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    This was not supposed to happen, not this early. Mir Sidharth shah is man who has always calculated risks before taking decisions. He was known for his sharp mind that, makes decisions while thinking about future and how's he gonna deal with it if things went in different directions. There were only two things that came as unexpected twist in his life for those he wasn't ready. Betrayal of waseem and his wife asking him for divorce that also while crying loudly like that. He wasn't ready for this. He can never be ready for that

   He might have married her with intention of bedding her but he knew he would fall for her. He knew there would be moment in his life where it would be hard to breath if she leaves him. He knew this along and he was ready for falling deeply in love with her and make it impossible for himself to ever get out of it. Moment he fall in love with her was when she looks at him through her lashes while making dua and smiled. That smile, that smile made him realise how much blessed he was. She precious to him. Very much more than his own life

     Her reaction was justified but her wanting to stay away from him is not. He gets here she's coming from but he also doesn't care. She needs time? he will give her as much as she needs but with only intentions of her coming back to him. She can takes months and years. Just come back to him. One part of him knows she will because the way she loves him is close to devotion. She's one who cut ties if she hears someone badmouthing him. She's one who doesn't even need reason to agree on his childish demands. But one part of him also knows. She won't because she loves her father more than him and she will gladly leave her father's killer behind and let him suffer

   Right now he made his way back downstairs. His furious steps making everyone know who's coming back with rage on his mind. He's gonna kill that motherfucker, Azhar's body went cold because he knows it's either Mir shah will get badly beaten up or Mir shah will kill him today because they all heard crying and shouting of Shehnaaz 

"Sidharth please." Mother of Azhar stood in front of her son as shield from him before he could even get near him. She's his deceased mother's younger sister. His khala "Mujhe pata hai jo isne kiya hai wo galat hai per Azhar mera eklota beta hai please kuch mat karo isko mein tumhare pair padti hoon." She pleads with teary eyes dropping into his feet. Ama-jaan watched woman with pity. Even she was helpless here because this was bigger matter and it has effected Sidharth directly. He moved back. He does not like these things especially when elders begs for something

    He looked at woman coldly but didn't utter a word. What about damage her son has done to his life? What if his wife never speak to him again and what if she started despising him? But is this all really Azhar's fault?. Azhar just spoke about truth he has kept hidden from his wife. Truth she deserves to know about her father and his death and he was never going to tell her

"Agar apke bete ne mujhe apni shakal kabhi dekhai I won't care anymore." He said coldly. He shouldn't have brought Shehnaaz here. He should have came alone without her, attend wedding and have gone back

    He turn to look at his wife who has came downstairs with her bags packed and changed clothes. His heart dropped, he find it hard to speak or even open his mouth especially when she's not looking at him and has teary eyes. He wants his Shehnaaz back now because he can't bear her this treatment with him

"Mujhe apne ghar jana hai abhi." She stated in her soft and low voice because of her crying a lot, following with sniff as she wipes her tears. Apne ghar? Isn't his home hers as well

"Shehnaa-"

"Mujhe kuch nahi suna bas mujhe mere ghar chor kar aye abhi isi waqt!" She rise her voice at him. Why can't he just do as she says for once. Why does he always has to do what he wants even if that hurt other people. Everyone noticed how Sidharth didn't even got slightly angry at her tone instead his expressions calmed

"Akele kese rahogi meri jaan." He find himself to be helpless here. Why she's being so stubborn like this when she can't even stay alone in room for longer than hour

"I will rather live being scared than live under same roof as you." Harsh? No it went right through his heart. Here everyone knows how bad has things gotten because she is Shehnaaz who's world resolves mostly around her Mir-sahab and her saying this speaks on how big matter is

"Itni nafrat?"

"Apne abhi dekhi nahi hai meri nafrat." Is she can love harder than she can hate harder also. He nodded his head getting closer her. She met his eyes while staying at her face

"Dekhuga bhi nahi itna yaqeen hai." He sounded so sure and she hates it "Take care of yourself and give me call anytime you want I'll be there for you like always." He kissed her forehead and moved back to signal Zain for driving her back Karachi before he made his way towards exit with heavy heart. Hope she calls him soon and she hopes that she loses all feelings for him

"Wait mein bhi chalti hoon tumhare sath." Maham says

"Nah-"

"Please don't let bhai's doing ruin our friendship Shehnaaz. We had no idea of all this trust me and you know how much I love you." Maham says with tears in her eyes

