A/n: Starting out with a long ass chapter. I hate that I add lore to oneshots bc it makes me want to expand on it

ANYWAYS, the queen of piss is back. Everyone cheer. I actually loved writing this one lmao

And I kind of love Virgil, guys cannot lie ofc the first chapter is him.

The beach, quite honestly, was probably Virgil's least favorite place to go for a trip. He didn't like to be hot, sweaty, or uncomfortable. Unless, of course he was in the comfort of his own bedroom indulging in some kind of kink with his boyfriend, Janus. However, the vote was five against one, so he didn't have much of a choice. He supposed he didn't mind terribly too much, he just wasn't looking forward to the inevitable sunburn that he would get on his pale skin.

He sat on the couch with his boyfriend the night before the trip, sighing as he sunk down into the cushions. His bags were all packed, finally. Sure, maybe he had exhausted himself by double checking that he had packed everything...a thousand times, but still. The mental exhaustion was almost worse, the way he was overthinking every little detail about the day to come.

"Long day?" Janus asked, chuckling lightly as he draped an arm around his boyfriend.

"Man, I don't even want to talk about it" Virgil groaned, leaning his head against Janus's shoulder and letting his eyes slip shut. Janus was warm and comforting, and he couldn't control the sigh that escaped his lips as he sunk further into him. It was peaceful, and succeeded in quieting his anxious mind.

His boyfriend merely chuckled, "oh, that bad?"

Virgil nodded, "I don't even think I saved any energy in me for sex."

Janus's eyes widened a little at how loudly he had said that, before he found himself smirking. Virgil really must have been tired, or else there was no way he'd announce that so casually in the living room, where there was the risk of one of their roommates hearing, "awe, really?" He asked, fake pouting.

Virgil shrugged, "I mean. I guess I could just lay there and let you do whatever you want. I could be your little sex doll" his tone was joking, though he knew how high Janus's sex drive was. He would fuck a shampoo bottle if he had to.

Janus's smile turned a little lopsided, "while that could be some kind of kink for other couples, it would probably just bring up bad memories for you, babe. I wouldn't be comfortable doing that to you unless see we planned every little detail out."

Virgil sighed, "oh, shit..." he yawned, his eyes beginning to flutter, "you're right...mmm, i'm so tired, just do it when 'm sleeping. You don't have to tell me. Or—we could do whatever you want tomorrow..."

"I'm not going to do it at all!" Janus laughed, "trust me, i'm not even horny right now!"

The only response Janus received from Virgil was quiet snores. His eyes had fallen shut, and he had completely slumped against Janus. The man shook his head fondly, and stood up to move Virgil to his bed.

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Virgil groaned as his light switch flickered on. He pulled his blanket over his face, but suddenly, Janus was at the foot of his bed, snatching the covers away and shaking his half-awake form, "Ohhh my god, no just five more minutes" he whined.

"You know damn well that if you don't wake up right now you're going to piss your pants" Janus teased, smirking lightly.

"Gimme my blankets back, you bitch! I'm sleepy!" Virgil groaned, though he couldn't deny that he did feel a tight pressure pulling at his bladder. He was surprised when Janus actually threw him back his blankets, but Virgil was even more stunned when Janus got into bed with him, straddling his hips. He placed one leg on either side of Virgil's body, and sat himself gently atop Virgil's bladder.

That certainly woke him up, and he gasped lightly. Now that he was fully awake, the desperation hit him so forcefully, that he leaked and a spurt of warmth bursted through his tip, "Janus—" he began, his voice breathy with panic.

"Shh..." his boyfriend breathed out, placing a finger over Virgil's lips as he slowly added some more weight, "you look so, so beautiful right now. Your bladder is nice and swollen, and it looks so, so tight" he mumbled, lifting Virgil's shirt and trailing a finger down Virgil's chest, brushing his hand lightly against his exposed bladder.

Virgil whimpered, before his eyes trailed over to the door. It was wide open, and he could hear their roommates moving around despite the early hour. They were close—so, so close, and Virgil loved that. He loved that he could hear Remus and Roman conversing just down the hallway, that he could hear Patton flipping pancakes and telling some kind of pun to Logan. He loved the rush, the anxiety that pooled in his chest at the thought of the humiliation he would feel if they caught him in such a vulnerable, desperate state. And Janus knew that too. He knew exactly what he was doing.

"You horny bastard" Virgil spat, "it's not fair to do this in the morning, morning pee is different from regular pee" he hissed lowly.

Janus chuckled darkly, "it's a special kind of torture, right?"

The emo blushed, looking away. He didn't want to get hard. He really, really had to go, and he didn't want to have to wait that long. It kinda hurt, too, but the pain was a twisted part of the pleasure.

"As..as hot as this is..." Virgil mumbled, "I really, really have to go, and if you tease me anymore I might not m-make it, and I really don't want to have to clean up right now, b-because everyone is home, and if we brought out wet sheets they'd know something was up, and—and you know I like the idea of humiliation, but I don't think i'm ready for it to actually happen in front of other people, and—"

"Woah, woah, baby" Janus told him, immediately lifting himself off of Virgil's bladder. The smaller man sighed in relief, grabbing at his crotch and shuddering as he felt another spurt of warmth leak into his boxers, "you're getting all worked up, hon. I was only teasing" he said seriously, "don't get so nervous, you know that I'll stop as soon as you ask. Now, c'mon, let's get you to the bathroom. I'm sorry that I made you so anxious, baby."

