So guys how r u all...

Well u all r asking me to reunite manan...well definitely I will ...I m waiting for that moment too...but before that I have to show sth.....so hope u guys will support me..... probably this will end soon in 1 or 2 updates....

MAnik woke up with Swallowen eyes and dried lips....his throat was sore bcz of constt yelling and crying...he licked his lips to remove the dryness and then opened his eyes completely....he found himself on floor resting his head on cupboard and his hands fisting nandini's shirt......he brought the shirt closer to his nose and smelled it....her fragrance he closed her eyes the moment her fragrance filled her nostrils and calmed his mind.......he was totally whipped he knew it....nandini's thoughts would never let him live in peace......after sometime he got up to get ready for office....he was fiddling with his shirt's button when servant came with his breakfast....he arranged the table when manik noticed the servants presence...he then glanced at the food and then at servant blankly while servant just bowed his head not knowing what to do........

Ma: plzz bring tea for me (in soft tone)......

Servant: tea?? (he mumbled surprised at his words.....he never drank tea before )

Ma: yes tea.....(firm tone making the servant move from his place)....and yeah take this breakfast with u ...I don't wanna eat it

Servant: Baba aap ne kal se kuch nhi khaya (worried tone)....

Ma: Dil nhi (more like a whisper....for the first time he was talking to his servant that too politely)

Servant: lekin aise to aap beemar hojaye ge ....aur chai to kbhi AAp ne pee(drink) hi nhi....

Ma: Haan lekin Nandini to peete thi naa (looking here and there)

And his words made servant shocked and somewhat sad....he felt pity on him.... never ever in his whole service he found manik so vulnerable.....but he didn't know it was just a start ... servant left from there while manik was again busy in thinking about his past

Flashback

Ma: uuuhhhhhhhhh Nandini itni chai kon peeta hai (irritated at Nandini's addiction)

N: mein peete hn na (glaring him)

Ma: well it seems that u luv tea more than me...such a teaaholic u r (scrunching his nose annoyed)

N: well tea is far more better than u (rolling her eyes at his disrespect...how dare he say anything against her chai).....aur chai ke liye to mein kuch bhi Kar skti

Ma: kuch bhi(challenging)....mjhe bhi chor skti (smirking in his mind thinking that he trapped her )

N: tmhe chorna......ummmm... I will happily do it (smacking his arm)

While his eyes popped out at the answer and he made a crying face....she was giving more importance to fuckin tea rather than him....and Nandini laughed at her cute husband while pinching his nose cutely saying

N: awwww manik u r so cute... seriously u r jealous of tea..... ahahhahahahahah (laughing loudly while manik just rolled his eyes )

Flashback ended

Ma: and Nandini u seriously left me (he said smiling painfully)

Later he drank his tea and went to office....on his way to office he got call from fab 4 asking him about his condition and he talked to them casually assuring them that he was fine......he didn't want to disturb them anymore... didn't want to complain about his problems....and days went like this he engrossed himself completely in work trying to forget everything... Every beautiful memory but the fact is it never happened.....nandini's memories started haunting him day and night whenever he was free....he was unable to sleep properly bcz whenever he tried to closed his eyes Nandini's face had appeared infront of him....he was scared of everything.....he started taking sleeping pills again to get necessary sleep......he was living the worst days of his life...after leaving nyonika and everything if he ever thought that those were his bad days then the present days were proving him wrong........he was unable to talk to anyone ....he didn't share his feelings with his frnds....unable to sleep....unable to eat anything...unable to live one moment of his life peacefully...he had stopped eating meals...he was just living on tea and eating only when hell necessary otherwise it seemed unnecessary to him.......he started getting panicked attacks whenever he thought about them MANAN......it was like a nightmare to him......he started experiencing worst situations ......he didn't tell anyone about his current situation and he even asked his servants strictly not to tell it to fab 4.....fab 4 visited him 2 3 times but he didn't give even a hint of his condition......3 months have passed like this and he needed sth to divert his attention....to make him forget his pain even if it's for sometime and he broke another promise of her's he was back to drinking again ...he was guilty of starting it again but it seemed that he had no control on his body ......he became hollow from inside...no spirit left.....he was just spending the time span of his life waiting for death at every moment...... servants were watching him helplessly drifting into darkness....he was getting into depression slowly.....

Fab 4 was wondering that how could manik behave so calmly after that incident...mukti had arrived at manik's mansion just to observe everything....she called one of oldest servant and asked him about manik's condition

Mu : Ramu Kaka manik kesa hai...Kia karta rhta hai (investigating)

Servant: wo mukti g manik Baba to bs office ke kaam mein busy rhte Han aur wo theek hai (stuttering alittle )

Mu: Baba aap ko pta Haina ke mjhe jhoot pasand nhi aur Mera ghussa bilkul bhi achaw nhi (warning).....so mjhe sach sach bta dn ke Kia hua hai

Servant: manik Baba theek nhi Han(defeated tone..... worried for manik)..na wo kuch khate Han bs apne kamre mein bethe rhte aur chai peete rhte.....kuch Dino se in ki tabiyaat bhi kuch theek nhi rhte....jab bht zayada sochte Han to sweating shuruh hojati hai... heartbeat tez hojati hai...aur Aik dfa to wo behosh bhi hogye the kamzoori (weakness) ki waja se

And mukti was all stunned at the revelation....so much happened to manik and his frnds were unaware of it.....she cursed herself for being so irresponsible.....later she informed fab 3 about manik's condition and they decided that they weren't leaving him alone further so at evening fab 4 was present in his home again.....manik had just returned from office and was in his room when servant informed him about their arrival...he got up in that disheveled state........fab 4 saw him coming in that state and that was the time when they first noticed him keenly......his pale colour...the dark circles around his eyes had grown darker.......he was looking more weak and they shuddered at their places looking at his state......they had never seen this type of manik even when nyonika did so much with him but they were witnessing his downfall and they were wishing to never see him again like this