"Mujhe akele rehna hai please." She doesn't want to be bothered

"We won't bother you I swear." Amna says they can't leave her alone. Zain and Aryaan didn't utter a word out of their mouth because they know, she knows that they had idea about this all and they also knows Shehnaaz won't speak to them as well. They have broken het trust as well

    When Shehnaaz gets back to her apartment, first thing she did was get inside her father's room and get those money and Sidharth's pictures out of there, part of her is very much disappointed in her father and angry for betraying Mir-sahab, someone who trusted blindly on him and shared his every single secret with him. Mir-sahab only ever use to laugh with him how can you betray him baba? She questions with tear in her eyes. He has always been there for them. In hard and good times Mir-sahab was there than why did her father do that? She really can't believe it didn't he loved him dearly. Was it for some money?

     She looked at his picture that was kept in her father's drawer and tears spill down her cheeks. She must be worst daughter because she misses him. It's only been some hours and she misses him badly. She also hate him. Love him. Her feelings are messed up so is her mind. He loves her, she gulped down thinking about his love confession he loves her but what's point now Mir-sahab? You already ruin what beautiful relationship we had she thought looking at his photo

    Even if her father betrayed him then, killing him is not right thing to do. Taking her father away from her is not right thing to do. He has no right over someone's life. She pulled herself and take those money boxes in balcony and burn them all. She's not gonna keep money that has been earned by getting Mir-sahab shot or almost killed. She can't forget him nor she can forgive him. Now she has to live with his memories more than she has lived by his side

1 week

    Sidharth rolled sleeves of his white button up shirt up with golden ink pen between his fingers. His eyes read through paper in his other hand that was election related. He glanced at Mr gabool's son who has cocky smirk on his lips as he hums some song disturbing elder man with both legs over table this annoying bastard

"Sign without reading we won't con you shah especially when you are running money on my party like water for elections." He smiled dashingly. He was enjoying it because he has gotten to know day  ago that shah's marriage is in trouble and nowadays Mir shah gets annoyed by even slightest things which thrills junior gabool because shah has teased him a lot now it's his turn

"It's not your party yet." Sidharth replied with eyes on papers

"Soon it will be."

"The day you takeover I'll stop investing." Young gabool sits up with frown "I don't trust your shitty way of running party hume leaders chahiye gunde nahi." He added lifting eyes to look at young man who scoffed looking away to cruse underneath until something came to his mind

"I met your wife book festival mein." He told elder man who was about to sign but stopped and glare at him

"So?"

"So I was just wondering that why she wrote her name like Shehnaaz waseem instead of Shehnaaz Sidharth shah?" He pretended to think with smirk on his lips. Sidharth's grip on pen tighten as his eyes harden

"Am I smelling divorce?"

"You will smell failure of your party in coming elections is you didn't keep your mouth shut or I won't mind shoving these papers in your mouth." Man threatened younger male who chuckled loudly throwing his head back

"Shove them after signing them ." This Motherfucker. Sidharth sign those paper without reading further and stood up with them in hands. He throws papers in younger man's face who laughs which only angers him "Thanks shah bhabhi ko salam dena mera-Oh you don't talk anymore my bad mein khud kehduga." Gabool winked and didn't wait before walking out of study or else this man will surely grabs him and start beating him today. It's different level of thrill to get on shah nerves for him. It's pure fun

    Sidharth throws pen he had furiously before sitting in sofa with face in hands. He missed her badly and just want to hug her and play with her hair. It's so hard to stay away when she's the one whom he's craving all the time

    She sends him Khula papers yesterday which he tore apart and send her back those papers. If she thinks she can get divorce from him than she's being delusional because he will die than divorce her. He loves her so much and it's starting to hurt him badly and physically. It's just been a week and he can't stand distance between them. It's tearing him apart and making him feel empty. He doesn't even know why he's waiting for her call when he knows she won't call him

"Because of you she isn't even looking at us." Zain dashes inside his study to rant out because she probably has ignored him again. She wasn't even speaking a word to both him and Aryaan. Is treating them like they doesn't exists. Aryaan gets in after with sad expressions he misses his best friend but he understands her reaction

   Sidharth looked at them calmly they have no idea what he's going through. His hands itch to caress her hair and tease her. His mind is always occupied with her thoughts and he's literally dying here

"Kuch karen bhai." Aryaan requested

"Mere hath mein hota toh tum dono ki baith ke shakal nahi dekh raha hota." He answered drily. He has one way but he can't use it

"By the her divorce lawyer is cute." Zain said. Sidharth had this urge to take off his shoe and beat him with it

"Seriously." Aryaan was disgusted

"What just saying!" Zain got defensive

"What about aiman?" Aryaan questioned

"Nah vibe match nahi hui yaar bandi pyaari thi wese." He shakes his head with disappointment of their vibes not matching"Kuch zyda hi Islamabadi thi." He reasoned out and Aryaan looked at him in disbelief. Because she was from Islamabad!