"It's okay" Virgil said quickly, flushing as he slowly lifted himself from the bed, cringing as gravity pulled his bladder, "that was like...so hot. But uh, I didn't go before bed yesterday. As you might remember, I was pretty tired last night."

Janus nodded, "okay, okay. You're definitely right there" truth be told, Janus was flustered. Anytime Virgil asked if they could stop, he was so, so shy and anxious about it, and that pulled at his heart and made his throat clamp up. It was so adorable, seeing Virgil so, so desperate, pushed so far beyond his limit, but having to ask them to stop, or to safe word.

He remembered that there were times earlier on in their relationship where he wouldn't safe-word, where he wouldn't show or tell Janus when he was uncomfortable—and that hurt both of them. However, after hearing what Virgil went through in his previous toxic relationship, Janus could hardly blame him for being scared.

They began to walk to the bathroom together, Virgil potty dancing the whole way there. When they arrived, they noticed that the door was closed, and the light was on, seeping through under the door's crack and into the hallway.

Virgil whined quietly, bouncing on his toes, "f-fuck, my underwear are soaked" he muttered, feeling beads of piss pearl at the tip of his cock and dribble into his underwear, which were slowly becoming more and more saturated. It wasn't showing outwardly yet on his pants, though he had already leaked an embarrassing amount.

Janus was quick to knock on the door, knowing that Virgil didn't like to rush the others. As hot as it was to watch his boyfriend fall apart in front of him, he knew that there was a time and place, and now wasn't the right time, or the right place. "hello?" Janus called.

"Yeah" a voice from the bathroom called back, disinterested. It was Roman. Of course.

"Hey, could you hurry up in there, please?" Janus questioned.

"Nah, you broke my makeup mirror last week" Roman called jokingly through the door, "besides, we're going to the beach, and you know that a Prince has got to slay! My hair is a royal mess right now."

Janus rolled his eyes, "I said I was sorry about mirror, jackass. Besides, you have like, twenty mirrors in your room!"

"Well now i'm really not getting out" Roman taunted.

"Oh, for Christ's sake, Roman, I don't have to piss, Virgil does—"

The click of the lock sounded almost immediately, and the door opened to reveal Roman, already stepping out of the way, "oh, why didn't you say so? I'm sorry, Virgil, go ahead."

"Okay, wow!" Janus gasped, going into the bathroom with Virgil, who was quick to get to the toilet, and squirm in front of it desperately as he waited for Janus to close the door, "i'll remember that."

Roman rolled his eyes, "it's not my fault he's a lil' shy smol bean." He smirked, knowing those words would get under Virgil's skin.

"You did not just unironically say smol bean—"

"Janus!" Virgil piped up, his voice a high squeak, "please close the door!"

"Oh!" Janus said quickly as Roman began to laugh, "right, right, sorry." He shook his head fondly. They'd all just recently became roommates in the large house, and the others had no idea how much of a sarcastic, brooding little shit Virgil was yet. Well—Remus did, but luckily, Virgil was beginning to crawl out of his shell, slowly. Janus was so proud to see him jokingly bickering with Roman just the other day.

As soon as the door shut, Virgil was quick to pull his sweatpants down, as well as the band of his boxers. He was already steadily wetting himself, unable to pull himself out before his stream began to burst forth. Piss began to spray from his dick before he even had the chance to aim properly, and now his sweat pants were visibly wet on the front. And though Janus really did love to watch his boyfriend wet in his clothes, watching him make it to the toilet, so desperate that he'd nearly had a full on accident—it was so beautiful. Once he noticed the large wet patch, he had a sizable hard-on.

"Do you know what I want today?" Janus mumbled hungrily as Virgil threw his head back and moaned, his piss spraying hard and heavily against the porcelain bowl of the toilet, relief causing his eyebrows to furrow and his mouth to hang open.

It took all Janus had in him to not devour him right then and there, to take him on the bathroom floor, to attack his neck with harsh, sloppy kisses.

"Mm..what?" Virgil asked as he continued to go.

"I want you to do a hold for me" Janus whispered, trying to make sure nobody outside of the bathroom heard.

Virgil raised a brow, "today...in public, at the beach?"

"Yes! Yesterday, on the couch you said that we could do whatever I wanted today, and I want to watch you like putty in my hands, falling apart, begging for me to let you go" Janus explained, coming up behind Virgil, hugging his arms around his waist, whispering in the crook of his neck, "imagine you...so desperate. Imagine you, so, so full, and all for me. Squirming so subtly because you don't want to let our friends onto your little situation, but wanting nothing more than to bury your hands between your legs, to fall on your knees and beg for permission, a pretty little sobbing mess in the sand."

Virgil blushed as his stream tampered off. He shook off and put himself away, "I said that when I was half-asleep!" He argued weakly, trying to ignore Janus's incredibly hot scenario.

"C'mon, babe. Don't you think it would be fun? To drink and drink and drink, while the others think you're just trying to stay hydrated? When you squirm, they think you're just anxious or hot?" He questioned, "to do this whole thing under their noses? Maybe one of them catch on? Maybe they get suspicious?"

