LOOK IT GOT HERE!!!

I have literally have done nothing else tonight other than read. and,,,, oh my god. i feel like this book could have been easily 100 pages longer, it felt like there was so much left unexplored in the characters, but overall i thought it was a pretty good conclusion.  okay spoilers below, i just need to scream about my thoughts.

okay i'm assuming everyone who hasn't got the book yet has stopped reading by now. uhhhhhh. the scorching story absolutely ended me. especially the whole thing about the basis for wof society being grieving mothers????? yeah i am DEFINITELY gonna use that as something clearsight plays into. we got names for the moons!!! i've been wondering this for years, i almost gave them my own names and i'm so glad i didn't now. oracle, imperial, and perception!!!! luna and swordtail are very sweet. i'm like mildly delirious right now so the comedy factor in this book was upped by tenfold, when i'm tired everything just seems incredibly funny to me. cottonmouth and sharp-eyes should be friends. love me a good evil mad scientist. that line where luna was like "no you shouldn't have had to use your claws yet" in the early stages of the experiments has imprinted itself in my brain. the abyss thing was so messed up i LOVED IT. i really liked the little detail of luna, getting depressed sometimes bc she seems so bubbly on the outside. idk i can definitely relate to that. this is... a pretty good way of explaining what depression is like in a kids book actually.

every new book that comes out i brace for all the  lore i've made to be absolutely destroyed but actually my version of the story isn't too incongruent with canon. idk the human kingdoms used to have emperors so maybe that's somehow where sharp eyes got that term. GAH the scorching bit was super cool. the carvings? the messed up guardian person????? that was the highlight of the book for sure

DUSKY!!!! these books are really just a compilation of our protagonists adopting random children and i love it. he was so cool, he reminded me of what i remember being like at that age. and they found his mom at the end! i was secretly hoping luna and swordtail would raise him but they are, like, really young. the bit about his mom finding him made me emotional.

lizard cracked me up a few times and made me feel emotions. i feel like it's more heart wrenching that she didn't get a happy ending and from a narrative perspective it worked better but as a reader it HURTS. she reminded me of five in the umbrella academy but without the life experience.

i liked axolotl, they were cool! i kinda ship them and wren. wish we'd gotten some more sundew, i kinda miss the feeling of a cohesive group the first arc had.

oh the scene where luna and swordtail met had me laughing so hard (again, i am so delirious right now) it was like the meme that goes

luna: i proudly identify as a morosexual! i am exclusively attracted to dumbasses. yesterday swordtail asked me what the spanish word for tortilla was and now i dream of kissing him under the moonlight.

i'll be ok if this is the last book, just because i would kind of rather a conclusion than dragging a series out further than it needs to go?? if there's another arc i'd be cool with it, but ig i just hope it'll be done right, and not just for the sake of it. oh god. oh fuck. idk these books have meant so much to me growing up. i remember thinking the series was gonna end with book 10 like five years ago, and now i'm going through all that stuff again. like oh my god it can't be over. anyway this book made me feel so many things GAHHHHH

this passage made me emotional. FAMILY. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

uh. i'm gonna do so much art of these kids tomorrow. i like luna. it felt like the action was a little underwhelming bc we were seeing it secondhand but maybe that's the sleep deprivation talking, idk how that could have really been fixed. pineapple and jambu were so cute! ok i'm gonna go to sleep now