As soon as he left from there nandini fell on chair.....she felt her heart beating at a very low speed feeling like it had broken into pieces...feeling like her life was going away........his dark red eyes which were holding so much pain....she felt a pang of pain apearing in her chest as she remembered those red eyes which were depicting his state.....she raised her hand to stop him but her words didnt support her and he also disappeared from the corridor.........

On the other hand manik sat on the driving seat and wore his shades to hide his eyes which were depicting his inner turmoil.....gripping the steering tightly he remembered nandini's words choose me or ur past..... he sighed heavily and ignited the engine driving the car at high speed trying to push everything behind.......he entered into an apartment of one of his frnd who was the owner of club which was used to arrange motorbike races......he sat on couch after greeting him and asked about the schedule of races to which rocky (his frnd) answered that they had an event starting at 4 in evening........meanwhile rocky grabbed some snacks for both of them

Waise why r u asking about it manik

Bcz i m going to take part in it he replied casually sipping the cold drink

What.....no way he literally screamed u r not going to take part in it...u know na its enduro

Enduro : a type of off-road bike racing in which participant has to pass thru difficult tracks

Rocky was very gud frnd of manik who supported manik in his hard time.....manik used to do bike racing b4 but a long time back he left it bcz of office work and other things

Yeah yeah i know its enduro....dont be so dramatic manik said rolling his eyes

No manik....A BIG NO....m not going to allow it

As if i care about ur permission shrugging his shoulders manik said

Yaar mabik plzzz why u have to be so stubborn...u r out of practice and the path is very risky so dont argue rocky said with helplessness knowing how stubborn his frnd was

U know m very angry rocky so if u wont lemme do that then i would have to try some other things to rmv my anger and....AAANNNDDD manik left the sentence in middle

Fine go to hell.....rocky said angrily getting up from couch while manik smirked i luv u boy he shoyed at rocky's back which made him throw a pillow at manik's direction

The race was going to start in about 20 minites and manik wasnt there...rocky was searching him everywhere when he found manik near a fridge.....he was opening the lid of beer can and by seeing him rocky wanted to bang his head on nearby wall

Manik ye mere jure hue hath dekh le aur bs kar de mere Bhai....u know na ye sb allowed nhi he said in panicked tone as if someone would see manik drunk then it could be a huge disaster for his career and club too

Manik rolled his eyes at him and brought the can closer to his mouth when rocky snatched it saying that manik wouldn't drink it

Dont be a pain in ass.....no one is here to see me like this..aur 1 drink se kuch nhi hota he said snatching the can

Tere jesa gadha aur btmeez insaan mene aaj tak nhi dekha rocky said in irritation

Okay tysm...ab tang na kar mjhe manik said as he wanted to forget what shit his life had bcm and beer was gud option

Idk tere bv tjh jese stubborn insaan ke tantrums kese bardasht kare ge Rocky said unaware that manik was already married but it froze manik right there as he stared at rocky

Haan she must have got tired of me and my tantrums thats why she chose to leave me manik thought with a stoic face

He gulped a sip of beer when he remembered nandini's words manik promise me tm aaj ke baad drink nhi karo ge manik closed his eyes remembering that moment and after a delay of 10 sec we could see him gulping the whole can in one go as he whispered she doesnt care anymore and neither do i with this he threw the can in nearby dustbin and started wearing his helmet

As soon as the race started everyone sped its bike and same went for manik....he was driving fully concentrated on the uneven track.......4 bikers were ahead of manik and he was struggling hard to take the lead.....it was a jump and manik sped his bike but suddenly nandini's words ringed in his ears bikes r risky.....agar tmhe kuch hojata to and as soon as he remembered those words his balance on bike loosened a bit causing the bike to slip and he fell on the stony ground putting all his pressure on right hand which got scrapped with the ground......immediately getting up he overlooked the injury he had just got and started the bike again speeding the bike more.....ignoring the torn flesh and blood spots.......after going thru all the obstacles he finally reached the end point and earned 3rd position........he was removing his helmet with no expression when rocky came running towards him and hugged him

Bro u did an awsm job.....u came on 3rd bro..... hugging manik's sweaty body

Hmmm...well someone was stopping me a few hours back manim taunted while resting the helmet on bike as he moved his fingers over his wet hair