Virgil bit his lip, "that does sound nice..." he pretended to debate in his head for a few seconds, watching as Janus bounced on his toes a little, before he rolled his eyes, "fine."

"Yes!" Janus shouted, "come on, let's get our bags!"

"Uh—Babe, I need to get changed" Virgil admitted, clearly humiliated.

Janus rolled his eyes fondly, "babe. I have a piss fetish, don't be embarrassed."

"I mean, I do too! But we weren't doing anything, so this is just—it's different!" Virgil whisper-yelled, his face flushed darkly. Beautifully.

"I was literally sitting on top of your bladder" Janus deadpanned, "if we were alone, I would have sat on top of you, slowly adding more and more of my weight, until you were begging me to get off. Until you were helplessly pissing the bed."

Virgil blushed, "T—that fantasy is hot."

"Depending on how long you can hold, it might come true tonight" Janus teased, "or maybe in a secluded area of the beach, laying in the sand..."

"Shut the fuck up before I get hard" Virgil snapped, completely and utterly flustered. Janus laughed at him.

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As Virgil cracked open his second water bottle just thirty minutes into the car ride to the beach, he couldn't help the excitement that bubbled up in his chest. He didn't even have to pee yet, but he couldn't wait to feel his bladder gradually fill, his friends none the wiser as he silently begged Janus for release. It would be oh so wonderful.

Janus tried his hardest not to watch with intent, as he didn't want to get too excited yet. He risked a few glances, though, and Virgil knew he had the upper hand, taking long, exaggerated sips from his water, and even though he didn't necessarily need to go yet, (which was surprising—two coffees, and energy drink, and a bottle of water should have his eyeballs floating in piss by now) he made a show of shifting in his seat. He could tell that Janus was getting hot and bothered. Virgil knew he'd get consequences for teasing, but he was feeling a little naughty today.

They didn't indulge in their piss kink terribly too often, though it was something Janus would often use to his advantage. Sometimes when Virgil needed to use the restroom, Janus would stall, or distract him. Make him sit on his lap and squirm, but not make him wet himself, and not take it too far. After a couple minutes of Virgil blushing and squirming, he'd let him go. Janus didn't want to destroy Virgil's bladder, and doing an all-day hold was extremely draining for Virgil. It was weird to be so hydrated when he normally would just live off of coffee until he realized he hadn't had water in a week. So, Janus just used Virgil's everyday basic need to use the restroom to his advantage.

"Janus, you are watching Virgil drink that water like a hawk" Remus noted.

Janus scoffed, trying to keep up his poker face while Virgil blushed and shoved the water bottle back in his mouth, "You know just as well as I do that he isn't going to be taking his shirt off. I'm worried about him getting overheated. I gotta make sure my baby is hydrating properly. You know just as well as I do that he hasn't had water in a couple days."

"Try a week" Remus snorted, "I seriously don't know how he can do it."

"My mouth gets super dry and all, but I really just don't care" Virgil shrugged, "i'll just down a monster and call it a day."

  "That's unhealthy" Logan and Patton chimed in at the same time, though they had much different tones. Patton's was worried and high pitched, Logan's was stern and flat.

"I know" Virgil murmured, finishing off his second water bottle. He got out his phone to text Janus.

TooStressed: Babe, i dont have to go yet but if i drink anymore I know i'm not gonna be able to hold for long, and I want to put on a show for you

Janus hummed, thinking out his response.

Snek: Okay. We'll fill you up slowly, over the course of a few hours. I don't want you to have to use the bathroom so early.

Janus would actually prefer it if Virgil would wet. Maybe they could get off somewhere alone, where Virgil could make a mess in the sand, and soak his swimming trunks, which, Janus had made sure were a bit more tight than Virgil usually would like to wear them. The band of the shorts was snug—not uncomfortably so, but as his bladder continued to fill, it would certainly become uncomfortable, a constant, pressing pressure that would remind him of how badly he needed to go.

It only took another half hour before they were on the beach. By then, Virgil's bladder was definitely tingling, but he didn't think it was worth mentioning yet. He didn't have to go all that bad. If anything, his stomach kind of just hurt from how much he had to drink so far.

"Since we're going for a walk along the beach instead of swimming for now, does anybody need to use the restroom at the entrance?" Logan asked as they got out of the car, "there won't be another one, and we'll be walking for quite a while."

Everyone nodded along, deciding to make use of the facilities while they had the chance, especially because of how long they'd been in the car. Janus and Virgil lagged behind the group a little bit so that Janus could whisper to his boyfriend, "You're going in with everyone. But you aren't allowed to go."

Virgil nodded, excitement coursing through him. Janus took his hand and lead him into the bathroom. They went into the big stall together, and Virgil watched and listened as Janus pulled out to go. Virgil squirmed a bit, shifting from foot to foot.

Janus laughed, before mumbling, so quietly, "gotta go already?"

Virgil blushed and nodded, "n-not that bad, but you certainly aren't helping." The sound of everyone else's pee streams, as well as the sound of the sinks running as his friends washed their hands wasn't a big help either.

When Janus finished up, he walked up to the sink to wash his hands very slowly, loving the way he could feel Virgil's anxious tension from behind him.

