46 ~ Loving Expressions
Edited.
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Jackson sensed the awkward tension between both you and Jimin and thought it was due to you having a fake relationship with Jackson a few months ago.
He immediately felt guilty, watching how you were acting around each other.
As much as Jackson had a crush on you, he would never try to break up you and Jimin, he knew that he could never make you as happy as Jimin could.
So he was going to try and make it right.
"By the way, the whole 'relationship' thing me and y/n had was completely fake I promise" he began, making sure to gesture when he said relationship.
Your eyes shot up to Jackson's figure and Jimin's did the same.
Jimin failed to hear the part where it was fake.
"What?" Jimin said daringly. "You went out with him?" Jimin asked hoarsely.
He couldn't believe this, you were mad at him for having a fake relationship when you had a real one behind his back anyways.
Or so he thought.
Jackson realized that he fucked up and just as you were about to speak, he interrupted.
"No, no, we didn't go out together. It was fake" Jackson explained.
Jimin looked confused at him.
"Why did you have a fake relationship" he asked.
"Because my parents came to visit me with my brothers family and I didn't want them to realize I don't have a partner and have them try and search for one for me" he explained, "trust me, it took y/n a lot of time to agree and when she did, she made sure to tell your mother and she even made me sign a contract saying that I couldn't touch her unless she allowed me to" he said, worried that he may have just messed up your relationship.
"And did you?" He asked you.
You shook your head.
"You can ask your mother if you don't believe us" Jackson said.
Jimin nodded, processing the information he just got, "there is no need"
You looked up at the mess of an argument that just happened,
"Goodnight Jackson" you said, signaling for him to return home.
"I'm sorry y/n"
You gave him a weak smile. "It had to come out eventually" you said with a raspy voice.
Jackson then left, leaving you alone, yet again, with Jimin.
You continued unlocking your door and you then walked inside, sighing as you see your apartment.
You were hoping when you left to get Jimin that you would be over the moon when you came back with him.
But that wasn't the case.
Jimin dropped the bags in the hallway and began glancing around the room.
You made your way over to the couch and he followed behind you, wearily sitting down on the opposite side to you.
"Are you sure she is okay with you being here?" you said trying to hold back your emotions showing.
Jimin looked at you confused, "my mother?" He asked.
You rolled your eyes, "Alex" you said. "Is she okay with you being here"
He then felt a tug on his heart.
You weren't even looking at him, you were looking at your fidgeting with your fingers.
"I don't see why she would care, I have nothing to do with her" he answered and you scoffed.
"Muff-" he cut himself off, remembering you don't want him to call you that anymore. He cleared his throat and started again. "Y/n she means nothing to me"
"Then why were you doing stuff with her?"
"Because of my aunt! Y/n she wanted me to have sex with her!" He spoke, trying to explain the situation to you.
You glanced at him momentarily, "did you... you know?" You asked, feeling awkward about the subject.
"What? Have sex with her?" He asked and you nodded. "Of course not, the most we did was kiss each other" he said hoping that would make the situation better.
But it didn't.
"Only kissed" you repeated, "is that all?" You asked sarcastically.
You stood up from the couch and went over to a nearby cupboard where you kept extra blankets.
He was following behind you as you walked, "I know that's still bad but-"
"No buts Jimin"
You grabbed a few blankets and put them on the couch. "You can sleep here" you said avoiding eye contact with him. "Sweet dreams, I guess" you said leaving the room an angry yet tired expression on your face.
"Please just hear me out-" he said reaching for your hand as you left.
"Did you sleep in the same bed as her?" You asked suddenly.
"Y/n-"
"Answer the question" you cut him off sternly.
He sighed.
He could already see the tears build in your eyes, because you already knew the answer.
"Technically, yes, But-"
"I already said no buts Jimin" you reminded.
And that's the last thing you said. After that you left him standing alone as you went into your room to go to sleep.
As if that would happen.
You were both fully aware that neither of you would sleep that night.
And unfortunately, you were both right.
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You got out of bed early, considering you weren't sleeping anyways and got ready for school.