2 weeks

     She looked at third divorce documents in her hands, he has send back torn apart and tears fill her eyes. Why are you doing this to me Mir-sahab. She thought with sob leaving her mouth as she keeps them over dinning table and slides into chair with her head down on table as she cries. This is so hard for her and he's making it harder. Why can't he just let her go. Even though thought breaks her apart but it's what's right because she can never live with killer of her father happily. She can't do that

"He's paying judge in delaying for trail I have tried enough Shehnaaz." Her lawyer spoke

"Koi aur tareeka hai" She lifts her head and spoke in soft voice. Powerless people have no worth in this world and she's aware of Mir-sahab's power. She use to admire it until it's block in her way. She hates how much power he has over people

"Wo Mir shah hai." Means no other way "Tumhe divorce kyun chahiye mind if I ask. He's such a great man." He is.

"I can't tell reason but yes he is great man." She agrees with sniff. There was no doubt he has good heart who has always helped people who needed and might be only person who has entered politics for his people not for power and corruption. He wants to help his people and develop his village with help of government

"Esa bhi lagta hai he loves you a lot." Lawyer says because she has seen his reaction every time to divorce papers from his wife when she takes them over to him. He looks more hurt and heartbroken by papers

"Ap chai piyoge?" Shehnaaz ignored question and stands up from dining table while offering small smile to woman who nodded understanding she doesn't wanna talk about it

   How manny things are there which she wants to tell him. Like he would ask kuch naya hua hai? And she will talk non-stopping. He use to reminds her namaz parhi? And she use to be like oh bhool gayi with small giggle. Medicine? Shawl? Like he is not her husband but mother. And at end she's always questioning why? Why he even married when he killed her father. What was he thinking? She wants to ask what was he actually thinking! She leaned against kitchen's counter and stared at teapot over stove blankly Does he even love her? Or that was lie to keep her with him

1 month

     She has stopped sending him divorce papers, because she has given up against his power. She will just pretend she's not his wife anymore. She was making her way out of her department with hand over face because of direct sunlight. She hasn't told her friends about her separation because she's not ready yet not until he's done with his election. She will wait until then. They do ask her if something is wrong because of her facial expressions and she just say she's missing her father which was also true. She misses him

    She lifts her head and her eyes caught a sight. Some people putting on huge political poster over billboard of Mir Sidharth shah. She stared and her lips parted at how dreamy and handsome he looks while smiling at camera dressed in black. She hates to admit but she misses him and trust her she hates herself for that

   If anyone looks at her right now will know how much she loves him because her eyes held that affection, when she's looking at his poster with so much love in her eyes, forgetting everything else for moment. Even herself. Only him in her mind and reflecting in her eyes

"Girl you look you have been bewitched." She has. She tore eyes away forcefully from his posters and magic disappears as she looks at her friend hania who teased

"Chalo." Shehnaaz says pulling her away not daring to look again there because her heart was beating rapidly and her hands were shaking like she has seen him in real. It was just poster

2 months

    Sidharth was relieved that his wife has stopped demanding for divorce but he knows she's not giving up this easy. She's tough one, he has gotten to know this much in this one month. Even these busy election campaigns weren't enough to able to keep his mind off her. He has been extremely worst in these days. He want his Shehnaaz back no he needs his Shehnaaz back. It wasn't want but need. He can't sleep or think or even likes to eat anymore. His all hobbies are just useless for him

"You lost somewhere?" Feminine voice reaches his ear. He looks at woman with no expressions as his mind was busy thinking about his wife. He knows she's flirting with him by that look on her face. He hates it. She's that gabool girl he was supposed to marry according to others. He never intended to marry her and always gave clear no. It's not his fault that believed in his ama-jaan's words and made girl wait for him for 5 years. She's like 6 years younger than him

"Missing my wife." He answered and watched her expressions changed with satisfaction but she quickly recovered

"Ah I remember Shehnaaz such a lovely girl how's she shah?" Mr gabool asked lifting his eyes from good plate as they were at official party dinner

"They don't talk dad." His son interrupted wiping his mouth to hide that smirk. Sidharth badly wants to kill this guy

"Ask your asshole son to mind his business or else that day isn't far when I'm gonna beat his ass and punch some sense in him." Sidharth stands up furiously and left room not before knocking off one of their expensive vase which is Mr gabool favourite. He heard elder man shout saying mene kya kiya! Well your stupid son did who was laughing like asshole he is

   He pulled out cigarette from inner pocket and light it up after putting it between his lips. He had quite smoking but recently he started again because of stress and anxiety

"Mir shah."