"Great, we should all be good now!" Patton chirped, causing Virgil to nearly jump out of his skin. He had been fixated on how the water rushed over Janus's hands and slipped between his fingers as he scrubbed the soap away, "let's get going!"

The sound of the waves of the beach crashing against on another made Virgil squirm a bit as all the liquid from earlier began to funnel into his bladder.

"Guys, it's really hot out today" Patton said, "i've got a bunch of waters, and I expect you all to drink them."

"Sure thing, dad" Roman said mockingly.

"Hey, Patton's my dad" Virgil joked.

"Um, your dad's ashes are literally on a shelf in your room" Remus said, before clapping a hand over his mouth, "oh, sorry."

Virgil snorted before the stunned silence could get awkward, "you know dead dad jokes are my favorite. And I also know your mouth works faster than your brain, don't sweat it."

"Don't worry, Virgil. I won't die on you" Patton told him seriously.

"I really appreciate that" Virgil laughed, intertwining his hand with Janus's as they began to walk along the beach. He hated the feeling of sand between his toes, it was cringy and uncomfortable, but it wouldn't be a deal breaker, he just had to take a few minutes to get used to it.

All of the walking really began to jostle his bladder after a while. It only took a couple of minutes before he started to get a little uncomfortable. Perfect—he was getting nice and full, just like he wanted. Janus noticed the subtle shift he did from foot to foot when they stopped walking so that Patton could get a seashell, because of course he noticed the smallest shuffle ever, the horny bastard.

He wanted to do some subtle teasing. Not anything too crazy—he didn't want to let anyone else in on their game, but he wanted to get Janus into his dom headspace. He wanted to be forced to beg for forgiveness, to be on his hands and knees, begging for Janus to let him go. He wanted to be denied, denied, denied, until he was a mess of tears on the floor, wetting himself despite Janus's demands to hold on.

So, yeah. He wanted to make Janus a little mad. Sure, his fantasies were a little intense, they'd never done something that rash before, but damn it, Virgil could test the waters. He cracked open the water bottle that Patton had lovingly provided, making eye contact with Janus as he took one long, drawn out sip. He bowed his knees in a little and squirmed from behind the group. Janus was watching intently.

"J-Jan" Virgil mumbled under his breath, barely audible, "baby..."

Janus moved closer towards his boyfriend, resting his hand on his hip, "ye-yeah?"

Virgil refrained from smirking as he felt Janus's half-hard on press against him. He squirmed, grinding into his boyfriend a little. Janus looked at him like he was the only thing in the world that mattered, "I—I...I.."

Janus leaned closer, biting his lip a little bit, his eyes filled with intent.

"I don't really have to pee that bad yet" Virgil admitted, going still with a shrug. He began to laugh out loud as Janus blushed and pushed him away.

Logan raised a brow at them, turning around when he heard Virgil begin to borderline cackle, "What's so funny?"

Roman placed a hand on Logan's shoulder, "don't ruin this, Emo nightmare hasn't laughed in like, ten years."

Virgil wiped a tear from his eye as he calmed down, "Roman, you asshole."

"Nonsense, he laughs with me every night. He's very giggly during sex" Janus smirked. Virgil blushed and shoved Janus in the chest.

"Awe, that's cute!" Patton cooed.

Virgil grumbled, "i'm sensitive. Why are we even talking about this?!"

"Is it a mood killer?" Remus questioned evilly.

Janus shrugged, trying not to smirk at how Virgil got more and more flustered as he spoke, "i'm not opposed to the soft, intimate giggly sex, but sometimes i'm just like, dude seriously? I'm about to tie you up and whip you, and you're laughing—"

"Janus!" Virgil hissed, smacking his shoulder, "shut up! How am I not supposed to laugh, it's so awkward, and—and—"

Patton looked completely horrified, interrupting the conversation, "you do what to my dark strange son?"

"Wow. I like, honestly thought that he was a Virgin" Roman said, shocked.

"Samesies" Logan agreed, "every night is quite excessive."

"Janus has a really high sex drive" Virgil shrugged.

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Somehow, by some miracle, Janus and Virgil had been separated from the group. It had been a couple of hours, and Patton and Roman wanted to stay in one spot looking for seashells, so Remus and Logan decided to stay behind and help them. Janus was debating whether or not to stay as well. He could tell by Virgil's more prominent squirming that he needed to pee really badly. It would be fun to force him to bend over and get on his hands and knees to search for seashells. To have that inward humiliation, of knowing that he had to pee so, so badly while everyone else was oblivious.

But, he also wanted to get some alone time with Virgil while he was desperate. They'd meet back up with everyone else eventually, and then he could watch Virgil squirm in the group. So, they walked hand in hand down the beach. Waves were coming up, crashing against their feet, then pulling back to retreat into the ocean for a few seconds of calm before the process repeated. It was torture for Virgil, and Janus knew that very well.

"Janus" Virgil mumbled quietly, squirming in place. They had stopped because Janus wanted them to go deeper into the water to feel the waves crash against their knees.

"Already?" Janus teased, looping a finger around the band of Virgil's swimming trunks that had tightened around his now swollen bladder. He pouted, "i've been enjoying this..." he stretched the band out farther, before letting go and watching it smack against Virgil's bladder. He gasped, swatting Janus's hands away as he bowed his knees together, far too humiliated to even think about holding with his hands in a public place.