You were sighing every few minutes and getting frustrated with the stupidest of things like when your shoe laces weren't the same length.
Talk about problems, huh.
You quietly opened the door, hoping not to wake Jimin, but you found him sitting on the couch wide awake.
You both glanced at one another momentarily before snapping back to reality and going to get breakfast.
Jimin got up from sitting on the couch and followed you to the kitchen. He leaned against the door frame as he watched you get a quick breakfast.
"Where are you going?" He asked.
"School" you answered in short.
"I can drive you if you'd like" he suggested.
"In what car?" You asked.
Jimin was suddenly hit with the realization that he didn't have anything.
No cars,
No clothes,
No money.
"Right" he said lost in thought.
You slung your bag over you shoulder while munching on your toast.
"Even if you did have a car, it's probably best if you stayed here. It's better to not risk your dad finding you" you said, walking past him towards the door. "And I still have your clothes here from...eh-from before so feel free to use them" you said awkwardly.
He nodded, "thank you"
You heard a knock at the door and made your way over to open it. Jackson was there smiling when you opened the door.
"Do you want to walk together?" He asked eagerly.
"Good morning to you too" you smiled weakly.
"Good morning loser" he joked, "oh hi Jimin" he said spotting the jealous figure in your apartment. Jimin nodded his head at him. "We should probably go or else we will be late"
"You're right, bye Jimin" you said, a lack of emotions evident in your voice.
"Bye" he said longingly.
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It was becoming harder and harder to focus in school. Your brain was buzzing, thinking about everything hat has happened over the past few days.
You met Jungkook and Taehyung at lunch as you did everyday and they were anxious to know how you were doing, but they were still aware that it was a sensitive topic.
"So he slept on the couch?" Taehyung asked following the conversation.
"Well yeah, I just couldn't be in the same bed as him knowing he had been in the same one as Alex for the past few months" you sighed rubbing your eyes.
"That's understandable" Jungkook said and you smiled weakly.
You weren't in the mood to continue this conversation, so you excused yourself and went to the bathroom.
You could feel yourself begin to get upset talking about what has happened out loud. It's not like you weren't already thinking what you said but once you heard your own voice say it, it made you feel a hell of a lot worse.
You found the nearest bathroom, which happened to be empty, and went into one of the stalls. Your emotions got the best of you and the tears fell from your eyes and you began to get lightheaded.
The amount of tears you have shed over the past three days is an unhealthy amount.
You heard the door to the bathroom open and footsteps walk around the room.
"Y/n?" You heard Alex's voice speak.
You mentally cursed yourself.
This is exactly what I needed right now, you thought as you rolled your eyes.
You stayed silent hoping she would give up and leave, but you should've known better.
"Y/n I know your in there and I'm not leaving until you come out. So if I were you, I would come out now to save both you and I time" she said and you sighed.
You wiped away the last of your tears and unlocked the stall door.
"Smart choice" she smiled.
"You shouldn't be out in public, Incase someone sees you" you reminded her.
"Well I had to talk to you y/n"
"Well what do you want?"
"For you to hear Jimin out. Y/n, he doesn't love me, he loves you. It's always been you" she explains.
"But how do I know that. You can't just tell me that and expect me to believe you" you spoke.
"Here's my proof" she said, pulling out a bunch of papers out of her bag and handing them to you. "He drew these constantly. He said that it was his way of seeing you" she smiled.
You took the papers and looked through them finding various sketches that he drew. Your fingers ghosted over the intricate details that he managed to draw.
You didn't know he had such a talent.
He really did a good job. The sketches weren't coloured, they were pencil only.
It looked better that way.
"He drew these?" You asked.
She nodded and smiled seeing your reaction.
"I promise you y/n, he doesn't love me and I don't love him. We only did the couple stuff when Mrs. Choi was around to trick her into thinking we were a couple. Otherwise she would have forced us to go further. If you catch my meaning" she explained and you nodded.
"I've never seen someone so in love like Jimin is with you and I can promise you that he is hurting just as much as you. He knows that he disappointed you and it's killing him. So for the love of all things, y/n, forgive him. He didn't mean to hurt you" she put a hand on your arm.
