I don't know how to approach Lucas about Nate. We've just got back together so my plan was to reconnect, to take it easy on the heavy problems, and just enjoy ourselves. But Nate is always going to come first. Well, him and the little one I'm carrying. I won't allow our adult issues mess with that kid's head.

If you had told me about a year ago this would be my life right now, I'd have laughed so hard at your face. For someone who had everything planned down to perfection, it would seriously be impossible to have expected my life to be so out of control.

However, as I open the door of their apartment and see Lucas in the kitchen cooking us dinner while Nate is holding my hand, I can tell you nothing in this world could be better than this.

"Honey, we are home!" I shout, and hear Lucas chuckle.

"Hey, did you guys have fun?" He comes my way and kisses the top of my head, his hand tenderly touching my lower belly.

"Look, dad, Alexia got me a skateboard kit." Nate pulls it from the bag and they both sit on the floor to check it.

"Cool! Have you thanked her?" Lucas asks.

"Yes." Nate looks at me and I smile.

On the way here, I asked him not to talk with his father about our conversation. Explaining to him, I'd talk to him first and then we'd have a family meeting tomorrow night. The kid got so excited at the idea of a family meeting that he promised not to tell anything. I just hope he can keep his promise.

"Grandma's street is better for you to ride it. Can you wait until the weekend to test it?" Lucas asks him.

"But it's too far away!" Nates whines.

"Come on, it will be worth it! I think I'll even buy myself one so we can learn how to ride them together."

"Really?" He jumps on his dad.

"Well, if you don't break any of my bones now." Lucas stands up and throws him on his shoulder, making him giggle. "But now, let's shower. Dinner is almost ready."

*****

After dinner, I went to my place to shower and get some clothes for work tomorrow. I'm back to Lucas's now, and it's all silent except for the TV in the living room. He's changed into a pair of grey sweats and is lying shirtless on the sofa. It's just when I get closer that I see he is sleeping, though.

Taking a moment to look at him, I say a silent prayer we can face and overcome every problem life throws our way. It's not just about us now, so we'll need to work on many things in our relationship in order not to mess with these kids' lives.

I kind of sit by his side, considering he's taking up most of the couch, and touch my lips to his. He immediately finds my waist and pulls me to him, making me giggle.

"I'm back," I whisper, kissing his neck.

"You took forever. I fell asleep." He rearranges our bodies so I'm lying on top of him.

"I took a little more than an hour." I chuckle.

"See? Too long." He runs his fingers through my hair and pulls me into a kiss.

His hands go back to my waist, and soon he is all I can feel. We explore each other's mouth and soon our kisses become more urgent, deeper. His scent invades my nose and I moan when I feel him pressing himself to me.

"I miss you." He bites my shoulder and pulls the strings of my top down.

"We really need to talk," I say, not making a move to stop him.

"I know." He takes off my top and I shiver, waiting for his touch. He just teases me, though, and I moan, frustrated.

"Touch me." I grip his hair, biting his lower lip.

"So bossy." I hear the smile in his voice.

"Are you complaining?" I whisper his words from earlier today.

"Never," he murmurs, touching his lips to my collarbone.

"Lucas, please!" I beg.

"Not here." He kisses me once again.

"Okay," I say, standing up and pulling him with me.

We soon make our way to the bedroom and the look he gives me when he locks the door makes me want him even more. His eyes touch my whole body as if he doesn't know what to do with me; where to start.

We're facing each other, so I decide to be bold and make the first move. I pull my shorts and panties down in one move, and quickly I'm naked in front of him. I watch his eyes widen and him take a deep breath.

God, he is so handsome.

"How much have you missed me?" I ask him.

"You..." He walks to me and holds my butt, pulling me up to him in a way I have no option but to wrap my legs around his waist.

"What?" I grip his hair.

"You have no idea what you do to me, do you?" He walks me to the bed so my back is touching the mattress.

"Is that so?" I keep my legs around him.

"Mhmm..." I feel him taking off his sweatpants, then dropping to his knees to take off my clothes.