"It's been several hours" Virgil said, bouncing on his toes as another wave crashed between his legs. Janus had made sure that they didn't go too deep, because he wanted Virgil's shorts to still be dry when he wet. He wasn't sure if he'd wet himself at the beach or if he'd be able to wait until he got home, but judging by how much Virgil was squirming, he had a feeling he'd be going very soon.

"I've seen you hold longer before, and with more water at that" Janus hummed, "you'll be fine. In fact..." he reached into his bag and pulled out a water bottle, "why don't you sip on this, hm? Get nice and full. I want you bursting, baby."

Virgil looked reluctant, but was clearly slipping into his more submissive head space. His lips parted, as if he was about to protest, but one stern look from Janus and he was opening the water bottle and taking small sips. He wasn't entirely sure if he even really wanted this. He loved to hold for Janus, and he loved to wet for Janus. To be pushed beyond his limit, to be degraded and forced to hold, and then loose control—it was always so, so perfect.

They hadn't been doing it for long—no, Virgil had discovered that Janus was into it semi-recently. He was reluctant to participate at first because it was such a taboo subject, but after some gentle coaxing, he agreed. He loved when Janus was especially harsh with him, or even punished him, and well—Janus just took care of him so, so well afterwards.

  It was actually how Virgil found out he had a thing for humiliation. Neither of them had expected it because of how anxious he could get. Eventually, after a close call at the mall with some friends, they discovered that he also enjoyed humiliation publicly. But they'd never actually done that before, which is why now, Virgil felt incredibly nervous. They hadn't gone into this with a strict plan, so he didn't know exactly what Janus wanted. He had hoped he'd just be in for a long day of holding and squirming, but now that Virgil was here, he realized he'd overdone it with the water, and that there was no way he'd be able to wait until they got home.

But Janus seemed really into this. So, Virgil was going to be good for him. He would be a good little slave to his master, and hold in his piss until he was given permission to go.

He got halfway through the water bottle before he spoke up shyly, "u-um, I don't think i'll be able to finish this..." he whispered.

Janus looked down with hungry eyes, "oh?"

Virgil whimpered, "it's bad, I—I didn't mean for it to get so bad so quickly, I should have limited my water intake. I don't think i'll make it home" he looked up to Janus with big, pleading eyes. He didn't know if he was asking for a solution or not. He didn't know what he wanted. His stomach was twisted in knots, but he was also so, so excited. His heart was hammering against his chest, but it wasn't necessarily bad anxiety. It was anticipation.

Janus hummed, "I agree. Maybe you shouldn't have been such a tease in the car with that water, you whore" he growled, "you made your bed, now i'm going to make damn sure that you lie in it."

Fuck, Virgil thought, that was hot.

"Yes, sir" Virgil muttered.

If they were by themselves, or maybe in the bedroom, even, Janus would have teased some more. He would have grabbed Virgil's pretty little face, looked him in the eye, and told him to speak clearly when he was talking to him. But he didn't want to push his boyfriend too far, especially in a public space. Virgil didn't do too well in public spaces, despite the fact that he'd been fantasizing about being humiliated publicly. He wasn't sure if Virgil just liked the idea, or if he actually wanted it to happen. He didn't want to push him too far, especially since the other was probably going to have second thoughts about this sooner or later.

This was there first time experimenting in public. It worked well because of the lack of bathrooms and crowded spots on the beach. He wanted to make sure that Virgil wanted this too, though, "color?" He muttered.

"Green" Virgil replied automatically.

Janus frowned, knowing that Virgil had trouble using safe-words or not giving Janus the go, "you sure?" He needed to double check, just because of how rushed his reply had been, and how anxious Virgil looked.

Virgil thought for a moment, "...I...um, green?" He replied cautiously, "I—I want this, but I mean—I'm not a red, but I am getting nervous. I would say yellow, but uh. You can't exactly slow down with this kinda thing, it's not sex. It's piss."

"Baby, either you want it or you don't—"

"I want it" Virgil interrupted hastily, before blushing, "I really, really do."

"Do you think it would make you feel better if I was sweeter with you instead of being more...dominant and stuff?" Janus questioned.

Virgil took a moment to think, before he nodded, "I—I think so. I'm already humiliated enough" he chuckled lightly.

Janus nodded, "okay, baby. I can coddle you" he smirked, "c'mon, let's get out of the water, you poor thing. You look so, so full. You're doing amazing for me. You've been so beautiful, just squirming all day."

Virgil blushed, allowing Janus to help him out of the water. It was so sexy when his boyfriend was harsh and mean, but it was also hot when he was soft and sweet. He loved how quickly Janus could switch up, how he could go from teasing and growling to so, so soft and lovely. Damn it, Virgil was a sensitive soul, and he wished that it was easier for him to let Janus be meaner, but he liked to play on the cautious side, especially in public.

"Thanks, Jan" Virgil mumbled as they continued to walk. Janus wrapped his arms around his boyfriend's shoulders and kissed the top of his head.

Once they met back up with the group, it was easier to slip into a more natural state of casual banter. Patton was the first to notice something off about Virgil, but he didn't comment, only sending worried glances his way.

