Hey readers,

I know it's been two weeks without an update. I'm truly sorry for that.

For those of you who are newer and didn't necessarily see me post about my own mental health, I am bipolar - it's unspecified what type though. I was diagnosed earlier this year when I started to look for help. I couldn't take the extreme lows that come with this.  On top of this, I also have ADD.

I am medicated for both conditions. Adderall (what I take for ADD), can cause mania. And boy did it ever!

Holidays are usually a trigger for hypomania or mania for me. So, with the lead up to Thanksgiving last week, I went into a nice mild manic state. 

The good news is? My family had a ton of food to eat that night. It's a good thing we like leftovers. Also, I made my kitchen spotless while obsessively cleaning it Friday.

Other good news? My psychiatrist put me on seroquel. And while that didn't end the manic phase (2 freaking weeks), I at least got to sleep the second week of mania. And, while I still love my Lamictal more than anything else, Seroquel has been a godsend since I started it last Tuesday.

I think mania broke last night (not sure, but I think it did). So if that's the case, I'll actually be able to sit still long enough to have you guys an amazing chapter later this week.

So even though it's been two weeks without word from me, I do fully plan on continuing this. It might be a bumpy ride as I learn to deal and medicate my disorder. Which is why I 100% recommend following me if you haven't already; I post why I haven't updated and I'm open about my struggles with ADD and bipolar.

Sometimes it's funny. I usually try to make them funny. But, I give reasons why I haven't updated funny or not. I also try to give a teaser of some sort. It might be a question, it might be a mini section from the next chapter.

I promise, I'll do Stella's story justice and complete it. I know where it's going and how it's going to end. I even have a middle for it! And middles have always been my greatest struggle as a writer, so me having one gives me a ton of confidence that this will be finished.  This story also won't leave me alone until I end it - it's only been in my head since middle school. 😂

Thank you all for sticking this journey out with me. I love you all for the support you give me. During my lows, the comments get me through. During my highs, I'm sorry if I talk your ear off in the comment section. 😅 I get super social when I'm manic.

Now here's some pictures of my cats to add some adorableness.

This is Eddison. He had yet to make an appearance in MC, but it's not out of the question yet.

This is Inky. Yes, this is Keith's kitten, just a little older than when we last saw her at Keith's house. She's about 9 months now. And definitely a house panther.

This is Tig, also known as Bandit.  Had he been mine to name, I totally would have named him that. The things I've watched this cat carry off and hide under the bed....

And for you non-cat people out there, here's my dog Shadow. If you don't like either cats or dogs, well I'm out of animals. 🤷‍♀️

Anyways, thank you all for the support you've given me. I hope to see you sometime this week with an actual chapter. Once I post that, I'll take this down.

Also, if it makes any of you feel better, I have an amazing support system. My husband is actively working with me to understand what I'm going through and how we can handle it together. I also have many amazing friends who let me vent to them when needed. And my step-mother in law is amazing and let's me vent to her whenever I need to. And talks to me about everything. This is in addition to my therapist and psychiatrist.

While you all wait for me though, let's do a Q&A section in the comments. I'll respond to all of your questions; even if it's just me saying spoilers.