Listening to this song while writing really hit :'(^

Ariana is sitting on Woosung's bed, a small smile on her lips as she looks at Woosung closing the door behind him and gazes at Ariana with a bright smile before sitting beside her.

And for some reason, Ariana feels like her chest is being weighed down with hard and heavy pressure right to the center - making her feel a suffocating sentimentality piling up gradually, but she can't focus on her own emotions right now.

It's not about her.

Woosung suddenly leans back against the bed, plopped up by his elbow, "So, what did you want to talk about?"

Ariana takes a moment to really get herself together, knowing this won't exactly be an easy conversation, so she places a hand on her tummy and nods to herself.

They gotta do this.

They have to.

"Sammy," She says quietly, reluctantly looking at Woosung, "That night.... With Jimin-"

"No," Woosung is sitting up now, his smile gone, "No, we already talked about this. It was just a mistake-"

"Was it Woosung?" Ariana remains calm, her voice soft, "I know you said you didn't want to talk about it but..... Woosung, you can't just hide away from it forever."

Woosung is not looking at her anymore, lips pursed together tightly, but Ariana clasps a hand over his, carefully strumming her thumb against his knuckles, "Woosung.... It's okay."

"It's not!" He denies it, shaking his head, "I.... I fucked up! I fucked up our relationship and my friendship with most of the roomies here! Me and Jimin are in an awkward place and - Fuck, I'm going c-crazy."

Ariana frown deepens to his weak croak towards the end, automatically forcing out a weaker and fragile fragment out of him, clearly something he's been trying to keep inside for a while.

And it's evident how he's trying to still hold it back, no matter how much it's killing him inside.

So Ariana sits closer to him, gripping his hand tighter, "Sammy..... Do you believe you may be attracted..... To some of your roomies?"

That's where it all broke.

Just by a few, simple words.

His lips began to wobble and tears pooled and glistens down his cheeks, just as he shakes his head and wipes them away, "N-No-"

"Not even for Bambi?" Ariana touched a nerve, she knew she did when his face twists as he bows his head, "It's okay Sammy...... It's okay."

Woosung is hiccuping now, trying desperately to not cry right now but had a hard time doing so by how he kept choking on his breathes before wheezing with his tears.

A hand raised up and he rubs his chest, right at the center, "I-It hurts here," He shutters quietly, closing his eyes, "It's so wrong...... I-I can't."

"Is it because of me?" Ariana asks quietly, this time making him frown deeper, "Sammy, I promise you that there's nothing more I want from you other than to be okay. To be happy. Before and during our relationship, we are and were best friends, that doesn't change anything."

Woosung sobs quietly, shaking his head, "But Moonlight-"

"We are co-parenting, remember?" Ariana says quietly, smiling softly to ease the tenses edges out of him, "I just...... Hate seeing you holding some much inside Sammy. It kills me."

Woosung didn't say anything back as he sniffles, interlacing their hands together as he tried to keep himself together, so Ariana rests her head on his shoulder, "So what if you may be attracted to boys? At least you're figuring yourself out, and now you can further explore that, yeah?"

This still didn't make Woosung feel better, and he voiced it out, "I..... Enjoyed what happened with Jimin, while we were together," He painfully admits, "And I kissed him one night, and I enjoyed it too...... And I feel like I may be liking Jeongguk..... But never gave myself the chance to look deeper because..... I fucked up so much already."

Hearing the words out loud was definitely much more painful than Ariana expected.

So much more painful.

Shit.

Ariana closes her eyes, holding back the clear slash against her chest those words impacted her heart, but she swallowed it down.

This isn't about her.

She can deal with it later.

She licks her lips and tightens her grip on his hand, "Sammy," She whispers, "You care too much about others, but sometimes you gotta be selfish and think for yourself. Give yourself the chance and opportunity to discover yourself without thinking you'll hurt someone."

"But I hurt you," Ariana tried not to let her lips wobble, "I hurt you and that's more painful to me than anything anyone could possible to do me."

Ariana raises her head up from his shoulder, taking both of his hands now and tugs them, just to make him look at her.

And he sobs the second her saw her teary eyes, yet she held onto a strong smile as she looks at him.

"Hey, hey it's okay," She says, maintaining her voice calm, "In life we make mistakes, all the time, but we learn from them in the future. I know this wasn't the exact perfect way for you to figure out your sexuality, but now you have the freedoms to explore and - you know how amazing that is? This journey.... I'm so excited for you."

Woosung is still crying, shaking his head whimpering under his breath, "But you and Moinlight-"

"You're always going to be my best friend," She assures him, just as a tear glided down her cheek, "And Moonlight will have an amazing father in their life. It hurts me more..... Seeing you like this. Not being able to be yourself and - Sammy, be free."

Sammy now has his forehead to their hands, trembling so badly just like the sobs escaping his lips, pressing a peck to their hands, "I love you," Ariana's lips wobbled, "I love you so much, and it hurts."

That finished breaking her off.

Ariana had to place a hand to her lips, holding back her faint whimpers of a desperate cry, but she only sniffles and held it back while guiding Woosung's face up to look at her.

And she whispers shakily, "I love you, so much and far more than words can describe," And she softly nuzzles their foreheads together, "And because I love you, I want you to be free, okay? Please."

Woosung hiccups weakly to those words, but slowly nods, "I..... I want you to be free too."

"I already am," She whispers, feeling the faint relief in the deepest depth of her heart, "I already am."

And taking a deep breath, Ariana sings quietly the familiar melody to her beloved Sammy, "I never knew, I never knew you could have moonlight in your hands, till the night I held you,"

The two knowing well, this was the last time she would dedicate this lovely melody to him alone.

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A/N:
The emotions in this chapter are just :'(

What do we think?

Oof in coming chapters are about to be something.

I PURPLE YOU! <33