Roman, however, wasn't as subtle. Actually, he wasn't subtle at all. He'd noticed that Virgil was lacking in the conversation, but that hadn't been such a big deal at first, since he usually was. But then he noticed that Virgil wasn't even paying attention. He was squirming, shifting from foot to foot as he stared down into the sand below him.

"Guys, I think Virgil needs some water" Roman said, causing the whole group to stop talking and shoot their heads back to him.

Virgil's face flushed and he began to stutter, "Wh—I—No—"

"You know what? I think he does too" Janus spoke up, trying to keep a smirk off of his face.

"I just noticed he's seemed kinda withdrawn and can't really keep still" Roman shrugged, "maybe the heat is getting to him."

"Yeah, he doesn't get out much" Janus said, completely agreeing with Roman.

"Maybe we should actually get in the water soon? Swimming might help" Logan said, "the water is relatively cool today."

"Yeah!" Patton exclaimed, "I wanna play in the water!"

"Me and Virgil actually might not get in the water" Janus said. Truth be told, he didn't mind if Virgil wet himself dry or not, that wasn't the reason he'd objected. He had objected for a reason much more embarrassing on Virgil's part.

"Oh? Why not?" Patton questioned.

"Oh! Right!" Remus exclaimed, "Yeah, Virgil kinda sorta. Can't swim."

"You what?!" Roman exclaimed, whipping his head over to the emo.

"How do you not know how to swim?" Patton questioned. He wasn't judging. He was just shocked.

Virgil just shrugged, gnawing on his thumb anxiously now that everyone's attention was on him, "I dunno, guess I just never got around to it...." He mumbled.

"You've never gone swimming before?" Logan questioned, his tone indicating that he highly doubted that.

"As a kid, my mom never really had the time to take me out swimming, and after my dad died, she definitely didn't have the money to pay for lessons. And growing up, I didn't really have any friends. So I...wasn't ever invited to any of the pool parties and...and stuff" he told them. He could practically hear Patton's heart shatter at that information, and cringed internally at how vulnerable he had just been, "no big deal though."

Roman scoffed, "that is...the saddest thing I have ever fucking heard."

"I would have been your friend!" Patton shouted, beginning to sob violently, "I can't believe those meanies never invited you!"

Virgil chuckled, "it's okay, Patton. I really wasn't ever...friendship material. It was probably draining trying to be my friend, a lot of people gave up after a few days."

"They weren't able to crack your shell like me and Jan" Remus said, "we put in the effort and we gained an amazing friend! Their loss for giving up so easily."

Virgil tried to stop the smile creeping up his lips, "shut up you mushy fuck."

Roman began to cackle at that, and Patton gasped at Virgil's language.

"Yeah, fuck head, what Virgil said" Janus smirked.

"Your boyfriend was the only thing keeping us from hanging out. I swear he never let you do anything" Remus groaned.

"You had a boyfriend before Janus?" Roman questioned, "oh my God the tea is hot, who'd you pull? Did he go to our school?"

Janus noticed Virgil's jaw clench. He hadn't ever liked talking about his past relationship, so he cut in, "yeah, the piece of shit went to our school" he grumbled, "but his ass didn't dare show his face after the break up."

"Who was it?" Roman questioned.

"Jason Winters" Virgil mumbled, "you were friends with him."

Roman's eyes widened, "holy shit? You dated Jason?" His mouth hung open in shock.

Logan cut in cautiously, "are you the person that he got expelled over? For...assault?"

"Among other things" Janus growled.

"Oh my god" Roman gasped, "what happened?!"

He wasn't too keen on opening up about his dramatic past at all, but especially not with a full bladder, "well, maybe we can talk about it later. It's beach day. No need to have such a downer conversation on a fun day. You guys can go in the water. I might go knee deep if i'm brave enough" he waved them off.

Everyone was clearly reluctant to leave the conversation at that, but they all agreed for Virgil's sake. Having that kind of conversation spring up so unexpectedly must've caught him way off guard.

"You okay?" Janus mumbled worriedly once they were yet again left alone, sitting together in the sand.

Virgil nodded, "i'll be fine. I'm...not over what he did to me. I still hold that trauma. But, i'm getting better. Better enough to talk about him."

Janus kissed Virgil's temple, "i'm proud of you."

He rested his head on Janus's shoulder and closed his eyes, taking in the warmth of the sun. It was relaxing, but he still had to force himself to tense so he didn't wet himself.

He didn't want to tell Janus how badly he had to go yet. He wanted to try and hold it for as long as possible. So he just sat there, watching his friends in the water, splashing around and screaming their heads off. They were probably a thirty minute walk away from the nearest bathroom, so realistically, he was beginning to wonder how the fuck they were going to do this. Was he actually meant to just piss himself publicly? On the beach?

He supposed it wasn't as bad as wetting himself at a store or the mall. They were on the beach, so they didn't really have to clean up. And surprisingly, there was barely anybody around to witness. He began to feel self-conscious. Like everybody knew something was up with him. He had been squirming all day, and didn't really believe that nobody had caught on. His friends all knew he had anxiety and got extremely shy, so that's probably a part of why nobody had asked about it aside from Roman.