    He knows to whom this voice belongs very well but he wasn't sure why he's here. He pulled cigarettes off between his lips and turn to meet eyes with man's dark eyes. Well build and broad shoulders. Clad in black Armani suit and silver Rolex watch around his wrist. Darkest hair styled back. Charming smirk on his lips. Calling this man satan will be insult to Satan himself. He's leader from opposition party. Man who rules Punjab and none has been able to won Punjab elections against his party. And very person who has been trying to kill him for entering politics because he fears Mir shah can be someone who wins against him someday

"Bajwa."

"How's your wife doing?" He asked with knowing smile of how he blackmailed her father with information of her killing someone out of defence to leak address of him back than. He used his most trusted man to backstab him and bajwa knows that jald killed Mir shah

"How's yours doing?" Sidharth asked back as he also knows about him as much as he does

"Truce." Bajwa chuckled shoving hands in his pocket and looked at him "Mr gabool called me to talk about our situation I think we should end this enemy now don't you think same." He shared pointing between them. Sidharth scoffed

"You know what I think? You should fuck yourself and get out of my face." They really think he's gonna make up with man who is actually reason his wife is away from him. Never, here he was thinking of way to kill this man for satisfaction

"Always a witty man."

"Are you scared bajwa?" Sidharth smirked noticing how he didn't get angry when he cussed him. It's either he's taking anger management classes or he's now scared of outcome of his stupidity of being his enemy

"I'm here to let go of this enemy even tho I know what this has cost you." Bajwa says with seriousness "My wife is expecting and..." He paused and take deep breath "I'm scared of dying. Leaving them behind." He admits this Motherfucker. Sidharth gets vision of his wife being pregnant and this same feeling coming in

"I love my wife so much and it's daughter. I wanna be there for my daughter " Bajwa says with gentleness in his eyes

"I started it you be bigger person and end it shah please." He forward his hand. Sidharth stared at it. Losing waseem. Bullet in his chest. Separation from his wife. Should he just let this man go this easily who has been reason of these manny problems in his life. For his daughter's sake only.

"Only if you name your daughter Shehnaaz." New beginning. With that he forwarded his hand and shook with his. Bajwa pulled him for hug because he didn't expect him to agree at all. Nobody ends war like this especially in which they have lost a lot. It needs big heart

"You have no idea what you have done for me. I'll name her whatever you want." Bajwa says and didn't realise he was crying

"Okay okay." Sidharth pushed man with disgusted look

"Show some emotions shah man's crying!" Not again he glare at mr gabool's son who has been nothing but pain in ass. "So it's sorted than? And you call my ideas shitty." He smirked

"They are." Sidharth answered on which junior gabool scoffed

4 months

     Not being able to see him for four months. Has made Shehnaaz very sad. She doesn't wanna see him yes but there is always this but. She misses his voice very much. The way he calls her meri jaan. Janam. Jaan and many more nicknames. She will really go insane like this for sure. Today was the day of election, she didn't go to vote. It was either him or none so, she chose non. He won his polling station. Oblivious, because he has manny more followers already. She's happy for him

     She wasn't looking at screen of television but using her phone but amna was watching her brother's winning repeat news, way before she came to sit in living room. She can't take it anymore. His name being taken continuously. It just makes her miss him more. She immediately stands up from sofa and rushed towards her room, closing for on behind. Amna looks at her it's been like this. She doesn't even talk to them much like before it's like she's changed person and it hurts them. She does blames her brother for all this

     When amna opened front gate because of bell ringing. She didn't expect her brother to be there and that also looking drunk. So it's updated version of drunk calls. Here person comes instead of calls. She wants to tell him to leave but he will definitely kill her if she did

"Is she here?" He asked

"It's 11 bhai apko kya lagta hai?" Amna kept hands on her hips

"In her room?"

    He lay his black coat over sofa. He was in white button up shirt and black vest over. His sleeves were rolled up. His hair were still perfectly styled like before in news and watch resting on his wrist. Handsome drunker not messy one. Glad, amna nodded at her brother's question

"Are you sure wanna go in such a state-"

"Shut up and step aside." He runs hand through his hair. He has thought million times before coming here now no amna can change his mind