Just a little introduction before the fanfiction actually starts.

English is not my first language, I'm Italian and I wrote the story first in my native language and then in English. I'm overboard paranoid so I checked this like a thousand times for everything to be perfect but I think there's something wrong anyway. Polite corrections are more than welcome.

Also, I know this may seem an X reader type of fanfiction but this is not the case, it focuses on Ethan.

This story contains also heavy subjects, such as self-harm, major depression disorder, complex PTSD, detailed descriptions of violence and cursing. If you do not wish to read it, forget this story.

For the people who stayed, I hope you'll like this fanfiction.