"Virgil, i'm going to go grab the sunscreen from the basket over there. Your face is fucking burning right now" Janus said with worry lacing his voice. He kissed Virgil on the forehead, before getting up and going to the basket.

Virgil knew he overheated easily, but he was pretty sure his face was flushing because of how humiliated he was, "I'm fine, I j-just really, really have to pee" he whimpered. His thighs were tensed and quivering, and he groaned, leaning back dramatically and throwing his hands over his face. Janus was surprised to see that when Virgil's shirt rode up his stomach, just how big and bloated his bladder had gotten.

"Damn, baby" Janus whispered, getting back on the ground next to him, sitting on his knees, "have you leaked any?"

Virgil shook his head, "no. I'm t-trying to be good for you. But I just don't know how much longer I can."

"Babe, you've been so good for me all day. I don't mind if you—"

"Oh my fucking God!" He heard a scream from Logan and whipped his head around, "Remus, you idiot!"

It wasn't often that Logan yelled or swore, so when he heard that, he was properly stunned. His friends all got out of the water, Logan practically carrying Patton. They dumped themselves onto the beach next to Virgil, as Patton coughed and sputtered, "I'm fine, i'm fine i'm fine!" He repeated over and over again. Remus looked completely and utterly devastated.

"Patton, oh—oh my God, i'm so sorry" he said quickly, dropping next to Patton on the floor as Roman quickly did the same.

"It wasn't your fault, Remus. You tripped" Patton laughed, "see, i'm fine!"

"What happened?!" Janus asked, "I swear to god, we look away for two seconds!"

"Remus almost fucking drowned Patton, in the shallow end!" Roman exclaimed, "he tripped and fell on top of him right after a wave hit them, so Patton had already been gasping for air. He inhaled a bunch of water."

"The worst thing about it was the taste! Haha, i'm fine!" Patton assured them, but he was shaking. They gave him looks that said they didn't believe him, so he sighed, "okay, I was scared, but other than that i'm okay!"

Virgil gave him a look, asking with his eyes if he was really okay, and Patton just gave him a small smile and nodded. Virgil opened his arms, letting Patton in for a hug, which the man was very happy about.

After a few minutes, everybody settled down, enjoying the sunset together. Virgil squeezed Janus's hand, and they scooted away from everybody else. Just far away enough that if Virgil had an accident, he wouldn't get it on any of them. They were so close, in fact, that they could hear the others quietly conversing about Virgil.

"He can't stop shaking" Roman whispered, "he looks really stressed. I'm worried about him."

"I think he's having anxiety" Remus said, "just leave him be. He has Janus. If anybody knows how to take care of him, it's Janus."

"Damn right!" Janus called, smirking, "we can hear you guys, by the way."

"Oh shit" Roman muttered.

Janus rolled his eyes, going back to watching the sky turn a darker shade of pink, tinted with orange.

Virgil completely tensed next to him, and Janus snapped his head over. That was a surefire sign that Virgil was about to lose it, "Virgil, are you okay?"

 
This was one of Virgil's fantasies. To make it seem like an accident in front of their friends, but the two of them knowing fully well that it was intentional, "No" Virgil whimpered, "I—I c-c-can't...."

He got on his knees in front of Virgil, "it's okay. Just go. Just let it all out" they were talking so quietly, that they could barely hear each other. Their friends were lost in their own little conversation, so nobody was looking, "you've done so, so good for me, baby. Just go on."

Virgil felt tears of humiliation and relief slip down his face. He began to tap his feet against the sand, trying to hold it all in. He felt his knees jiggling as he finally began to empty his bladder. It felt so good. He's sure he would have lost it, whether he had been given Janus's permission or not. He pulled his knees up to his chest, as if that would hide what he was doing. Piss began to absolutely soak his swimming shorts. It was warm and wet and fast, shooting out of him with so much force that he could hear it. He felt himself moaning quietly, and could see Janus, hard against his own swimming trunks as his lover completely lost himself.

Virgil felt the sand beneath him getting completely saturated as the piss began to pool around his ass, his swimming trunks unable to hold anymore. He could feel himself crying, but it felt so good. He was sure his face was as red as a tomato by now. He didn't even dare glance to his side, just hoping his friends hadn't actually noticed yet, because he was truly never going to live this one down.

Still, he knew they'd notice eventually, so it was time to put on the big show of pretending it was completely an accident. "I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry" Virgil repeated over and over again, "I—I couldn't. I couldn't hold it anymore." As his friends began to notice, he felt his heart beating with anxiety. Real tears forming in his eyes and falling down his face. He felt a sob tear from his throat as his friends all looked over.

"What happened?" Roman questioned, "why is Virgil crying?" That caused everyone else to snap their heads over. Janus was on the side of Virgil closest to their friends, so he was hiding his lower body. But Virgil was still pissing, and pissing hard, his bladder shrinking with relief as he did so.

"Today was just a really bad day for him anxiety-wise" Janus explained, "he...he couldn't use the bathroom when we all did earlier. His body wouldn't let him. And he's been holding it all day—"

"What?!" His friends exclaimed.

"That was hours ago!" Patton cried.

Janus looked into Virgil's eyes, his back turned to their friends. He smirked teasingly, before he got out of the way, revealing that Virgil was completely soaked.

