"I love you too." You whispered. I wish things didn't have to be this way. Then all I remember is everything was black, people were shouting and crying. There was some screaming too, then I see white. Then suddenly I'm okay, I'm not dead?

I felt like this all was all a dream, Steve was there, he told me what to do, what's happened but I thought I was dead, apparently the rest of the world did too.

But since no one knows I'm really alive, I can go undercover and find the rest of Luther's contacts, I can help save some of the enhanced humans without anyone getting in the way. I can do some good for the world.

And I can go on the dirty missions and it won't look bad for the Avengers, it's perfect, except I can't see you, I can't do any of this if I don't have the love of my life around me, you think I'm dead I wonder how you're reacting, know I miss you as much as you miss me

I need to see you, but I'm not healthy enough yet, every time I move I ache and burn, I don't want you to see me like this anyways, I'm so weak and helpless, so once I'm better, I will come and find you.

But there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of you.

I promise I will come back, and I'll be healthy and things will be perfect, but there are a lot of reasons why I can't come back right now. Plus, you're probably still in denial, which would make you hate me and all I know, is that it's complicated, and I need time to think everything through.

I'm counting down the hours until I see you again, I won't ever stop loving you.

Sincerely,
The one you call hot stuff

Now I know you won't get this until after you know I'm alive, but it's been a month and a week since I "died", and I want you to know I'm sorry it has to be this way, and I miss you so much.