Love.

What nonsense is this guy talking about?

In a sense, Porchay as Wisdom accepted the fact that they were lovers, true. But, there is a 'but' to it. Whatever they did when they were fooling around with each other wasn't enough to generate that kind of feeling. They talked almost every night, yes. Sending dick pics for fun and giggles, yes. Wisdom doesn't deny when Rabbit tells him randomly that he considered Wisdom as his boyfriend when in real life he (War) is straight, yes. (In his defense, what for? He thought they were never a serious thing). Then there were those booty calls after the confession, but who hasn't had a booty call? That's just something not serious. At least on his part. And he thought Rabbit was on the same path.

Shits are just for fun. Strictly.

Is he wrong then? Does he misinterpret Rabbit all this time?

He knows there was something between them, but he never thinks of it as love. Some kind of romance, perhaps. But love? What a heavy word. They didn't do heavy.

That was why he cut it clean with Rabbit after Kim happened and he didn't feel any guilt about it. He wants a clean slate with the right mind when he enters a relationship.

But in his mind, this world and that world are two completely different realms. Wisdom is him, but he isn't Wisdom. Not completely. Porchay ended the relationship as soon as he found out that he had a mate. He even came clean to Rabbit about it. No lies were told. He doesn't want or need entanglement and he understands very well how guys like Kim operated.

What he doesn't expect is Rabbit's reaction.

Porchay thought Rabbit understood. He thought Rabbit knew the extent of their relationship, that was why the guy accepted when Porchay said no face to be revealed. It was Porchay's effort to not get attached. Relationships, even in the real world are something he didn't really get and understand. It was best to not get attached to avoid getting your heart broken to pieces.

The first time he ever initiated to want to get to know a person truly is when he is with Kim.

"I've already told you we can't continue," he firmly stated, watching as War folded his arms in front of his chest. His eyes are on him. His face is not easy to decipher, but he can see a deep disappointment in that baby face.

War nods, "Because you have him," he nudges to the door, outside where Kim is seething with anger. War is angry too. Angry by the fact that all Kim has to do is show up in front of Porchay and he can snatch Porchay away from him.

Just in time, Kim is banging on the door. "Kitt, you have five minutes to get out of there or I'm breaking the goddamn door!"

War is smiling. "The door is reinforced and bulletproof," he tells Porchay who is seething with annoyance.

"Yeah, I'm coming in five. Just stay still!" he shouts back. He can hear Kim, muttering his anger as a reply.

"As I want to say before, yes, we are mates, Rabbit! That is something beyond us to change. Just how many times do I have to tell you!" Porchay snaps.

"You can break it. You can unmate him. It has been done before."

"And risk my life for it? No, thanks." Porchay says with an aloof laugh. He loves himself a lot and doesn't want to be apart from it anytime soon.

Seeing how the ever fleeting Porchay lets Kim into his world easily, is grating on his nerves. How come isn't him, with his devotion towards Porchay for almost two years? Is mating bond all that? He doesn't believe it.

But he does believe in love at first sight because that is how he is with Porchay. Love at first glance. Porchay may not know but he has been secretly digging about Wisdom long before they were making a contact. He knew Porchay's face, that was why he agreed so easily with the no-face revealed clause.

It was he who took care of Porchay secretly and quietly. Buying him food and groceries. Getting him jobs in safe places with lenient work hours. It was he who made Porchay's trouble suitors go away, not Porsche.

"If I can find a method where you can break free from the mate bond risk-free, will you?"

Porchay is just staring at him without a word. The banging on the door is heard again. Kim is growing restless. Porchay knows he can't delay it anymore.

"Or are you falling in love with him, Chay?"

"What if I do?"

It takes a few seconds of silence for War to say, "Well, I don't care." He is so calm that it gets under Chay's skin. It is never a good premonition when Rabbit is in a calm and collected condition, without a smile.