Everyone let out gasps, and Virgil felt another sob tear from his throat, "i'm so sorry, my stupid brain wouldn't let me, and then when I finally thought I could go, we were all busy getting seashells, and I got too shy, and I locked up, and I just couldn't, and I couldn't stop looking at the waves, and I—I—"

"Virgil, it's alright. Accidents happen, and you can't control that voice in your head" Logan told him, being the first one to recover from the shock. He hoped if he stayed calm about it, the others would too. Especially Roman, who would probably start laughing any second now.

"Yeah, totally fine. Wish I had been watching, though, I bet it was totally hot" Remus joked, but his eyes were filled with worry.

"Oh, it was" Janus teased lightly, bumping Virgil's shoulder. Virgil let out a small laugh, shoving Janus away.

"You're gross" he said, sniffling.

Janus could tell that Virgil was completely humiliated, and utterly turned on. Janus wanted to flip him over and fuck him right there in the sand, but wasn't too keen on going to jail, so he contained himself and grabbed Virgil's hand to help him up, "i'm going to walk him back, guys. I'm sure he has an emergency back-up pair of clothes in his bag."

Virgil nodded, "yeah. I do." He wiped his eyes and avoided eye contact with their friends as Janus began to walk him away.

Once they were out of earshot, Janus whispered, "I'm fucking you as soon as we get to the bathroom, I swear to God you looked so fucking hot when you were losing it."

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As Virgil got cleaned and dressed in the large handicapped bathroom stall, Janus next to him holding him up, whispering about how good he had been for him all day, he couldn't help but feel like jell-o. He had a pit of humiliation in his stomach, knowing that his friends were likely talking about him right now. That was a little hard to focus on, though, when he could barely stand because he had just gotten the absolute best ass pounding of his life.

"We'll do some more intense after care once we get home, baby. Okay?" He kissed Virgil's forehead lovingly, "i'll run you a nice, relaxing bath. I know you probably still feel icky right now, love."

Virgil nodded, sighing as he leaned against Janus, "Today was awesome" Virgil mumbled, "I think I like the beach now."

Janus laughed, "See what happens when we step out of our comfort zone?" He looped an arm around Virgil's shoulder, "let's get back to the car. Patton just texted and said they're waiting for us."

Virgil nodded, his heart jumping to his throat. He brought a thumb up to his mouth, and began to chew on his nail nervously.

"Don't be anxious about it. Remus texted me super worried about you, and I told him that you just had a bad day. He'll make sure nobody brings too much attention to what happened. And i'm sure if Roman wants to make a poorly timed joke, Remus will also take care of that for you" Janus explained, helping Virgil walk out. They could blame the limping on Virgil giving himself a bladder infection and not the fact that he just took it up the ass.

When they made it back to the car, Virgil expected awkward silence, but as soon as he climbed into the back next to Janus, the car exploded into chatter, questioning about the whole situation. Virgil felt himself growing anxious again, and laid his head down against Janus's chest. Janus lopped an arm over him as Remus told everyone to shut the fuck up. The car fell into silence and Logan began to drive. Virgil was exhausted, and just wanted to get home, shower, and sleep.

But of course, the topic of him pissing his pangs couldn't be dropped so easily. Especially not by Roman, which to be honest, Virgil had anticipated anyways, so he wasn't really upset. Just extremely embarrassed.

"I mean, I knew you were shy" Roman began, turning back towards Virgil, "but I didn't know that you were, like. I don't know, mentally ill psych ward levels of shy" he joked.

Logan glared at Roman through the rear-view mirror, opening his mouth to chastise him. Patton looked ready to scold him as well, but Virgil spoke before they had the chance.

"You're just now figuring that out?" Virgil questioned jokingly, "just this morning I had to get Janus to kick you out of the bathroom because I was too afraid to. And that's not even in the top ten Virgil shy moments of the past week. Honestly, you should have seen this coming."

Roman thought for a moment. He felt like he had dodged an extremely lethal bullet just now, because his comment hadn't upset Virgil. He would live to see another day, not succumbing to Patton's fatherly wrath, "actually, you're right. It took you a month to talk to anyone without Janus, and you still don't initiate conversations."

"It's true" Janus teased.

Seeing that neither Virgil or Janus were upset, the tension in the car died off, and they fell into a casual conversation about what had happened.

"You know, Virgil" Patton began, "none of us would ever judge you for needing to use the bathroom. And we wouldn't get upset if we had to stop what was happening so you could go."

Logan agreed, nodding his head, "Indeed. Besides, with six people, there's bound to be at least one other person who needs to pee when you do."

"Thanks, guys" Virgil smiled, leaning his head against Janus's shoulder. He closed his eyes as the conversation drifted away from his accident. Well, he could hardly call it that. He figured he could get away with wetting in public for a while, so long as he played into his bladder shyness. It was going to be a fun next couple of months.

A/n: As you can probably tell, I did NOT proofread this shit😭😭😭 i probably could have condensed this down to be shorter, but you know it just be like that sometimes. And I AM 100% guilty of playing into fanon Virgil and making him an anxious little baby 😭 i hope i didnt do that too much

I hope you enjoyed this!

And also, I don't have ALL the chapters pre-written and i'm not following a specific prompt list. So, if yall have any prompt ideas i'd love to hear them!

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