Probably. I think. I don't even know, I'm sorry

It's not even art related, and if it's you two reading this I promise you it's not what jus happened, but that sorta dumbass awful mistake from me is part of the reason everything hurts right now. It's such a small thing for me to fuck up yet it's just such a perfect example isn't it

My self hatred's gone exponential. I can't look at anything without thinking about something bad about me. I can't look in the mirror without wanting to vomit, I can't do anything without fucking wanting to vomit. I don't know how I'm going to face my friends tomorrow. I can't sleep. It's so hard to stop myself from crying and I've barely managed to every time, I'm so weak. I hate this. I hate me. I hate knowing how annoying I sound even in this tiny update, I have no fucking excuse to ever feel sad bc life's been handed to me on a silver platter and it's my fault for managing to fucking break it every chance I get

So yea expect inactivity. I hope I don't lose readers like last time but I don't have the right to act so selfish