'Some sorrow lies in my heart
Making my eyes watery too
Are we mistaken?
It's the only thing I wanna ask you'

ananyajaiswalAJ

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"You don't call that often." Your boyfriend said over the phone, his voice excited a little bit, but small and careful. "I'm... kinda busy. I've developed a circle of friends" You bit your lip. "That's great" He softly said before you cut him off. "But I wanted this, I wanted to call you" You quickly said, your voice engaged with something he couldn't well decipher.

"Is it something important?" He softly asked, quietness falling next from the other end. "No. Yeah, actually" You corrected before sniffling your nose which was now cold and red. "I wanted to... talk" you simply said, walking further on the moist, almost wet green grass of the park. It was late night now, you were out of your shared dorm and the street light was shining on you as you walked. You kicked a stone, the silence between you and your partner peaceful and calm for him, yet stressful for you.

"Tell me" He sighed and you were taken aback. "Tell you what?" "What you're wanting to tell me. Don't try to hide, it's obvious" He said again and your eyes shut close as your lips pursed.

"Taehyung, I..." your voice broke, tears welling up in your eyes. "Taehyung we've been away from each other for so long..." you said, asking rather than stating. Never had you felt so insecure about something in your eight-year relationship with this man on the other side of the line. "And... I think it's the distance, or maybe... it's just me" you softly whispered on the phone.

"Taehyung, I... I think I'm drifting away" You suddenly let it out, thinking that it will help you lift a weight from your shoulders. If only. After saying that, and hearing solid nothingness from the other side, it was rather as if a double weight was now on you. You still weren't satisfied. Forget satisfaction, you were even more burdened. Why couldn't you love two people at the same time?

"Say it again" He choked out. "Taehyung,... I think... I've drifted away to someone else. I'm telling you this like an idiot because you've always been my best friend. I think I've fallen for someone else. He doesn't know probably. But I can't keep cheating on you in my mind. I just can't" You now burst into tears, covering your face with your jacket sleeve.

"Do you love him?" He asked the question with an emotionless voice. "Yeah... no.... I don't know" You crocked out. "But..." He voiced out and you anticipated anger. His valid anger. " But... what if he hurts you?" His voice being the one to crack this time, along with breaking your voice. Why was he so sweet? Why was he so concerned? "Didn't I hurt you enough? Why are you still so good to me?" You asked. "Why don't you hate me, Tae?" He chuckled. He freaking chuckled.

"Do you mean just because you broke up with me, I'd stop loving you? I mean, that's stupid" He laughed again. He broke you even more. No wait, more like he was shattering you to pieces. Him hiding his emotions was the worst. People hurt him and he always hid his emotions, and let it all out in front of you. But today, it was all different. Today, you were the one to hurt him, and he had no one to vent it out to. He was lonely. You were such a villain.

"I know, I'm stubborn. I'm so sorry for still loving you and bothering you with my feelings. But I don't lie to you, and my heart can't lie to you either." He said, voice completely normal, scaring you. "Taehyung, don't make me feel like this," You said, weeping, even more, ugly tears covering your whole face, leaving your ears red. "I said I'm sorry for my feelings" You heard a voice, now closer than it was earlier on the phone. Your eyes widened and you disconnected the call, turning around immediately.

There he stood, right in front of you, a small sad smile on his face. In these two years, he had gotten even more beautiful, more handsome than ever. As soon as you saw him, your eyebrows raised as your tears thickened and you quickly jumped on him, hugging him as tightly as possible. Your beanie fell down in the process, and you didn't give a damn. You were just clinging on him for life. But he did not hug you back. He just patted your back with one hand, the other in his coat pocket. It broke you even more. And suddenly you realized if you're feeling so broke, on what stage the man you were hugging must be on. You had been a bitch to him a few seconds ago. A bitch who had said a thing so harsh that even she herself wont be able to digest.

"Was this a surprise?" You asked, your voice muffled. "It was supposed to be" his deep voice rang in your ears. "Hey... stop crying, or you'll be too cute to manage" he joked, but sadness evident in his voice. "Look up" He said and you shook your head in his neck, not wanting to face him. "Why?" He asked and you shook your head stronger this time.

"It's okay, I'll be fine" He said, knowing himself how much he was lying. "I'll probably just be like a creepy stalker of you the rest of your life, no matter what" He said again and you puffed out a chuckle in the form of cries. "Hey, look up" He softly rubbed circles on your back from one hand while his other stayed in his pocket.

You finally parted a bit, your body still pressed to him but your face now aligning with his from the side. "After two years" You breathed and he nodded. "After two years" He smiled softly. "I... You... Can you kiss me?" You asked, not knowing why you said it. You just wanted to record his face in your mind, record his taste forever. You never wanted to let this moment of epiphany go away. "Please?" You asked, voice breaking.

He looked deep in your eyes, smiled as softly and calmly as he could. You looked at him with empty and questionable eyes, and he simply shook his head. "I'm not the one you want anymore, Y/N." He whispered, your body weakening at his words and almost falling down.

You looked at him with helpless eyes, looking down next. He kept looking at you, following your eyes. You saw his hand in his pocket for such a long time, wanting to have his warmth. You put your hand in his pocket, trying to find his fingers in the coat. But instead, you felt a small object interfering your process.

Your eyes widened, and you looked up, your hands still stumbling. He simply kept looking at you, following your every move. Your shivering hand came out, with a ring in your fingers. "Taehyung?" You mumbled, and he smiled again, sighing after. "Taehyung?" You said again and he just shook his head, hiding his tears.

"I'm so sorry" you choked out and he rubbed your side. "I said it, I'll be fine" He replied again, his voice showing all the disappointment it could, but no hint of anger. He took the ring from your hand who was still frozen in shock. He looked at it, swiped his head to the left for a second, and then threw it far away. "NO!" you exclaimed, running towards the direction.

"Forget it"He mumbled, held you even tighter, his hand which was patting you tightened around your waist. He kissed your cheek softly, almost as if touching it with his lips. And then, he left with you standing there in the cold, your head hung low, weeping and sobbing rivers. He simply left. He left you today. And you?

Well you deserved it, cause you left him forever.

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A/N
Guess that's how breakups happen.
In the mood for sadness.
And sleep.
I'm forever sleepy

ananyajaiswalAJ finally, your turn!

Be yourself
-DiamondMaknae ❤