Don't read it. Seriously. Stop. Nothing important, just me.

I'm so frickin mad and upset right now. Gerade eben hat es sich noch so angefühlt, als ob mein Körper explodiert, weil er die Wucht meiner Gefühle nicht aufnehmen kann.

Now I'm exhausted. I. Hate. It. Ich kann nichts, GAR NICHTS, fühlen ohne danach komplett im Arsch zu sein.

Great, NOW I'M HUNGRY!

I love it! I love it, I love my life, I love my body, I love fuxking everything! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, such a great day, hahah!

Fuck off, you single tear-

Why do I ruin so many friendships? :)
I guess, cuz I'm such a great human being. People often like me when they first meet me, I think I did a good job at being nice. At the age of... nine. 👍

Nice, jetzt kommt die Gehässigkeit durch, hihi, wir haben uns ja nur gestern Abend erst getroffen.

We like it. We like us. This is totally not ironic and I am very funny, ain't I? HAHAHA, it's all a joke, wow, so funny everyone be laughing rn.

How do people actually like me? I think, I'm a disgusting piece o' shit. Feel like I'm begging for appreciative comments. Hah, hate me so much.

Mood swing in three...

Two.....

One.......

Yeah, I'm alle. Kann nich mehr. C:

Das ganze Kapitel hat nicht in mehr als einer Viertelstunde stattgefunden.

Wie überrede ich meine Mum, zu einem Psychologen gehen zu können? :3

My music is too loud, but without it I feel lonely.

Now I wanna cry.

First tear.

Second one.

My pillow gets wet. I'm cold. Der Innenteil meiner Decke ist runtergerutscht. Aber ich kann mich nicht mehr bewegen. Jetzt ist vorbei. Gleich kommt der nächste Hasskick. And another tear.

I'm so mad at me for crying. On the inside. My body however can't move a single bit. I'm a prick. The tears stopped, can't even do that shit anymore. My music fades, I wish I could fade with it.
My pillow is wet, the part in me I hate so much is too disgusted to sleep on my tears. I could - GRAH! I have no words. Ich krieg gleich nen Anfall! Das Reiben ist wieder da und ich fühle mich scheiße.

Tears. ✨
More tears. ✨✨

Too tired to sleep. I wished I was... not dead, that'd be selfish. Gone. Outta everyone's life. I'm just upsetting you all.

I could scream rn. But I have not the slightest bit of energy left. Gotta take a break. Of life. Me. Others. Sleepless nights.

*internal screaming*

Tired again. The back of my head tickles, wheen I close my eyes and listen to the music.

Good night. I'm sorry for... that. I'm sorry for being annoying. :)
Another tear.

See ya tomorrow.