Porchay looks at him sharply and gets out of his seat. There is no immediate solution to this at the moment, so he thinks he should back off. When the younger guy is reaching for the door, he adds, "I'm not giving up on you."

Porchay tilts his head a little to the back but still says nothing.
***
It takes thirty seconds for Kim to regret his decision to let Porchay come into War's apartment. Maybe it's a habit, letting War do anything he wants because it means more safety. He doesn't know what's going on at this moment between Porchay and War, but just a glance at how War looks at Porchay, Kim knew something akin to deep feeling happening on War's side.

Porchay? Porchay is not one to cheat. Kim even thinks he doesn't care much about love and romance and everything entails. What Porchay cares about is survival. That is why it has been a hard long journey for Kim to be where he is with Porchay. To be able to kiss him anytime and anywhere. Even when Porchay's mood is sour, he doesn't deny Kim. He only pretends he does.

War.

How dare he take Porchay in a confined space with him? Just the two of them? With nothing that can protect Chay?

Kim takes Porchay's hand and drags him from there. He is just seething with anger and it's hard for him to not want to bash someone's head, preferably War's, right now. This skin-to-skin contact helps him to get his head in the right direction.

It soothes him in a way nothing can.

He tells his people to wait outside of the car, giving them a moment to be alone, just the two of them.

"What's going on, Kitt?" he asks, his voice still slightly trembling with anger.

"War is Rabbit."

It's a simple sentence, but it gets Kim's jaw drop. "He's your ex?"

Porchay sighs. "I don't know I can even call him that. We never saw each other. I thought it was all for shits and giggles. Nothing serious."

"But War doesn't think so?"

Porchay shrugs. He doesn't care. "I already explained it to him. Whether or not he accepts it, is not my problem."

Kim nods once. He still doesn't get Porchay completely, but he gets about it. He is like that too towards a person who likes him but he doesn't reciprocate. You can not force a feeling to be there or not be there. It is not up to you. It's up to the other person. All you can do is reject them.

"So you rejected him, right?"

Porchay makes a noise with his tongue. "I already said he is my ex. What more can I say?"

"I just don't think it's going to be easy."

"It's not. Rabbit has a reason to be called 'rabbit'. He is stubborn."

"A rabbit is stubborn?" Kim is baffled.

Porchay nods. "Just check the internet if you don't believe it. But he can't do anything if I keep saying no. He respects my boundaries for one thing."

"Really?" Kim doesn't believe it, it's evident in his voice. Porchay just gives up, throwing his hands in the air while rolling his eyes.

"If War is respecting your boundaries, should we write him off from anything to do with the attack?"

Porchay closes his eyes in an attempt to not make Kim broaden the subject. But it's not working as Kim repeatedly calls him, "Ter?"

"I don't know. He has contacts in Russia, but I also have contacts in Russia. Everybody who is anybody in the web has contacts in Russia. So it's not an odd thing, but we should keep an open mind about it."

"I think I should teach you martial arts."

Porchay is now pouting. "Lazy," he says. Kim is sighing.

Porchay is watching the trees go by when Kim suddenly asks, after a long pregnant pause between them, "How far did you guys go?"

...

He chooses carefully what to say. "We haven't even met in real life before this."

But Kim knows that's just a deflection, so he pushes. "How far?"

"Depends on what you consider far."

"Porchay Pichaya Kittisawasd!"

Oh, shit. Not the full name-calling.

"Dick pics. We sent dick pics to each other," Chay says quietly.

He can see how Kim's mouth performs a disbelief gap that fills with anger, and see how his long fingers roll out to create a hard knuckle. He closes his eyes, but Chay is sure those orbits are filled with fire.

This man is beyond just furious.

So it is no surprise when he drags Porchay with him when they arrive at his mansion. He doesn't care that it's a little hard for Chay to catch up with his fast walks. Employees watch with a mixture of gazes, but they can't really do anything.

Porchay hears a click after the bang of the door. He is pushed hard against the wall before Kim's hot mouth moves to devour him.
***