You felt like the worst person in the world.
How could you be so horrible as to not even hear Jimin out about what he was trying to tell you.
You held the sketches very tightly, making sure not to crumple them at the same time.
"I need to see him, I need to apologize. Why am I such an idiot" you scolded yourself.
"You're not an idiot. Your in love with a very handsome guy and you just got upset at the sight of him with someone else. Even though it was fake" she chuckled.
You nodded and smiled.
You genuinely smiled.
You've barley been able to smile lately and whenever you did, it was weak.
You went to the door about to pull it open it when you hear Alex talk one last time.
"And by the way" she began after getting your attention. "I'm sorry for how awfully I used to treat you. I was the definition of a bully and I physically abused you, and I will never forgive myself for that. And don't worry, Jimin already made sure to make me feel bad about it. I learned my lesson and I hope we can be friends some day, if you'll forgive me" she apologized.
"Thanks for the apology and I understand you felt that I was stealing Jimin away from you. But I would be lying if I said I didn't want to do the same when I saw you again. So all is forgiven" you reassured.
"Thank you. Now go and find Jimin" she laughed.
You didn't hesitate to run, well more like sprint, out of the school and back to your apartment.
Your muscles felt like they were wearing away to nothing. Your lungs felt like they were burning. Your fingers were feeling stiff from how you held the sketches.
But it would be worth it.
You arrived outside your door and tried to calm down your breathing before you went inside.
You slowly unlocked the door and stepped quietly inside. You couldn't see Jimin but you sure could hear him.
"Shit! Why aren't they rising properly" he complained and you bit your lip holding back your smile.
You dropped your bag softly at the door, along with your coat and the sketches.
You made your way over to the kitchen and saw the blonde guy in a bundle of sadness. He sat at the table, his head lying on his arms on the table. You could see he was getting worked up.
"Need some help?" You asked causing him to whip his head around to you from surprise.
He rushed over to the oven, trying to hide what he made which was cooling on top of the oven.
"You're home early I see" he said, awkwardly standing to try and not give away your surprise.
"Yeah, I am" you smiled.
And he saw the smile.
It was that smile.
The one that he remembered oh so well, and cherished dearly when he got to see it.
"H-how are you? How was school?" He asked nervously, seeing you didn't have a mad expression on your face.
It was more of a loving expression.
"Great, school was great" you said.
"That's good to hear" he smiled.
There was an awkward silence and you looked at him sadly. The thoughts of what he did over the past few months floated around your head. You were feeling your heart sink as you thought of how you treated him when he didn't do anything.
Sure, he may have kissed Alex, but that was to stop himself from being unfaithful to you if he slept with her.
Your tears began to fill in your eyes and Jimin couldn't help put feel so much pain from the sight.
He wasn't sure why you were smiling a few moments ago and now you were crying, but he just wanted to hold you and make all your worries go away.
"Y/n?" He said, stepping closer to you.
"What are you making" you asked and he smiled and moved out of the way so you could see what he made.
You saw the baked goods, sitting on a wire tray. Some had risen elegantly and some were more deflated, hence why he was stressed when you first entered your home.
"Muffin" you whispered.
"Yeah, I made muffins" he smiled shyly.
"No, not that" you sniffled. "Muffin. Please call me muffin" you pleaded.
His eyes sparkled with love when you said that.
"But I thought-"
"I said no buts Jimin. Now for the love all things call me muffin and just kiss me" You demanded as he was nearing towards you.
He had never felt his heart race as fast.
"Your wish is my command, muffin" he smiled and with that he attached his lips to yours gently kissing you until you started to become eager.
The kiss then began to grow very heated.
His arms were around your waist and yours were tugging at his soft blonde hair.
And if it wasn't for the humanly need to breath, you would've continued, but unfortunately that wasn't the case.
He attached his forehead to yours and you released your hands from his hair and settled them around his neck.
"Oh god I missed that" you said, his smile brighter then ever.
"Me too Muffin, me too" he repeated before smoothly kissing you again, smiling as he did so.
TBC
A/N:
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