Once I'm completely bared in front of him, he nudges one of my legs wider and tosses the other over his shoulder.

Lowering his head to my cleft, he dives in for a long stroke, linking from one end to the other. The moment he reaches my clit, I arch off the bed, loving how he sucks it into his mouth.

"God, Lucas..." I moan and he groans.

"You taste so fucking good." He slips two fingers inside me, making my hips buckle.

"Ah... Shit... God..." I grab his head as I feel my entire body trembling in the most delicious way.

"Beautiful." He kisses my lower belly before nuzzling his way up to my mouth.

When our lips touch, I feel his body aligning with mine and him pushing himself inside me.

"Fuck," he breathes over my neck, and when he's all in, I wrap my legs around his hips.

"Yes..." I moan as he starts slowly but quickly moves on to fast and hard thrusts.

"Fuck, I'm missed you so fucking much." He circles one arm around my waist, causing his cock to go even deeper and my muscles to tighten around him.

"Me too..." I bite his shoulder.

"Fuck.' His body shudders as he groans. "I'm going to lose it if you keep doing this."

"Are you complaining?" I murmur over his lips, loving to see he's losing control.

"Hell no." He spreads my legs wider, pumping in and out of me so perfectly, I feel another orgasm coming.

"Don't stop." I grip his ass as he moves in a circular motion.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck..." He murmurs over my lips, and soon we're both letting go.

******

I fell asleep after rounds of makeup sex, but now as much as my eyes feel heavy and my body is warm from Lucas's embrace, I really need to pee. An easy task if it wasn't for the heavy body pressed on my back.

"I need to pee." I try to stand up, but he doesn't move. "Lucas," I tickle his side, making him groan.

"You wore me out." He turns to the side and I get up.

"I think you're getting old." I give him a butt slap and he chuckles.

"You were not complaining a couple of hours ago," he murmurs, making me laugh.

I get back to bed when I'm done and press my body to his. He pulls me to him and I press my head to his chest, my legs wrapped tightly around him.

"We have a family meeting today." I kiss his shoulder.

"We do?" He looks at me.

"Yeah. You, me, and Nate. He told me what he wants for his birthday, Lucas."

"Oh?" He searches my eyes.

"He heard you on the phone. He thinks you and I broke up because of his mother." I say and his eyes go wide.

"What the-?" He starts, but I interrupt him.

"He said you won't explain things to him... He said... He said he wants me to be his mom, Lucas. Because all the other kids have a mom and that if I'm here, why can't I be his mom, you know?" I feel my throat close with emotion.

"Fuck!" He closes his eyes and for a moment I think he won't say anything. But then he turns his body to me and holds my face, looking deeply into my eyes.

"Alexia, I love you so much. I think I've fucked up with you in so many ways that I can't ask more from you. I know I still have a long way to go so I can deal with all this guilt and pain I still carry inside... but I can't ask -"

"I don't want to replace her," I interrupt him, "I don't want him to forget her. But, Lucas, I love him. I love that kid so much that I don't ever want him to feel the pain of facing the world without the love only a mom can give a child." I press my forehead to his, and my heart breaks when I feel his face is wet. I've never seen him cry like this before, so I need to take a moment to control my emotion before I go on.

"I love you and him and this baby I'm carrying. This is what I want to give him tomorrow at our family meeting. I want him to know that no matter what happens, we'll always be connected. I'm carrying his brother or sister, and I will always love him the same way."

"Jesus..." He cries harder and pulls me into a hug.

"I'm not asking you to marry me. I think I really couldn't handle anything else right now. I just want him to know he's my family now." I whisper, my face pressed to his neck.

"I love you! God, I love you so much. I want you in our lives forever. I'm so sorry for the way I treated you. So sorry... This... God... You loving him like this too... This means everything to me, Alexia." His lips find mine and there's so much reverence, so much hope in him I melt into his embrace.

"Thank you," he whispers, his nose touching mine.

"For what?" I smile.

"For giving us a family. "

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