haan main ho rha hun serious kiunke main tumse betahasha mohabbat krta hun aur tum andhi hogyi ho apni kamyabi ke piche, apne dreams ke piche, tumhare liye sab kuch srf tum tum aur tum se shuru ho kr tum pr hi khtm hota hay. Yahan tak ke tum ne apni maa ki akhri khuwahish poori nahi ki!

Ab main tumhe dikhata hu ke khuwahish ko poora na hone dene se ktna dard hota hay!!

Ye keh kr zulaym ne aik zordaar jhatke se maahrit ko bed pr dhakela aur khud apne shirt ke buttons kholne laga.Uspr hewaniat taari thi ya phir wo uske mohabbat ka ubalta hua janoon tha,ye wo khud bhi nahi pehchan pa rha tha.Kiunke junoon ke agay koi bhi jazbaat zyada der tak apne qadam jamaye tikk nahi pate, wo jahariat ka roop dhaar lete hain ya phir wo junoon pagalpan aur nafrat main badal jata hay.

Uske hath maahrit ke jism se istrah bandhe huay thay ke wo usse chah kr bhi nahi hatta pa rha tha. Aur phir dekhte hi dekhte maahrit ne usse aik anjani quwwat ke saath door dhakela jispr wo bed se niche gira, magar kuch hi lamho mai khud ko smnbhalta hua maahrit ke mazeed qareeb aane laga. Iss bar uski ankhon main taish tha,nafrat thi aur ghussa tha... Mohabbat ka tw door door tk naam o nishaan nahi tha. Uss ne zbrdsti apne honton ko maahrit ke honto se mila dya aur usse deewana'waar choomne laga. Insb se ghbrayi maahrit iss baat se blkl anjaan thi ke aane wale waqton main yahi sab usko bohat dukh pohnchane wala hay... Itna ke shayad wo kbhi bhi himmat se apne apko jorrne ki koshish na kr payegi...

" Tumhe kya laga tha main tum se mohabbat krta hun?. Hahahaha, nahi. Main tum se mohabbat nahi betahasha nafrat karta hun Maahrit! Nafrat krta hun tumse ! "

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Kaash, Kaash... Ke Maahrit aaj nashe main na lauti hoti tw mjhse ye gunah nahi hota.