Whatever rocky said making a displeased face.....they were looking here and there when rocky noticed the blood drops on manik's pants and then his eyes captured the sight of manik's bleeding hand

Omg manik....ur hand he freaked out

Manik then suppinated his forearm as he finally looked at his wound and then carelessly pulled his hand back to original position saying its okay...ye to hota rhta hai

Dont u feel pain rocky said making a strange face

Pain manik spoke that word in ridiculous tone bro this pain is nothing infront of pain life is giving me their eyes made contact b4 manik diverted his gaze to other side and then left from there left after giving a last pat on rocky's shoulder while he felt bad for his frnd

Manik was driving when he stopped the car in the parking area of beach....cmng out of car he grabbed the bottle of whiskey and began to walk towards the sea.....his mind flooding with thoughts

On the other side nandini came from hospital with a pale face and expressionless eyes......she dragged herself towards the room and fell on bed......staring at the ceiling she felt the emptiness......she remembered their conversation.....how his anger changed into calmness when he realized that they would complicate the things by getting mad in anger.....how he tried to handle the situation that too going against his short tempered nature.......how helpless he was......she also felt the shaking movement of his hands when she asked about the divorce.....that look on his face....the pain... she wanted to hug him tight and say I LUV U MANIK......but sth inside her stopped her from doing so (she closed her eyes tightly in pain which was arising in her chest time to time)

Rajj ke rulaaya
Rajj ke hansaya
Maine dil kho ke ishq kamaya
Maanga jo usne ek sitara
Humne zameen pe chaand bulaya

Manik remembered the fun....those beautiful memories of them together enjoying every second of it......he remembered how nandini used to scold him for his mistakes like a mother.....he remembered how she used to wake him up for office and being a sleepy head his tantrums......their water fight when one day nandini threw glass of water at him bcz he wasnt getting up and then his revenge (he smiled painfully remembering those pure moments

Jo aankhon se.. haaye
Wo jo aankhon se ik pal na ojhal huve
Wo jo aankhon se ik pal na ojhal huve
Laapata ho gaye dekhte dekhte

I cant live without u nandini were the words ringed in nandini's eyes

I won't leave u ever manik manik remembered her sweet tone and his lips curved in the form of smirk as he gulped whiskey while staring at the furious waves hitting the shore.........realizing that she wasn't with him he looked into the sky as a tear dropped down his eye

Sochta hoon...
Sochta hoon ke woh kitne masoom thay
Sochta hoon ke woh kitne masoom thay
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Sochta hoon ke woh kitne masoom the
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte

Manik remembered that night which could be one of most beautiful nights but turned into a dreadful nightmare just cuz of his insecurities...just bcz he didnt want children he also ruined the moment for her........instead of adressing the problem he decided to handle it foolishly and ignore her questions

Sochta hoon ke wo kitne masoom thay
Sochta hoon ke wo kitne masoom thay
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte

Woh jo kahte the bichdenge na hum kabhi
Woh jo kahte the bichdenge na hum kabhi
Alvida ho gaye dekhte dekhte

If u want children so badly I can free u nandini remembered his venomous words and few tears slipped off her eyes

Choose me or ur past and divorce me manik recalled her words which were full of hatred

Ek main ek woh, aur shaamein kayi
Chaand roshan thay tab aasmaan mein kayi
Ek main ek woh, aur shaamein kayi
Chaand roshan the tab aasmaan mein kayi

He remembered how they used to share everything....how they used to feed the first bite of their food to eachother (with this he gulped whiskey as he realized that he hadnt eaten anything properly and how could he....his food partner was missing)

Nandini remembered the special ways he always used to manofy her......how everytime he used to make her special......she remembered how he decided to chose eating chillies rather than fulfilling the dare just bcz he didnt want to lay his hand roughly on her (and when she remembered those moment her heart cursed her for being so rude to him in afternoon)

Yaariyon ka wo dariya utar bhi gaya
Aur haathon mein bas ret hi reh gayi

Koi puche ke.. haaye
Koi puche ke humse khata kya hui
Kyun khafa ho gaye dekhte dekhte

Aate jaate thhe jo saans ban ke kabhi
Aate jaate thhe jo saans ban ke kabhi
Woh hawa ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Woh hawa ho gaye.. haaye...
Oh ho ho...
Oh ho ho...