Meanwhile manik approached him and he had a smile plastered on his face

Ma: oye TM log yahan (hugging them one by one)

Dh: Haan hmne socha ke Tera haal pooch ln (looking at him wanting him to say everything to them)

Ma: Mera haal......Kia Hona hai mjhe maze mein hn .......mast life chal rhi (trying to sound like this)......they all glanced at him with don't lie to us face......while manik avoided their eye contact.,...their intense gaze .........after sometime manik broke the awkward silence offering them to take a seat.......he then ordered servants to bring snacks for fab 4....when the snacks had arrived they all asked manik to eat also

Ma: no guys I had my meal already....m full (as I had stated earlier he wasn't eating anything to remove hunger....he was eating only that small amount of food which was necessary for his survival...... He had lost interest in everything.....)

Cabir knew that he was lying so he questioned servant through his eyes asking that if manik was right or not while servant shook his head and cabir got the answer so he spoke

C: chal koi nhi hme company to de de

Ma: Dil nhi naa

C: mere liye hi kha le (in extra sugary tone while bringing the food infront of manik's mouth....... acting like gay )

Ma: it was mine job btw....(refering to his romance😒😒.... while taking the bite bcz for how long he would deny his frnds)....while other sighed in peace looking at him eating......they all were eating when he said

Ma: Haan ab btao kyon aye ho (narrowing his eyes questioning them)

Dhruliya: wo mom dad asked us to have fun so we thought to come here (stretching their lips for smile )

Mu: I had fight with my parents

C: ye Sare arhe the Mene socha mein bhi ajata hn (stuffing his mouth with food)

MAnik looked at all of them and finally stopped at mukti....he got up and moved towards mukti and mukti sat there all nervous fearing to get caught

Ma: alllleeee Mera bacha Kia hua (hugging her asking with concern in his voice)

And everyone looked at him as if he had gone mad..he was actually behaving like a grand father concern and all...when manik turned towards mukti again and said while pushing her a little

Ma: yhi expect Kar rhi thi naa 😏😏....I would have done it if u weren't lying ........it's been fifteen years aur TM logo ko LGA that u can fool me (he squealed and they all lowered their heads in embarrassment......)...

Ma: ab mjhe pta ke TM log jaane wale to ho nhi to give me 5 minutes mein rooms ready karwata TM logo ke (moving away from them)

They a smiled widely but after sometime manik returned back to all of them and engulfed them in hug while murmuring THNKU FOR CMING.......they tightened their grip over him while cabir said

C: u can share manik (soft tone while rubbing his back)

Ma: she left me (that was all he managed to say in quivering tone while gripping cabir's shirt tightly)

Mu: don't stress urself everything will be fine (moving her hand over his forehead.... removing creases from it)

Days went like this manik was engaged with fab 4 thinking less about everything and offcourse eating his meals properly.....

It was night time everyone was present in his room....manik opened the side drawer to get some file....he took the file but a small necklace also fell from it.....he looked at it and found it to be the same necklace he gifted Nandini........he gave that necklace to her with so much luv and the treatment with it broke him.....he picked up the necklace from floor and rubbed the dirt from it with his thumb....he then saw some diary....he never had the habit of writing diary so whose diary was it......he opened the diary and on the first page it was written

HE ABUSED ME.... TORTURED ME PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY

He turned the page with no emotion

AFTER DOING ALL THAT MEAN THINGS TO ME HE IS SORRY....HE IS APOLOGIZING AND ACCORDING TO HIM I SHOULD FORGIVE HIM

And all pages were filled like this.. sometimes complaining about him and later her writings change....she started writing gud things about him..their blooming frndship... about him....and he was checking out the diary when the last page made him stop at his place it was

I LUV HIM....💔💔

And that was it.....the diary fell from his hand and he mumbled she actually loved me ......sweat started to appear on his face and he rubbed his hands over his face trying to calm himself but no it didn't help the questions which always disturbed him again arose in his mind

Why his father died...why he left him

Why his mother was like this....she left her son...why it happened to him only

Why he did inhumane things to Nandini

And lastly when he tried to do sth gud the consequences were same.....she left him

She didn't trust him

MAnik was shaking by then.....his eyes closed while he was breathing hard...it was suffocating.....sweat drops on his face......he fisted his hair to control himself but no it wasn't helping...he wanted to die why everytime him.....why everyone leaves me alone.....he had a panick attack and no one was there to help him.....his emotions was controlling him...he didn't want to live anymore...he got up to get a blade......he placed it on his wrist and closed his eyes when his father's words ringed in his ears

Raj: beta suicide is for weak people who gets afraid of their problems....who wants to escape from solution....... never ever do it ....u r my brave son.....

M not brave dad I m weak...I m tired of bearing everything....I wanna die (shaking voice).....

He rubbed the blade against his flesh causing a deep cut.......he closed his eyes tightly to bear the pain....the pain was too much but not more than the pain he was facing from days.....he felt dizzy his legs unable to support his weight and he stumbled before landing on ground and while felling his hand striked with vase which hit the ground besides him and produced a loud sound of glass breaking....manik fell on ground and some glass pieces pierced in his arm and then he closed his eyes smiling....the pain is going to end was his last thought

So I know u guys want to kill me ...right now u guys must be muttering abuses hawwww very bad .....

Do tell me did you like the update or not...itni mehnat se likhi Mene.... formatives Ka risk leke 😂😂😂....well phle medical student Jo itni chill hoge ke paper hai aur mein update de rhi...hats off to me 😎😎.....