They both felt their hearts which were empty......they realized at that time how absence of one special person could change every exciting thing into nothing else but crap......how it turned their lives upside down.......how the exciting word of past day changed into boring one

Woh hawa ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Alvida ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Lapata ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte

Jeene marne ki hum the wajah aur hum hi
Jeene marne ki hum the wajah aur hum hi
Bewajah ho gaye dekhte dekhte...

Nandini tmhe pta haina mjhe tmhare bghar neend nhi ati these words made nandini to get up from lying position feeling restless....... manik ko to mere bghar sone ki adat hi nhi.....wo kese soye ga she thought with a worried face but little did she knew that manik didnt even know how to live without her.......he forgot how to do even a single thing without her presence

Sochta hoon...
Sochta hoon ke woh kitne masoom thhe
Sochta hoon ke woh kitne masoom thhe
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Kya se kya ho gaye dekhte dekhte
Kya se kya ho gaye.. oh ho ho...

Nandini was soaking her pillow with her warm tears....she was missing him like anything but still she decided to stay rigid thinking that it was better.....on the other hand manik's eyes were also glistening with water but he didnt shed a single drop of tear just kept drinking to ease the pain....to forget it for sometime....he was so lost in his thoughts when a ball hit his thigh but still he ignored it as he was too busy in writing nandini's name on sand

This ball is mine the voice made manik come out of his thoughts as he stared at the boy of 12-13 years......manik nodded his head and picked up the ball lying near to him....extending his hands he raised the ball at the boy's direction which he happily took.........manik again started looking down

Aap ro rhe the the boy's concerned tone distrubed him again

Hain......cmng out of his thoughts he asked in confusion  nhi ro to nhi rha he said pressing the back of his palm on his eyes to wipe the unshed tears as he was too embarrassed to confess it infront of a child that he wanted to cry

App yahan akele aye hai his innocent voice boomed in atmosphere again

Hmmmm manik just hmmed not wanting to talk to anyone

Apki mama aap ko daantti nhi itna late night bahir hone se he asked in amazed tone

Nhi mein ab bara hogya hn na manik laughed at the little boy's question.....he was finding it interesting to talk with that boy..

Achaw pondering at manik's words while placing a finger on his chin but daadi to abhi bhi baba ko daantti hai agar wo late aye ghar he spoke in confusion

And as those words escaped out of boy's mouth manik looked at the boy with sth in his eyes......after waiting for a minute or so he said ur baba is very lucky voice lacing with sadness as he looked at the boy

But still u should go to ur home.....ur mom must be worried...u know moms aise hi hote hai..... he spoke putting all his wisdom on his words

Manik sighed listening to him.......he didnt know how he should tell that boy about HIS MOTHER and his relationship with her.....he wondered how to tell the boy that their was no one waiting for him at the home.....how should he tell him that how badly he wanted his mother to hug him whenever he go back home

She doesn't live with me he spike softly as he didnt know why but he was feeling like sharing it with little boy....he had always found it easy to talk to strangers about his problems

What......now it was boy's turn to get shocked why

And manik took a deep breath looking at the inquisitive child

He wished he could tell her why she wasnt living with him......he wished he could tell him the dark side of  world but couldn't as he never wanted to  ruin the little boy's innocence....he didnt want him to stop hoping about the world.......

Ummmm she is a bit angry with me he said taking all the blame on himself

So u should go and manofy her.....moms ko naraz nhi karte warna God naraz hojata hai the boy spoke mourning over the person sitting infront of him

And manik just smiled at the boy's words but said nothing....after sometime gripping the football he said lets play football and they started playing football with the boy's parents watching them from some distance with a smile on their faces

Ohhkkk guys thats it...though I wanted to write more but update phle hi itni lambi hochuki hai morover it has been so many days since the last update

How do u find the update

So I know many of u r saying ke that i always keep on separating them......but i also showed the time they spent together....its not like that that I always show a miserable life of manan....moreover i just cant jump into happily ever after wala part as their is nothing as such.......i wanna show nandini helping manik in changing bad memories to gud ones....nandini helping him to overcome his insecurities....what do u guys say.?????